Doubt Loves you

When..??

Next morning...

I was surprised when I opened my eyes. We've faced each other. I watched his face for a long time, without feeling my eyes dripping.

"Nga.. All this time I learned to love you because I thought you loved me too. And right now I've fallen in love with you but it turns out you're still expecting someone else. You know how broken my heart is??"

"And I don't know what's going to happen with our marriage. I hope our marriage is not just a status. I'll take your heart, make you fall in love with me."

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It is now three months of age for our marriage. I still feel flat on our relationship. I haven't seen the love in his eyes for me. And my mother had started to suspect seeing our behavior that never showed her romance. Little by little, I began to forget his mistakes. I had to start opening up and forgiving her so she could fall in love with me.

"Mas, I want us to be able to live in our own home soon." I said one day.

"But your mother will be living alone in this house?" angga.

"It's okay - what is it.. I'll come here often after work or on weekends."

"alright.. Later in the afternoon. I want to take you somewhere" said Angga.

"Where are you...??" manya curious.

"Let's see later", Angga answered making me more curious.

Be that afternoon Mas Angga picked me up after work hours were up. I don't know where he's taking me. Somewhere, in front of an unfinished house a hundred percent. But......

" wait.. I think I recognize this house.. Like I've seen, but where is it..??" my inner.

"The surprise..!! This I made your dream home An.." said Angga disperse my daydream..

"How do you know?"

"If not mistakenly a year ago I saw your sketch paper on the table when I called you. On one of the papers it says "My Dream House... I see the house you designed is good too. So I took the paper. And I started waking up three months ago, a few days before our wedding."

"But for what?" many wonder.

I spontaneously embraced his left hand.

"That's it.. Don't overreact to this An.." chirped Angga while releasing my hand from his left hand.

"I'm tired of always pretending in front of your mother anyway. I want to be myself."

"Jleeebb..!! It means what, Angga, how to talk like that." My inner.

"Next week we're moving into this house." Angga.

Then we looked at the house. One-story house that is not too big. There are three rooms there. The living room, spacious living room and kitchen. There is also a fish pond as well as a gazebo that can be used for gatherings - family gatherings later. I was quite satisfied to see the house. According to the plan I made.

''May this be a good start to our marriage", my inner being.

After we finished looking at the house, we took the time to stop by my in-laws' house. We visit them once a week.

Thank goodness they are healthy.

'''So when are you going to have grandchildren?" suddenly my mother asked about grandchildren. I didn't even think.

"You've been married three months.. But you haven't heard from me about you being pregnant, son..?" This time my mother looked at me.

"how do you want to get pregnant. have sex with us only once on the first night three months ago." my mind.

"Mama doa'in ya Ma.. Hopefully Anita can get pregnant soon." This time Angga answered.

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Arriving at my mother's house, we told her about our plans to move house. I was hard at leaving my mother alone. But how else... I don't want you to know that me and Angga are just pretending to be happy.

That one week we used to prepare everything for our new home, including shopping for household furniture. The most fun thing is to shop.

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