Doubt Loves you
Episode Introduction
Vacuous... Yes, at least that's how I feel now that our marriage is entering its fifth year.
My name is Anita Kumalasari. I'm called Anita. My age is 29 now. I'm a housewife. I live in a small town in one of the Islands Province in Indonesia, my beloved country. Yeah, you know what? The island where I live is famous for its tourism. Lots of beautiful beaches here. The beach with white sand.
I lived in a simple family after my father died of a heart attack while at work, when I was still in junior high school. All three of my brothers are still in college and my sister is still in fourth grade of elementary school. My mother eventually became a widow. My late father was a section chief and included high-achieving employees in his office. I know that because during the funeral process, a representative of his company read out the achievements that the deceased had earned since working at the company. From then on, our mother fought on her own to send us to graduate S1. I know my mother's ups and downs, because I'm the kid who lives with her while my sisters go to college off the island.
I have a husband who I don't know if he really loves me or if there is a compulsion to marry me. I knew him in 2010. More precisely that year we were just starting to get close. From the beginning, it was just a fad that I greeted him through my social media. He's Angga. He worked as an administrative staff at the college where I attended. Just a whim at that time I greeted him when I opened my medsos. I saw him online.
" Night, Sir! " typ me.
" Yes, evenings.", he replied.
" What else, sir? How come it's not sleeping this night"? type me familiar. In college, I never dared to say hello. But how can I be friends in Medsos?? Oh yes, at that time I proposed a friendship to him because I thought maybe someday it would be useful, for example I could ask for lecture information.
" Play Games Online.", the short answer is clear and concise.
" Ooohhh.", reply.
Angga Permana is one of the staff at my campus. Yes, yes, yes.. Not handsome - very handsome.. At least look not to make shame - shame is when invited to walk - street or condangan. But I like guys who are smart compared to handsome.
I don't know what made me brave at the time. I wrote it again in my social chat column.
" Sir, are you going out with Rita?" My investigation. Rita is my sister on campus. She's smart and super duper pretty, I think... I waited a long time for his reply.
" Geez sir.. All of this faculty already know all the tablets sir.", I reply.
" Yeahh.. That's just gossip, Nit... Anyway, if it's true that I'm dating Rita, why the hell?" asked Angga who made me confused to answer what.
" It's okay sir, just want to ask.. Yes already so, already yes sir. I am sleepy", type me because it is already eleven o'clock at night. Then I turned off my laptop.
From then on, Angga and I chatted through our social media. And finally exchange phone numbers. I didn't dare say anything about it on campus. She looks cute with me. But we often whatsapp. Anything can be used as a conversation with him.
Until one day he asked me for ground coffee. Of course my friends at college didn't tell me. Because I'm the type of person who doesn't like to confide in my life to others, including my own friends.
This Mr. Angga looks different to what I used to see on campus. On campus he is a proud and quiet person. I was stunned to see him telling stories in a style that looks like complex mothers.
" Hey..!! How can you see me like that?!! Later have a crush loohh.", he said chuckling.
"Ha. ha.ha.. I'm amazed to see Brother is so different at the same time on campus.. Sister whose name is 'two-faced' yaa.", my mockery while laughing. Yes., I changed my nickname to him from 'Father' to 'Sister' at Angga's own request. He said don't call father donk, but I'm that old. At most our age is only a few years different.
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