Doubt Loves you

Playing Fire

" Yes, it's true that I mentioned Rita's name.. Because the woman I love is actually Rita, not you Anita.. I'm sorry...!!!"

PLAAAAKKKK...!!!

I slapped his cheek with all my strength. My anger can no longer be contained.

"If you love someone else, why did you marry me Angga Permana?!! You marry her..!!" I snapped at him, but at the same time spilled my tears.

"Why Angga..?!!! Why...?!! Even we just had a husband and wife relationship..!!" I covered my face with my palms and sat on the edge of the hotel bed.

Angga just kept quiet.

"I had to, An.. I just want to make my mom happy. You know my mama may not live long anymore." Angga's reason that I don't think makes sense.

"So that..?? You please your mama by destroying other women's feelings?? You realize, your mother is a woman too... Your sister is also a woman.. Imagine if this happened to your sister!! Then why isn't Rita the only one you got married to...?!!!"

"Your own fault..!! You were the one who teased me with your sexy clothes earlier right..!! How can I not be tempted..!!" reply Angga yelled at me.

PLAAAAKKK..!!!

Without a doubt, I slapped him back.

She held her cheeks reddened after getting two slaps from me.

"okay An.. I'll explain.. Five months ago, Rita came in contact with me. He declared his love for me. He regretted dumping me when we were not in a relationship. I became doubtful about our wedding plans An.. I still love Rita even today." He was silent for a moment.

"I've spoken to my family to cancel our marriage. But at that time, Mama was furious and she shocked An.. Mom's body instantly became drop. I was so scared that time. I finally accepted my mother's will. Mama said, while she was alive, she wanted to see me marry you and have our grandchildren." Clearly Angga with a clear face.

"I know, it's gonna be hard for you, An.. But please, live this marriage for my mom.. Nor do I intend to play with this sacred bond. From now on I'll learn to love you An. Please be patient. But don't force me to stay away from Rita."

"For God's sake, An.. We never did anything forbidden. We only met a few times and ate together at the cafe." The word Angga explains.

"That's it.. I'm dizzy..!! I'm sick of you..!!" I said as I walked towards the bathroom.

Inside the bathroom, the water flowing from the shower watered my entire body. I wash with a lot of soap, then I rub strongly - strong every inch of my body. I don't know why I feel disgusted. I was crying and drowning on the floor.

Memories from a year ago emerged from my memory. When we got engaged, I promised myself to learn to love Angga. The more the day, the love grows bigger. I was afraid of losing the figure of Angga who was attentive, especially his attention to my mother. But it turns out that my love has blinded my heart.

Then I remembered what happened a few hours ago. I gave my most precious crown to a man I now call my husband. All I thought about was that I could carry out my duties as a wife. But he did mention another woman's name.

"Oh.. Unfortunately my fate", I murmured while sobbing.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. Suddenly I gained strength that was out of nowhere.

"Yeah.. Rice has become porridge. I have to go through all this. I'm a tough woman.. There are people I need to take care of their feelings. Mom and Mama... He promised to learn to love me. I just need to be patient.. Like the stories in the novels that I often read.. When the husband who does not love his wife turns into crazy with his wife and ends up happy. Maybe my story will be like that one day. I won't cry anymore."

I gathered my strength and got up from the floor. I dry my wet body and use my pajamas. While the lingarie I used earlier I put it in the trash box in the bathroom.

I came out of the bathroom and saw Angga still sitting on the bedside.

I picked up my phone that I put on the bedside table. Then I walked away and said, "I'll sleep outside!!"

"No An.. You sleep in this room, let me sleep outside. But please allow me to take a shower first. I'll be right out after I finish my bath."

"Whatever you want..!!" ketus. Then I put my body on the bed and I covered my whole body with a blanket. I'm tired.. I've used up my energy for the first night's ritual.. Also to my anger and tears.

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