Father's Choice of Sort

I Can't Forgive Him

Sandra woke up while Alfian was still sleeping asleep beside her. Slowly, Sandra took her body to the bathroom to clean up. The extreme pain and pain he felt at the core of his body. Not only that, his entire body was filled with red marks and also bruised Alfian bite marks. Sandra was crying in the bathroom.

" Stupid Sandra ! Why can you just cry ? Can't you explain to your own husband if everything you're accused of isn't true ?" Put Sandra on herself.

For more than an hour, Sandra cried regretting her own stupidity.

While on the bed, Alfian began to open his eyes. His head felt dizzy from being too angry. Now the incident in the park repeated itself in his mind. Alfian shook his head slowly, hoping that the pain in the head could be reduced. She realized that Sandra was no longer there.

"Sandra's definitely in the bathroom. " Guess Alfian. Then Alfian immediately got up and took the bathrobe in the changing room.

Seconds changed minutes, but Sandra did not come out of the bathroom.

" Is she crying again in the bathroom ?" Ask Alfian.

Just then, the bathroom door opened. Sandra came out wearing a bathrobe that covered her entire body. Both of his eyes looked very red and swollen. It can be ascertained if Alfian's guess is correct. Sandra cried, and it made Alfian's heart just as hurt. Actually he had no intention to hurt his wife, but again he could not control his emotions.

" You're crying because of what Sandra ? Because of me or because of Gilang ?" Inner Alfian still misunderstood and shook his head again because of the dizziness he felt increasingly becoming.

" So...!" For some reason, that word came out of his mouth, but Alfian was eager to ask about Sandra's condition.

Sandra who was still frightened immediately rushed into the dressing room. It hurts to be treated that way by the people he loves. They were even treated harshly. But Sandra knew, Alfian was like that out of anger and misunderstanding.

With all her heart, Sandra tried to hold back her tears. He can't be too whiny. He must try to clear up the misunderstanding between himself and Alfian.

Sandra replaced her bathrobe with a long-sleeved nightgown. After that, though still afraid Sandra went back to bed and waited for Alfian to finish bathing.

Not so long ago, Alfian came out of the bathroom. Their eyes meet each other. But no one spoke, Alfian walked over and changed his clothes. She knew Sandra had prepared clothes for her and put them on the bedside. Alfian refused to wear it. Although his body felt fresher after meeting the water, but his anger toward Sandra had not subsided.

Sandra took a deep breath. From now on perhaps he should get back used to Alfian's indifferent and cold demeanor.

Sandra was tired. His whole body was also very painful. Even now his wrist is starting to look blue. But all of that was nothing compared to what his heart was feeling right now.

Alfian walked out of the changing room while drying his hair with a small towel. When headaches like this, usually Sandra always massages her head. But his ego is very high to ask Sandra to help massage his head.

" Want me to help you ?" Sandra asked ignoring her fear.

Alfian looked at her for a while then threw the small towel on his lap.

Without commenting, Sandra immediately took the towel and approached her husband, who was sitting on the sofa.

Sandra began to gently dry Alfian's hair while occasionally massaging it. Alfian enjoys the touch of Sandra's hand which in fact can reduce the pain in her head.

" Don't expect to help me like this, I can forgive you and your love !" Alfian said cynically.

" I'm not cheating on you..." Sandra defended herself.

" I don't trust you anymore !"

" Please give me a chance to explain everything..." Pinta Sandra while still massaging Alfian's head.

" What do you want to explain ? Defending themselves ?"

" Not a mas, rather I want to speak the truth.."

Alfian was silent and did not respond.

" I admit I was wrong, I'm sorry about the contraceptive pill. I was scared at the time, really scared if I got pregnant. At first I was relieved that I didn't touch me.. But still, I was worried. At that time there was no feeling of love between us, precisely what was the opposite. That's why I'm just in case something doesn't happen that I don't want to." Sandra gave emphasis to her last sentence.

" But I had my reasons, I wasn't nineteen yet and I didn't graduate school. All I thought at that time was to obey the wishes of the late father. The fact that I can not fully accept, I who was a student changed drastically into a wife at a young age from someone I did not know before. Moreover, our relationship is not good from the beginning of the meeting. I wasn't ready to be a wife at the time, especially if I had to be a mother. That's why I decided to take the contraceptive pill. I'm sorry, really sorry. I know I'm selfish, once our relationship has improved and it's been like a proper married couple, I should have stopped drinking it immediately and spoken honestly to you." Sandra said pause.

" Why then are you not being honest and maintaining your lies ?! You know I want a child."

" I'm sorry, I was wrong.... I told you I was selfish. I still want to enjoy this time with friends, still want to work and work so I ignore your wishes. As a wife I should obey and say, sorry...." Sesal Sandra's. Now his body was trembling again, but as much as he could to keep from shedding any more tears in front of Alfian. Like the advice given by Nurul, he should be able to deal with the problems he made.

