Doubt Loves you

Prov Angga Permana

2010 Years.

That night my heart was broken. I was sad to see my mother's condition. He has been battling for years with his illness. I really can't bear to see the more days his health is declining. I don't know how many times he had to undergo the hospital opname when his body dropped. He was actually pessimistic. She does not want to trouble her husband and children anymore. But we have always given confidence that he will be healed. We will do anything for him, we are sincere. Until one day the doctor who handles the mother suggested for surgery. But my mother did not approve of that.

I am the third of four children. Both of my sisters are married while my sister is the only one still in high school.

I, who was playing online games at the time, suddenly my mother called me. Maybe he needs a friend to talk to.

"What's up, Ma...?" ask when I approach him.

"Please massage your feet yes, Ngga.", ask my mom. I immediately followed his request. Start me massaging her legs. He was in a position lying on the bed. I know, mama must be enduring the pain. But he covered it up.

"Anga.., how old are you now?" Ask mama.

"Two Six, Ma... Why...??" replace me who asked.

"When are you getting married? You're old enough to get married. But until this moment you have never brought a girl into this house.. Don't you have a lover yet? If it's not wrong once you brought a girl.. Her name is if my mother remembers wrongly.. Hmmmm.. Rita yeah..??" Ask mama. "Rita's your friend or lover, isn't she??"

I was confused as to what to answer.

"Yes Ma. That's Rita... He's just a friend, Ma.", I replied.

Mama doesn't know, actually I did put my heart to Rita. But in reality, Rita approached me just to use me. I mean, he used to ask me to do his college work.. He asks and whines spoiled. So that makes me anxious and long - long I fell in love with him. Since I was smart enough, I was happy to always help her back then. After he graduated, though he never stopped me again. In fact, I see that he often walks with other men. Maybe he is not my soul mate.

"Mommy wants to see you get married, Angga..!! Mama is afraid that not enough age mama until that day comes.", pinta mama while shedding tears.

"Good, Ma... Angga try it Ma.. Mama also helps prayer, easy - hopefully Angga's soul mate will come soon." I replied to calm him down.

" Now it's better for Mama to sleep, because it's night. Let Angga massage Mama's legs until Mama sleep yes", I said and followed by a nod of mama.

After my mother went to sleep, I covered her body. I opened my laptop again, continued my online game. Suddenly a message came in my medsos.

"Hah.this is one of the students on campus." My inner.. "Just "Kuladeni.. It's nice to cheer up tonight".

Without me knowing, starting from social media, now I am close to a girl named Anita. She was one of the students at the college where I worked. Yeah, I don't work there as a lecturer. I'm just a regular staff. However, in addition to working there, I also have some side jobs. Not bad, my income can be little by little I save for my future. I am also a frugal man.

One day I took Anita to my house, met my parents and my brothers. Anita looked both surprised and confused as I introduced her as my lover. And that night we finally officially established a relationship that is often said by people 'dating'.

Then he invited me to hook our little fingers together. I don't know what that means. I thought he was so innocent. But I also want it.

"Sorry, Nit.. I did this to please my mother who asked me to get married. I haven't fallen in love with you. Let time answer it. Love will come at the right time." My inner.

Anita is different from Rita. Anita never asked me to help her with anything related to her college. He's so independent. All I know, at that time he was determined to immediately complete his study, improve the value that plummeted because he was busy dating his former lover. His ex-girlfriend is overprotective.

I am different from her ex-boyfriend. I never forbid this or that. Trust each other and build good communication. But I haven't fallen for you yet, Anita. Will later....????

Prov Orchid Permana : END.

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