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Chapters 25. I'm Up A Stump

Exploring the Meguro park which is increasingly crowded at night, because the scenery displayed is also very pampering to the eye. Aza sat next to her father who was taking a short break from his trip.

"Aza can go first, same brother Vino." Gavin said, when he saw his younger brother's attention was fixed on the crowd that seemed from a distance where they rested. Like there is an interesting exhibition or attraction there.

"Can ya?" Ask Aza who Hendri approved.

"But you have to make sure to always be with your sister later." Hendri's message, which was influenced by Aza, was enthusiastic.

Aza also went with Vino to the center of the crowd, apparently not something special. But interesting for Aza, the article in the middle of the crowd there is a Melon Cake shop. One of the cakes that Aza really wanted to try after Dorayaki.

"Well!!! It's delicious, brother?! The visitors are very crowded." Seru Aza's.

"Want to?" Tanya Vino, who was of course influenced by Aza.

Then Vino invites Aza to sit in a chair not far from the center of the crowd. Ask the sister to wait there, so as not to get tired. Because the line is long.

"So don't go, don't go anywhere. Wait for brother." His words were immediately obeyed by Aza.

Dropping for almost thirty minutes, Vino returned with two packs of melon cakes that his sister had coveted. His heart was beating while not getting his sister in place the last time he left her.

"Sister," Vino turned quickly, finding Gavin and Hendri standing already standing behind him.

"Where's Aza?" Hendri asked in panic when his neutrality did not capture the mere figure of the girl.

"D-dad..." Vino kelu, "Sorry." Vino's reply was weak. Then Hendri's phone rang.

"Follow him on," Hendri replied seriously, with a worried look. Vino and Gavin stared at the withered face of the father, shaking his head.

***

The girl was speechless staring at the lights of the city she was passing through, pensive expressionlessly behind the clear glass of the carriage.

When the train stops at a station he doesn't know, he goes out. Running in no direction, his gaze was unsettled. Until his attention was fixed on the tall tower whose building was visible from where he stood. Run hard to get to that high place.

Wush....

The night wind blows the hair, although early spring the air still feels very cold. But Aza did not pay attention to it, because the contents of his head were raging. The girl cried with both hands propping her head up and resting on a height guardrail.

A few days ago, his memory returned a little. Only a small part, and therefore he decided to make peace. Her memories were just memories, not with the emotions she felt inside her.

Angry because of his circumstances that must lose memory, so as not to be able to usher in the last journey of his loved ones. And the person who had recently given a new feeling to her also suddenly disappeared without any news.

Tightness in the chest, when aware everything feels mirage. Feels real but just plain. Tired, his goal of survival was no longer there. To whom else Aza should be happy, to whom else Aza should lean when anxiety strikes, and to whom else Aza learns to accept the situation.

"Please leave me alone." Aza flat-aired. A figure hiding in the darkness appeared.

"Miss," Aza just raised one hand and flicked her as a gesture.

"I just need time" said Aza Lirih.

His entire memory suddenly returned just like that in a moment where he should feel happy. After Vino's departure earlier, the view felt yellowy, and his head suddenly dizzy. His memories forced him back, until he fell silent in his tears as he remembered all of them.

And this is where he is at the moment, trying to reflect and absorb his feelings. His sadness, his pain, and the pain of loss and disappointment. Banging her chest that felt tight, grabbed her head hair when her head felt throbbing when the memory that was originally negative sepia turned colored and clear.

"Aghhhh!!!" His shouting.

"You crying again, baby?" The voice of a person interrupts her, the soft, delicate voice of a woman who gives her love.

"Sister!!! Brother Amanda!!" He shouted, looking in all directions. Nil. Aza smiled wryly, she must be hallucinating.

He silently stared at the flickering lights of the city, tired of crying.

"Peace?" He muttered in a monologue.

"Yesterday is like it's easy to say you're going to make peace and enjoy what's right now. In fact, it's pretty heavy." Talking to himself.

"If I make peace and forgive them, will I be happy?" Recall all the tips and hopes of her two loved ones, Amanda and Jacob. Aza knew and realized, her ego had been hurting herself. But that was his goal, the more he tortured himself at the same time he felt satisfied the family that tortured him also felt guilty.