" Whatever your reasons. You've disappointed me. Not just a child's problem. But also about your relationship with Gilang !"

" Our relationship is not what you're accusing us of.. Gilang and I don't have the same feelings as before. We are purely just friends and Gilang only considers and treats me like a sister. If eating and chatting with him makes the mas angry. I am willing to stay away from him. " Sandra said again.

" Just eat and talk you say ?! You guys hug, he gives you too much attention ! Remember Sandra, you're my wife and she's my best friend. Even though he behaves like a big brother to you, you should be able to appreciate me as a husband !"

" I'm sorry mas.., at that time I was too sad to ignore me. They often don't come home and even avoid me. I would like to apologize in person. But I never gave him a chance to talk. I was confused, I was sad, but couldn't tell anyone for fear of making them worry about me..."

" You mean that only with Gilang can you shed all that sadness of yours !? " Sela Alfian with a tone that began to rise.

" It's not so... At that time, Gilang came just to ask me. Because I know I have not eaten, mas Gilang took me to eat and then we chatted and entertained me in the park. Mas Gilang knew I thought too much about things and everything just flowed.." Sandra explained.

Alfian closed his eyes for a moment. Could it be that what Sandra said was true ? Is his emotions too much ? Emotions really make him forget himself. Sandra's right, she's been ignoring him for days. If only he would give Sandra a chance to solve their problems together, it would not have happened like this either. Any more... Alfian failed to control his emotions. He always loses control when his emotions are over him. He even made his wife scared and hurt. Not just wounds, but physical wounds. Alfian then opened his eyes. Still confused about how to behave. Sandra had already apologized for the previous mistake, and for her mistake with Gilang, there was a share of her that Iki was guilty of. She should not have let her troubles with Sandra drag on so as to leave Sandra in grief and guilt. It is not wrong Gilang also has good intentions to entertain Sandra. But the worry, care, attention and comfort that Gilang gave to Sandra could not be accepted. After all Sandra is his wife, his best friend's wife, should not Gilang overreact like that. What else he said would soon be engaged. Not only he can misunderstand all that, but also his potential partner. As a husband and also a friend, Alfian felt his pride in shreds.

" I've forgiven the contraceptive pill. But I will still give you the punishment for lying to me. And as for the matter with Gilang, I cannot forgive him yet." Alfian said then left the room.

Sandra remained alone still stunned to hear the words of her husband. " Punishment ?" Sandra Mumbles.

" Even you have punished me by ignoring me and making me very miserable these few days mas ? You even hurt my heart, you hurt my body !" Sandra said sobbing back. It was hard to get forgiveness from her husband. Added with Gilang who somehow now reportedly. Making him even more depressed for fear that Alfian will hurt Gilang again. Sandra felt very guilty towards the man.

" It's all my fault, I'm so stupid that people who love me get dragged into my problems !" Sandra's tears are plaguesome.

***

Alfian then opened the door of his apartment. He squinted his eyes sharply when he saw Dias standing up as soon as he saw her.

" Why are you here ?" Alfian asked coldly, he was annoyed with Dias because Gilang knew the matter must be from Dias.

" Sorry Al's. I'm just worried about you guys." Said Dias while grinning the horse trying to melt the atmosphere.

Alfian smiled disdainfully.

" So you've been waiting for me here ??Were you not with him ? He knows all that from right ?!!" Alfian asked in annoyance.

" Eh, sorry .. I slipped yesterday.. I told people to take him to the hospital." Reply Dias who knows if the one discussed by Alfian is Gilang.

" So he told you to follow me ? That fast he's worried about my wife ??" Alfian asked disliked and full of probes.

" It's not Al.. We're just afraid if you lose control..."

" That's right, he told you to follow me ? Do you think I'm a dangerous person so you're afraid I'll do something no-no to my own wife ?!" Snap Alfian.

Dias melengos held in shame. Yes, actually too. Why are they too worried ? Alfian took away his own wife, not someone else's. But still... Alfian's attitude that could not control emotions made them anxious.

" It's actually your boss it's me or him huh ! Why are you more obedient to him ??!" Hardik Alfian cornered Dias.

Dias lowered his head and did not dare to answer Alfian's anger.

" I want to go ! Don't follow me !" Alfian said then passed.

" Where is Sandra ? Is she okay ?" Ask Dias.

Alfian turned the body. Staring at Dias with an unfriendly look in his eyes.

" Is that your business ?" Syndical Alfian.

Dias died again fleas and can not wart.

" Alright, then I'll go back to the office." Said Dias then ngibrit quickly left from the presence of the terrifying Alfian.