Father's Choice of Sort

Again and Again

" Well, what's first ? Not good as the others ?" Sandra asked after getting into the car.

" Nice as good as who ? Same or the same as Else ? Looks like you're really enjoying dinner." Reply Alfian coldly.

" Again and again... Taulah.. I don't want to argue with you anymore." Sandra said honestly.

" So you admit it ? Are you nostalgic for her ?" Lilly Alfian was not satisfied.

" hc ... Stop ! What do you want, mas ? From this afternoon we bring up the past." Said Sandra who was getting sultry with Alfian's accusation.

Alfian was speechless unable to answer Sandra's question. Yes ... He brought that up. He who since this afternoon was childish by discussing the past.

Without answering... Alfian immediately drove his car.

Silent again... The two are snarling each other. Sandra felt like she was going back to the early days of their marriage. Awkward and uncomfortable. That's what Sandra feels right now. He knew Alfian had changed since the discussion of the boy at that time, maybe Alfian was disappointed with the answer. But what can make, she is not ready if she has to have children now, even though in reality she will not immediately get pregnant in the near future and hide it from Alfian.

" Why shut up ?" Alfian asked After a moment of silence.

" Drowsy, tired." Answer Sandra's origin.

" Are you angry ?" Ask Alfian again.

" No..."

Alfian sighed violently. This is not what he expected. More and more, his relationship with Sandra has deteriorated since the discussion about children. He was upset he was disappointed, but confused how to convey it so that whatever Sandra was doing was always wrong in his eyes.

" Well... Disappointed with me ?" Ask Sandra.

" I mean ?"

" I know I'm disappointed that we had our last discussion about the boy back then." Sandra later said.

Alfian did not answer. Still listening to what Sandra wanted to say.

" I have answered God alone. Not enough yet ?" Ask Sandra.

" But I'm sure it's not from your heart... You have to say it.. Aren't you ?! I know you're just calming me down so you don't talk about it anymore. I think we both want it." Alfian Sahut. It was obvious that there was a sense of disappointment in his tone.

" I want it too ... Who does not want to have children after marriage ? Only if I can choose, I am not ready if I have to in the near future. I have a lot of things to prepare... Including mentally. It is not easy being a mother, while I want to be a good and perfect mother for my son. But for now, I feel unprepared and incapable." Sandra said she felt her feelings.

" Well, I get it. At your age, it must be hard to choose to be a mother."

" It's not a matter of age.. Even young age if it is thought carefully, it is ready by birth and mind then there is no problem being a mother. But this concerns the ability and responsibility..."

" So you mean, you can't afford to have my son ?"

" It's not so .."

" Sandra's... If it's gonna wait until you're ready, when will it be ?" Alfian asked Sandra.

It was Sandra's turn who was now unable to answer her. Alfian has a point. A year, two years, after college, or after success ? Is she ready to get pregnant after that ? Sandra's confused...

" or... You don't really love me ?" Alfian asked as he gulped his saliva heavily.

" She, don't drag this thing anywhere.. It has nothing to do with it."

" But for me there is San...! We get married because of an arranged marriage, then you get separated from the person you like, it all starts from a sense of compulsion. Or do you accept my love for something we didn't plan that night ??"

" Yes, you can think that far ! Not only did I not believe in me, but I doubted my love ! Okay mas...I'll do mas... You want to have children, right ? I'm ready ... ! That's the answer I want !!"

" But not because of San's compulsion...."

" It's up to you. I said I wasn't ready to get angry, I was disappointed, it was my turn to say I was ready to say I had to... I'm confused about you !"

Alfian did not answer. Only a deep breath was heard.

" Sorry...." Alfian said after arriving at the apartment.

" I'm sorry !" Sandra replies, but Alfian hastily pulls Sandra's hand away from her.

" What else is it ? I'm weary... "

" I know I'm too demanding... I'm sorry..."

Sandra did not answer.

" Yes..." Reply Sandra briefly.

" I don't want us to keep fighting San..."

" Same, I'm tired, too..."

" Well, now clean yourself up first and then rest." Gentle Alfian.

Alfian then walked to the balcony of the room, enjoying the cool night breeze.

Alfian stared far ahead, preoccupied with his own thoughts.

In the bathroom, Sandra did the same thing.

" Am I not being as selfish ? I even hid something from my own husband." Sandra Mumbles.

There was regret and guilt when Alfian looked down on his disappointed face. Actually Alfian was not completely wrong either. Which husband doesn't want his wife to have her flesh and blood ?? Moreover, Alfian was mature enough and established enough to become a father. There is nothing wrong with his desire.

" May I be too selfish ? Here I am the one who is very guilty. I should have followed all my husband's wishes.. But I kept big things from him. How should I be God ? Should I give up here ??" Sandra said in her heart.

Ten minutes later, Sandra came out of the bathroom with a fresher face and changed into a nightgown.

" God, I can change the bathroom." Call Sandra .

" Okay, I'll clean up." Alfian said then walked in and passed into the bathroom.

Sandra who felt tired then laid her body on the bed. Not forgetting she checked her phone before going to bed.

" Is he mad at you ?" Message from Gilang.

" No, we're fine.." Sandra immediately replied to the message.

"Thank God." Refractory.

Sandra no longer replied to him and then put her phone on the nightstand next to her bed.

Not long after, Alfian had finished cleaning himself and then followed him up on the bed.

Without further ado Alfian immediately hugged Sandra's body.

Sandra then looked at her husband's handsome face.

" Why look at me like that ? " Task Alfian.

" Just want to look at it..." Reply Sandra.

" I know I'm very handsome." Alfian Temptation.

" Yes, I am very handsome.."Sandra said while laughing admitting that.

" Definitely..." Alfian grew bigger and bigger, hearing Sandra's praise. Rarely does Sandra want to admit her good looks.

Sandra looked back at Alfian's face. This time Sandra stared fixedly into her beautiful bead of eyes, making Alfian become misbehaved at such a gaze.

" Sorry.. " Imbuh Sandra fast.

" I'm sorry for what ?" Alfian asked in astonishment as Sandra suddenly apologized to him.

" For all... Sorry if I was wrong, and sorry if I haven't been able to be a good wife to you ..." Sandra.

Alfian smiled hearing Sandra speak like that even though he thought it was a little strange.

" I'm also sorry if you've got a lot wrong and are often selfish..." Alfian Typhoon.

Sandra nodded then returned her husband's embrace tightly. Sandra loved to breathe in Alfian's fresh and fragrant body scent, making her very comfortable in his arms.

Alfian did not want to waste the opportunity, he then buried his face in the niche of Sandra's neck. As with his wife, Alfian likes to smell the soft scent of Sandra's hair..

The breath is so warm makes the feathers of Sandra bristles. She had already memorized, what her husband would have wanted if it had been so.

" I love you..." Whisper Alfian while continuing his hot activities.

The night is getting late, the air is getting colder, but not with Alfian and Sandra... Both are increasingly swept up in the pleasures of the world.