
"Where the deck is. I don't see it" my father's voice came back I heard, I almost didn't know where to hide, but Aril stood quietly
"bang. can be this bad if you see we're together gini" I'm getting worried, dad's voice is getting closer.
"jeez.. As scared as his father, he has gone up now let your father not see" he quickly climbed the stairs, he climbed the stairs,disappeared from sight just as dad entered the break room.
"this father bring food for you, said your mother did not bring supplies" father met me while giving a packet of rice chicken geprek in his buy at the stall
"why father bring Ira food, Ira has told mom to buy food outside this lunch" I was promised Aril a pack of delicious fried noodles in this city,that's why I didn't bring supplies this morning
"you want to buy food where you are, or you want to eat out, yes.covenant same man!" I have to answer what, I can have that father filing against me
"no yeah... Ira order fried noodles earlier Same friend, that Ira has not eaten abis" I show you the package of noodles that are open and still contain because only half I run out, right,fortunately, Aril had climbed up while carrying a package of noodles that were also not finished
"that's why there's a package of juice of two, who do you eat the same..!?" turns out that the juice bang Aril forgot to bring and, what if the father suspected.
"have a friend Ira yah, again to his bathroom" father only beards and then came out after giving up the package of chicken fat that had been brought, thank God he did not ask much more
that's how I feel since my rejection of my father he's more suspicious than trusting me, the problem of serving him still keeps me going whenever he wants, he said,I don't know when I can escape the forbidden love of my stepfather
***
"the other mother said, Mom, let Ira wash the dirty dishes" I saw that she was busy collecting the dirty dishes and taking them to the wash
"nothing, let mother only.you will be tired of just coming home from work" said the mother still with her activities.
"mother will also be tired of running out of holiness after, Ira is not tired of kok Bu, in the store Ira just stood serving the buyer" said I was not in the mouth of the mother, she continued washing the dirty dishes
"Bu .. is not as good as mother stopped just take the wages of washing clothes, Ira is already working Mom" I feel sorry to see the mother who is increasingly unkempt body
"your mother wants it to be Ra. but later she fears the money your father gave her is not enough for our needs" for how can it be enough if the money that father can be half of it is always given to me, once I refuse because it is my feelings have been bland towards father, indeed,but he got angry and strangled me because I felt I didn't want him anymore
"Mom.. later Ira pay Ira half for mom, so I don't have to be holy anymore" mom looked at me with a smile when I said my intentions
"indeed, you're pretty boy with the grandest of your salary"
"yes enough ma'am, Ira did not pack the fare at the father's shuttle, besides Ira always brought supplies to the store, so not much expenditure"
"emmm. ya let mom run out this month first ya puri, it's not that mom connect again" I smiled as soon as I heard mom want to let go of her job, it's just that,it's been years since I was a child, my mother has been doing laundry work in some places, my mother looks very tired
dad always gave me money, but all I spent on my needs, especially snacks and skincare that my dad had to wear, now I've worked, he always gave me money,let me just give it to my mommy salary
***
dad is still with his habit of satisfying long-term desires, and it's very tiring right, because I have to work during the day, if I refuse, of course he will be angry and suspect me
somehow she could have such a big lust, sometimes I wonder if she doesn't get tired of doing it every night, either with me or with mom,can be up to hours father acts with a variety of styles he wants, I can only obey the will of father even though my heart already does not want to, he said,sometimes I wish when I was bullying my mother out of the room so that my father would take me off, but my stepfather was very clever before the action will he lock the two rooms first from the outside, but my stepfather was indeed very clever before action will he first lock both rooms from the outside,so when my mother or sister woke up they couldn't get out of the room right away
" today I'll wait..!" whispered while I was enjoying dinner, I happened to be alone in the kitchen, my mother and sister were watching TV
"Ira is tired of you." I replied slowly, Dad's face turned angry when I refused his invitation.
"why!?" he said while pouring water into a glass
"there were a lot of customers in the store, and again I did not let Kan ira rest a week" my father looked at me sharply, I just mean he understood, my body was very tired
"yes already.. tonight you rest, tomorrow I don't want to hear rejection again" he said as it passed from me, I sigh in relief, finally tonight I can sleep soundly
***
[assalamualaikum beautiful.].
aril's message on my phone read with a smile
[greetings waalaikum] I replied quickly
[again this, have you slept]
[new to fall ni bang] answered me while pulling the blanket, I was already very sleepy, but the message from Aril made my eyes bright again
[already praying isya dear.] the message I did not immediately reply, I did not pray, I almost never prayed even though I know every reading, I mersa dirty body, I did not pray,it is not worth worshiping my God
[sholat dong aka...sahayah pray do not forget to pray, may be at ease all our affairs in the world and in the hereafter] the last message makes my heart feel sad, why good my god, my God, my God,presenting a man as good as Aril to me this dirty one
[yes. now Ira wants to pray, already yes then later on in the line again] I wiped the tears and rose from my sleep, why I did not ask the creator, why I did not ask,to escape this life of mud
[ready to pray directly to sleep, tomorrow you work right, happy rest beautiful brother.].
don't forget emot kiss at the end of the message, only emot never done in the real world to me, that man really took care of me,caring wholeheartedly for her real girl swallowed stained
I saw the old prayer rug folded over, as well as the face that I almost never touched, in the chant of the verse I handed myself to the Khalik, he said,will my Lord forgive me for the sins I have committed, may I receive your blessings, owner of the heavens and the earth,if it is appropriate to lift me from the mud of sin that has washed me for so long
I sat down on the prayer mat, my hands held out as a form of supplication.