DRIZZLE IN THE EYES OF THE HEART

eps.24

"I can't take it, ' said Andra."

"But why, I beg you to tell me, if you're in trouble."

"I miss you who used to be cheerful and ignorant, and I'm sad you are now fierce and I can't understand, I said."

"I beg you to stop talking, and get away from me right now, Andra said."

"Well, I'm leaving, but one thing you need to remember, I love you so much and accept your shortcomings, I accept being treated like this, I said as I left them."

"Andra what were you doing that wasn't too rude to her? Ask dion."

"It was so that she hated me even more and wanted to leave me, I realized it was too much and I was also sick when I said it to her, said Andra."

"I really feel sorry for Amel, what was wrong that he had to feel the loss a second time, his love so sincere but his reply was never in harmony with all his sacrifices, Kely said."

God has brought me to him for a short time for the rest of my life, and I regret why God gave me all this when I really loved that girl. If I were to leave, I would be an angel accompanying his steps in the form of a shadow.

*****

I had absolutely no idea what was really going on in my life, everything was slowly moving away from me. Only Kely and Dion are still with me but I don't know if they will stay away. If that really happened, who would accompany me through all this destiny?

I accidentally met andra back in the classroom, she was so cute to me that there was no smile even her eyes looked so black. I was afraid to see him like this, but I also did not dare to ask because I knew that he would only scold me.

I followed him out when I wanted to get into the classroom, I was worried something might happen to him. He walked towards the campus warehouse, I was confused what he would do there himself. Andra stopped right in front of the barn door with her hands clenched and hit the old door and hit her head on it.

I couldn't bear to see it that way, his hands were already injured and also his body was starting to weaken.

"Andra stop, I say stop, don't hurt yourself, I said."

After hearing my voice andra looked at me with a helpless look, I was afraid to see her walking towards me because I thought she would hit me but no, she just hugged me and cried wet my shoulder, she said, and immediately andra fell on the floor, for I could not hold her body.

I immediately ran for help, and I went back to Al, and when I returned I no longer found him, did he realize that he was leaving? or has someone taken her away? I was panicking with Andra.

*****

After that day I no longer saw Andra on campus. Kely and Dion tell me that you went to Singapore, Dion and Kely do not know for sure why you went to Singapore with his parents. What makes me sad is that I didn't know you were leaving, nor did he tell me.

"You have to wait for andra to come back, said Dion and Kely."

"But what you're going to do there, and why he should be there, I'm here to be with him. I will help you solve the problem, I said."

"You won't be able to solve the problem said Dion."

"Why is that? I asked."

"Because the problem is so severe, I can't solve the problem either, ' said Dion."

"We'll wait for Andra, if andra doesn't come back then we'll be there, ' said Kely."

"I agree, said Dion."

I went to leave them both to go to the library and read books, to relieve the fatigue today. And also thought of finding a reason andra should go to Singapore to leave me.

Every day I don't focus on bringing the material in class, because my mind is only on andra who went far away without any news from her. My days are filled with waiting for her figure to come back with me.

My life is getting darker, because I feel my past is also left abroad, I am afraid if andra is also betrothed to other women there.

For days I waited for news from him but none, he never called me. I just want to know what you were doing that looked so bad at the time, I don't want you to go why.

I've been through for weeks but I haven't heard from you, actually what you're doing there so you're willing to let me wait for you. I don't know what else to do here without you.

*****

4-Apr-18

And after all this is done I will also part ways with Kely and dion. They'll have their wedding in a week and then they'll move to London. While I will continue to wait andra in Indonesia.

A week later the wedding day of Kely and Dion was in sight. So many invited guests who witnessed their love, I hope to meet andra here, surely she will come at her cousin's wedding. Finished their marriage but andra has not yet been seen.

I went back to see Dion and Kely to take him to Singapore to see andra.

"Dion, kely, you're still reminding me, that time you said if andra didn't come back then we'd go there, and now I want to go tomorrow we go see him, I said."

"We are also thinking the same thing with you, tomorrow we will go to Singapore to meet andra for your sake"

I am happy because they kept their promise to me, and I am also happy to meet you there.

After I get home from my wedding and Dion, I start packing for tomorrow to go to Singapore, I'll meet Andra there, and she'll be very surprised to see me coming.

The next day we went to the airport to Singapore, after arriving at the airport singapore I invited dion and kely to buy cakes for andra first, I chose a very beautiful cake for him.

"Dion, kely, before we meet andra, you must accompany me to the pastry shop for andra, I said."

Dion and Kely who heard my words look sad instead of happy.

"Well, if that's what you want, ' said Dion."

They also accompanied me to buy a special cake for Andra. After buying the cake, Dion drove us to where Andra was, a place that was far from my estimation. And I wonder why Dion took us to the hospital.

"Why are we going to the hospital? I asked."

"Here's where Andra, andra who's been battling a tumor that's been eating away at her body, she's never shown you that if she's in pain then she'll just leave you without you knowing why, dion said while crying."

"What's? why didn't you tell me? why do you have to hide something like this from me? I said."

"My attention is on andra now, andra needs me very much right now, I said."

After arriving in front of the room andra was treated, I increasingly cried to see him lying weakly helpless with medical devices on his body. I went in and saw him, and the family kept crying over their son.

I clasped andra's cold hands and paled, the blood flow began to go unnoticed.

"Why are you doing this to me? I cannot accompany you in your fight against pain. Wake up and see that I am here with you, I also bring you a cake that I have bought with all my heart for you. Look at me that you left a month longer, now that I've got my bachelor's degree and my bachelor's degree for you as well.

I will wait for you and accompany you to finish your studies. And you're still wearing that lock necklace, and only you can unlock my heart. And did you forget today? today is the day we even date a month."

There was no response at all from Andra, I saw andra convulsing, I was so afraid of anything happening with Andra, everything in this room was panicking, she said, we were asked to leave this room, so that the doctor could freely examine andra. I saw the corner of your eyes shed tears, I really wanted to wipe those tears but I couldn't get in.

During the doctor's examination of Andra I was incessantly praying to God for andra's healing. After a few minutes the doctor came out and told her they couldn't save her. Instantly I dropped the cake I was holding on to when I heard all the doctors' statements. I ran in to meet Andra and moved her body.

"Andra gets up, gets up and looks at me here, I'm here with you, you have to get up, we're going back to Indonesia together but not under these circumstances."

"Amel was calm and sincere andra left quietly, said Kely as he hugged me."

"But why did all this happen to me kel, I've lost Al and now Andra's also leaving me. What do I have to do now? everything is broken, I have no hope anymore, I said."

"No amel, you still have me and Dion with you, said Kely."

"No, you're married and you're moving to London, after whom am I with? I asked."

Kely and Dion couldn't answer my last question.

Andra managed to get me hurt for the second time. I don't know what to say to my unjust destiny. Who knows where I'll complain. My tears filled the corner of my eyes.

Either after all this, I am still able to love or not. Because I had enough to feel the loss of those who accompanied me all this time. They both left the pain in me. Gave me sweet memories then bitter memories.

I was not ceaselessly crying over andra's departure until andra's funeral was over, I hugged her headstone, I was sad that this was all happening to you and not me. I have to continue my own life again without you by my side.

After all that happened, I decided to leave Indonesia and go explore the world as I wanted. I want all the past to be forgotten and I need to be able to achieve my goals, because I'm sure you'll be happy there too when I succeed.