But, it is true Jacob said. Until when will he continue to be caught up in his feelings of vengeance? When can he enjoy his life happily?

"Om Jacob, sister Amanda... I'm sorry, and thank you." Aza smiled softly with tears flowing down the river.

After being satisfied crying and calming her heart, Aza decided to go down and return to the hotel. However, while descending the stairs he met his father and his older brothers.

"Don't go suddenly again yeah deck, we're no longer in Indonesia." Said Vino, whom the others cheered agreed. However, there was no response that Aza gave. His body was silent stiffly not returning the embrace of people.

"Please let me go" he said slowly.

Which of course immediately made the hearts of people beat fast in shock.

"Son.."

"Dance...'

"Everything was too sudden, my memory has returned. A few days ago I felt able to make peace by accepting you here." Aza pointed at his chest.

"In fact, it all feels hard." Further.

Hearing that, Hendri immediately gathered in front of his daughter while holding Aza's tiny hand. Her tears could no longer be dammed, holding back the fear of losing her daughter that had only been reached recently.

"Whatever it's gonna do for you son, don't leave me son ..." Please Hendri.

"Master, everything is difficult. But I'll try, a-dad." His tongue is stiff, even though several months he has been smoothly bearing the term on Hendri.

"Please help." Aza also sat down to face her father.

"Don't hug me, I feel uncomfortable." He said as his brothers were about to embrace him.

"As a first step, we thank the deck. Because they are trying to accept us. We're sorry, we've given you such a bad memory to remember that it's caused a long trauma." Davin.

"I'm sorry brother, ah no... Forgive sister..." Further.

"After this we will try to give you good memories to remember." Added.

***

Gavin was speechless staring at the wall before him, the wall was the barrier between his room and Aza. Today it feels like a rollercoaster, this morning he was chatting like without a partition with Aza. But tonight, even the thick walls that restricted their rooms were decisively defeated.

"So I will try my best to make you happy. Just shut up in your most comfortable place, brother will come." His monologue.

Behind that wall, Aza himself daydreamed more. Baffled. Have to behave how, obviously he feels lost. Of course, but it's been almost half a year now. The people or families of Amanda and Jacob may have begun to accept, but for him this all felt like it was only yesterday.

His hands shook, his chest rose and fell suddenly. Cold sweats, even if the room temperature feels normal. His anxiety disorder is approaching, and he has to go through it all on his own. Actually he was used to the solitude, only this time... He misses the crowd. Long for warm hugs, people's mental support for her.

Nausea approached, she quickly ran to the sink. Wash his face rough, then stare at his bias in the mirror. Her face was haggard and pale, her eyes were getting narrower and swollen from crying. Staring coldly at himself, with tears soaking his face mixed with the water he had just wiped on.

Walk hastily towards the bath tub, and turn on the shower. Letting his body get wet with that cold water. His chest still felt like it was being crimped.

Outside the room, Devi stands hesitantly with Davin. He had the initiative to accompany Aza.

"He wouldn't have been a problem if it was me, I wasn't involved with you guys in the past." Devi assured Davin.

"Pray me to take his heart." Devi said, then kissed her husband's cheek.

"All right, good night." Davin then kissed his woman's forehead.

Devi knocked on the door of the room, but after many times doing it there was no response.

"Maybe he's asleep," Davin tries to stop his wife.

"No way, after today's incident who among us fell asleep at a time like this? Even Dad hasn't fallen asleep, has he?" Devi gave up, her feelings became unpleasant.

"I was worried that Aza would do strange things" she stopped as she screamed from the room.

"Listen that! Your sister is not okay!! Quickly do something." Davin heard the sound of Aza's screams earlier, immediately trying to break down the door of the room.

Gavin, whose room was next to him, came out of his room in a hurry.

"The place!!! Open the door!!!" Shouted Davin while continuing to push the door with full power.

Gavin also helped without asking what situation was going on. After trying many times, the door finally opened until it broke.

"AZA!!!!" Shouted them at the same time.