DRIZZLE IN THE EYES OF THE HEART

eps. 15

CHAPTER 4

DISILLUSIONED

Love begins to recede in two hearts that disappoint each other.

This morning I went to the campus library to do thesis work from the lecturer. A difficult task for a person with a brain like myself. I tapped on the table using a pen while thinking of a suitable theme for the thesis this time.

Dion saw me confused and approached me in the corner of the library.

"Hi mel, greet dion."

"Hi dion, give me back."

"You look like you're having a problem, Al problem? Ask dion."

"It's not Al's problem, but it's a thesis problem that I have to collect in a few days and I don't have any ideas at all" I said."

"Let me borrow your laptop, ask Dion."

"Are you able to? I asked."

"Look, said Dion."

Dion worked out my thesis very carefully but quickly, I looked at Dion silently and thought as if dion was Al. Not long after coming to me and Dion. Kely hugged Dion so fondly as the cold of spring, and they made out before me again, I threw away the face of not wanting to see them.

"Amel, where's al? Ask kely."

"I don't know, I'm back."

I left them intending to give them time together despite being alone often. Not far away this leg stepped suddenly someone pulled my hair from behind my body, and made my hair unravel. I don't normally break my hair because it makes me sultry.

"Mel, I swear you are beautiful, your hair is also beautiful and black, how about starting tomorrow you change the style? Ask kely."

"It won't work, he won't be fascinated by me at all, I said."

"But there's no harm in trying, right? Ask kely."

"I'm going to try it for Al, but you have to help me, I said."

"Let's calm I'll help you, ' said Kely."

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The next day I unraveled my hair on campus and walked around like a princess in a fairyland, everyone looking at me. But Al did not see me and I greeted him.

"Hi Al, I said."

"Amel, what is this! Where's your hair tied? I don't like this, you look more like a cheap woman, I'd rather you do, Al says."

I was surprised to see the reaction of Al who said rudely to me.

"What do you want, what I was like before and now I'm insulted, Al I also have a heart, have feelings and you've hurt it all."

My tears broke as soon as I heard a cheap word from Al's mouth being thrown at me.

"If you think I'm a cheap woman in your eyes, but why would you want to date me, do you think that relationship is just a word? you never think a little how often my heart hurts, I said at length and left it."

"I did all this, because I was afraid someone would snatch you from me, al said inwardly as he rubbed a tear that fell on his cheek."

Amel wrote back his suffering.

"We walk the same way but in a different direction."

"I can get away from him! he's the one I love."

"I'm waiting for your forgiveness for me, and I'm sure you'll be forgiven by me, but you didn't do that even once, you've had so much trouble saying sorry from then on until now."

Don't do this to me, I still want to be with you but it seems like you have a double personality that is sometimes kind and sometimes you look very rude. Prove to me that I'm really the woman you love.

I no longer know how to face you, I am also an ordinary human being who can not always be patient. Please don't let me really feel wrong about choosing you.

Last night I waited for a message from you that didn't come, I thought you'd realize that you were wrong instead of me and should apologize that you weren't me. Every now and then I look out the window hoping that you will come to see me and all my waiting is in vain. I decided to go to bed because I was waiting for you.

The next day I wait for you in college, but I don't see you at all, don't punish me by going out of my sight. Although many times it hurts but I can still forgive you because I have been blind with your love. And I'm asking you not to hide from me, because I won't be able to find you.

About 1 hour I waited for him and finally he came out of his hiding place but this time he was not alone, there was another girl he was holding. Once again I was hurt by him, but I kept trying to put on a fake face while still smiling at them.

God, the test of you is so hard I live, I can't hold back my tears. But I cannot cry in front of their eyes.

"Hi Al, my bro."

"Yes, said Al."

"Hi I'm syakira, and what's your name? Ask syakira."

"I amel, I said."

"Oh yes Al I went to class first yes, said syakira."

And now it's just me and Al.

"Al tell me, what's my fault? I asked."

"I don't have to answer it, and I have to go after Syakira now."

Al left me alone who was holding back the disappointment, and my tears overflowed after Al moved away from me. I hurriedly wiped my tears as Kely and Dion approached me.

"Amel what's wrong with you? you cry huh? Ask kely."

"No, I just remember the movie I saw last night, I said."

"You're lying, as far as I know you don't like watching, ' said Kely."

"Let's say mel, let me teach him a lesson, said Dion."

"You won't be able to do that and until whenever you can't understand what I've been through all this time, I said."

I left those who were still confused as to why I was crying.

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