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Chapter 13 - The Pain is Not the Play

“Why are you back when this heart is not for you anymore?” Intan mind, made confused with the situation.

Sandhi has filled Intan's heart. However, since the incident at the restaurant the other day, Intan has really let go of Sandhi. Another woman has been chosen by Sandhi, since then Intan decided to stop loving Sandhi. Plus, there is currently the name Devano that fills the heart space. Not as a substitute love, but as a new love that has been able to color the days.

Sandhi's message was ignored. Mobile phones were put down, and room windows became the goal. Intan looks at the night sky through the window frames of the rooms. So long, so many minutes.

Nothing interesting up there. As far as Intan could see, all that seemed was an overcast cloud. It doesn't look like a star, let alone a moon. The night is really dim, like the mood of Intan.

“What should I do?” Intan muttered while still looking at the night sky.

Half an hour passed and Intan was still upset. The names Sandhi and Devano alternately filled the mind. Intan weighed, which one was best to decide. Choose Sandhi whose love has returned, or choose Devano whose name has filled the heart space.

Intan surrenders. He could not make a rash decision. He continued to weigh until his heart and mind were tired, and fell Intan in a dream crib in his sleep. Yes, Intan's dream tonight is really beautiful, because Devano is present in his dream. The figure of Sandhi was also present there, but unfortunately Intan did not feel the same beauty.

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“Buuuu. Brother Intan has panda eyes againiiiii!”

Mira's cry was very loud to shake the entire house. The drama began that morning with the advice of Mira's mother. The usual thing, and in no way provoke Intan's reaction to interfere let alone argue with his sister. Intan was completely uninspired, as the names Sandhi and Devano continued to fill his mind and heart.

Intan realized that he had to make a decision immediately. It is not good if it must be constantly burdened by the mind. Intan's routine becomes chaotic mood swings.

“Sandhi. He's planless. Not firmly!” intan said while clenching both hands.

Intan's mind began to weigh in, but this time it was more of a state of view. Intan remembered Sandhi's attitude which he considered to be wishy-washy, because at that time Sandhi refused to continue the feeling but now suddenly came up with the excuse of having canceled the matchmaking.

“Devano, she is a devinisi of comfort. With him, I can be myself.” Intan's smile expands.

Intan's struggle with his own mind is over. Intan has come to a decision. Choosing Devano is a choice of Intan, no more offers let alone doubts.

In that instant, Intan also replied to Sandhi's message. Intan thanked and apologized to Sandhi.

“Thank you for how you feel. Sorry, I can't continue my story with you.” Intan Reply.

Sandhi's response was so quick. It didn't take long for Intan's message to get a reply, and Sandhi's reply was a convincing question.

“Are you sure, Tan?”

“Iya. I'm sure once.”

“Good.”

Just that only. Sandhi ended his message with the word ‘baiklah’. There is really no effort like Intan often dismisses the character of his novel. Not the same as drama. For Intan, the closing message that Sandhi sent signifies willingness for Intan's decision.

“Huft. One burden of the heart has been overcome. Sandhi, may you soon find your own happiness.”

About Sandhi, Intan no longer thought about. Now, Intan prepares to leave to meet a mysterious invitation that asks her to attend the Nine-Star Cafe.

Bright color clothes deliberately Intan select. Pink color with a little floral pattern on the dress Intan describe a mood that has returned to normal. No more turmoil, no burden of the heart that disturbs the mind.

Pluck up!

Intan's motorbike key dropped when he was about to start his motorbike. When looking down to pick up the keys of his motorbike, Intan realized that the sandal shoes he was wearing were damaged next door. There's a connection that's broken, and Intan just realized it. Intan watched her sandals for a while, then decided to replace them with regular sandals.

Finished with sandals, Intan left for Cafe Bintang. Too bad, suddenly Intan flickering. More than that, it is unexpected that Diamond's clothes must splash in a puddle of rain when they reach the end of the alley. The splashing stain of the water was clearly littering the Intan shirt. Intan was upset, then chose to go home and change clothes more appropriate.

Jeans and pink hoodie, Intan choose as a substitute outfit. Intan also wears regular glasses to dispel street dust. Intan policy that likes to not close the glass part of the helmet, so that the eyes are often flickering due to naughty dust scattered on the streets. It's classic, but that's Diamond's habit.

“Fish pool again?”

Intan shook his head because he felt haunted by the presence of a fish pond that seemed to be everywhere. For a moment, Intan even remembered when he fell into a fish pond. It's a shameful incident, but it's a way for Intan to meet Devano.

Step Intan is made carefully when passing through the fish pond area. Intan's eyes continue to watch out for footsteps and fish ponds alternately. Even though it has behaved so, still Intan is limbung and almost fell into the pool.

“Aaaa!” yang Intan taut's.

Intan really almost splashed into the pool because he was hit by a little boy who ran around without looking ahead. Fortunately, Intan was able to survive. He nimbly avoided the pool area as his feet lost balance.

“Untuuuuung only,” said Intan slowly while holding his left chest.

Feeling safe, Intan walked back. However, bad luck came back and it seemed to be a sign for Intan.

“Au!” Intan's head was hit by a ball.

“Sorry, Ma'am. My son accidentally.” The child's mother apologized.

Intan who is used to facing small children is very understanding. Intan has no problem at all. Intan's smile expanded, then continued his steps lightly.

“Number 69.”

Intan's focus is on the tables in the outdoor area. His initial smile continued to expand. However, it was not long before it had to wear off when it saw the ominous sight at table number 69.

There, at table number 69, looks Devano sitting opposite a man who is not intan know. However, that's not what makes Intan upset. There was a woman sitting next to Devano. At first the woman seemed to have a casual chat with Devano. After that, the attitude shown actually crossed the line. The woman hugged Devano tightly, but at that time Intan's footsteps were approaching.

“Dhea. Keep attitude!” Devano took off Dhea's embrace.

“Dev! I love you. Isn't that what you want to hear from me?” The woman named Dhea seemed to widen her smile. “I told my parents about our relationship, Dev. So, come and propose to me,” added Dhea.

The deg!

Intan was glued in silence. His eyes were fixed on Devano and Dhea, also a foreign man who had yet to notice his presence. Intan's heart was pounding at once, but what was created was a heart pounding. Plus, there was a stinging feeling. So crowded, unbearable. To the extent that the tears of Intan fell slowly, moistened the cheeks, fell again, increasingly heavy, and could no longer express what Intan was feeling.

“The pain is not main.” Inner Intan.

Tears of Intan continue to fade. Until when Intan decided to turn around the body even the pain was still lingering.

“Am I invited here just to watch Devano with her lover?” Intan continued to churn calling for questions.

“I have rejected Sandhi's feelings. As soon as Devano I choose, in fact he already has a lover. You stupid fool, Tan!” Intan is beating himself up.

In a state of severe heartbreak, Intan continued to pedal steps. Intan did not care about the gazes that had looked at him. Intan no longer cares about the surroundings. Intan's heart was so broken that what she expected had been lost. Not even that feeling Intan said, he had to be slapped with the situation.

“Why did this happen to me? Should I be loved? But who is the man who will love me with all his heart? Does anyone? Is there anything I can do again so I can meet true love?” For the most part, Intan cried out in his heart.

In a state of still confused, there are still those who pull the hand plan Intan. At once Intan was forced to turn around, but he was greeted by someone's embrace.

“Intan, don't go!” whisper someone in Intan's ear.

Who is that man? Looking forward to the story!

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