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Chap 30's. Mail ~Dict

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From: Azzalah@mail.com

To : Didilanairi@mail.com

How are you doing? College must be exhausting, right? Spirit huh? Quickly pass! Long time no problem either. Oh yeah today's first therapist, his sense of calm, I was like I could meet myself in a childhood full of wounds. Although tiring, but comparable to that felt.

Today there is also something that disturbs my mind, it has been almost 2 weeks father went on a business trip. He promised to pick me up today, but he didn't come.

My relationship with my sisters improved a little, although there were still feelings of anxiety and alertness when dealing with them, but not like before. Everything is starting to improve a little. I hope everything goes well, and so will you.

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From: Azzalah@mail.com

To : Didilanairi@mail.com

Today I'm going on a date with brother Davin, the doctor said it's good to do, so I'm more comfortable with Kusuma. They will spend time with me alternately.

By the way, we've never been, have we? You can try it with your girlfriend there. Reportedly beautiful bule girls, you must like her.

Always happy, Dikta.

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I could only smile amusedly reading the girl's thoughts, during this year quite a lot of changes to her. Or is it just my feelings, he has more words to say when writing? I continued reading the next mail, because I had not had time to read it. After all, Aza is just sharing stories, not demanding and even forbidding me to reply to his mail. I don't know what the purpose is...

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From: Azzalah@mail.com

To : Didilanairi@mail.com

Second therapy, and this is the first time I've met my dad again in almost two months. It looks like he is not okay, the tulsng on his cheek is clearly visible. Which means he's lost a lot of weight.

Besides, there are things that make me happy. Dad allowed me to follow the pesantren. Remembering what you said when we prayed together for the first time in Japan, I needed to learn to teach and study Islamic science as well. My religion is not just status.

Always healthy, Dikta!! His raw spirit!!

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From: Azzalah@mail.com

To : Didilanairi@mail.com

Tomorrow I go to the boarding school, everyone has agreed to take turns to take control of me to the psychiatrist. Today there's something silly I heard, but it's impossible for me to tell you. I just wanted to tell you to be curious.

Talk adults age 21++, you won't be able to hear it. Brother Gavin and Brother Vino have repeatedly rebuked me for not thinking strangely.

Oh yeah, this looks like it's going to be the last mail. There's still a chance I'll send you another mail in the future. But not in the near future, and even then not serutin usually.

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I was confused, what was he talking about? It is impossible for Gavin and Vino to teach Aza to watch porn. Duh... I became so bad at thinking like this because of Aza's ambiguous writing.

Now that I live alone, Kusuma is kind enough to buy me a house here. Because the early days all felt wrong. I've had a bad experience here.

The first time I got here all the facilities I got, just like any other student who got a scholarship. A home and share a residence with one or two people. Damn my housemate has a sexual disorder. They're bisexual, they can't even shake a two-dip dip in front of me.

And worst of all, they often invited me to join, until at the end they were forced and almost raped. Lucky it turns out I was also given care by Kusuma, so I did not have to experience such a disgusting thing.

Even so I do not want to just enjoy all the facilities provided. As much as possible I do not use the monthly money sent to me. I chose to find a part-time job, and I got it. Being a waitress, was also quite helpful to my daily life.

It's gruesome... But I have to hold on, be a big guy without exams is just bullshit. This is all I've had a privilege from Kusuma even makes me feel uncomfortable. But... Enjoy it and be grateful. We have to live realistically, right?

In a year, my college will be over. But my girl even postponed her college until next year. It's okay, as long as he's in college, I'll try as hard as I can to achieve a brilliant career.

I remembered our conversation in Japan, even though we were already married, Aza emphasized to me to be free to meet other couples. Yes, indeed as a normal human being my heart will definitely yell here and there... I'm elus our wedding ring,...

"When the word love comes from getting used to it, but not with us, right? Why is it that the farther away we are, the more temptations that come, the more I miss and love you? I should how?" I looked at Aza's last photo, it looks like it was immortalized as she celebrated her birthday with her family. When he lost his memory, there he looked like a girl his age, looking naughty and sexy.

Sexy...

Don't blame thinking like this about your own wife? Because honestly I myself am also blind to relationships. I used to love a girl, a high school girl with me. But she was a girl with a high social status, and her taste was high. So it makes me better to step back slowly before liking further.

She is smart, beautiful, and ambitious, she even finished her high school in just 2 years. I am the capital of this scholarship was lost, I only limited to getting stable values and good behavior this can be what with a superior person like him. Just like Aza and her family.

If Aza lived a normal life since childhood, I'm sure it's not a college degree anymore that he is pursuing. Even his two brothers are currently making the thesis behind his daily life that looks relaxed.

Can't stand it, I open the Mail app, I want to write this even if I don't know when Aza will read it. As he had said in his previous letter, he would find it difficult to access the internet, roughly like that.

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To: Didilanairi@mail.com

To : Azzalazne@mail.com

Hi beautiful!! I thought I asked how are you not pantes? You'll always be fine with your guardian angels. The spirit!! Healthy fast! Come on, follow me here... Hearing your good news calms me down while making my rebellious soul want to meet and greet in person.

You know, like I've died something to you. To make my heart always sloping like this. You told me to enjoy my time looking for another woman, but you took the key to my heart. How do I open it? The key is in you.

The spirit of learning, hopefully useful and can be a good wife... Wife I will always wait for your news until anytime.

Greetings full of love, your hubby 💗

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I also sent a random video of mine, whatever he'll assume, I don't care. I don't know, am I currently in the BuCin phase? Because I can't stop thinking about the girl's flat face. I was just curious, said Vino the girl had started laughing a lot.

But I don't know at all, because I've never seen it in person. In addition, Vino is quite stingy to share the news of his sister. I only asked for the latest photos Aza when only one, he never gave.

"You went to college first, so the rich man, and I thought I'd share my brother's news or not." That's the voice message he delivered, the message is still on my phone. I deliberately set an alarm to always be excited when I feel bored working or studying.