
I looked closely at Aril's mother's face, instead of looking at Sarah's face, then my mother's face, the third seemed very happy, while I, do I have to be happy? as far as they could be concerned, the thing they were talking about could not have happened, marrying me perfectly, before the witnesses and relatives who were celebrating,since Ira they have married the man she loves, that will not happen...! my stepdad will be against it, for my father it is better that I die than any other man, there will be no happy marriage here
I'll just go, if I don't know the direction of the destination, wherever my footsteps take me that's where I'm going
whether out of town or the island family though, I definitely don't want to live in this stifling place anymore
"Ira... How do you think son ..?" mother's question blew my daydreams, I still couldn't say anything, I wanted to answer it agreed, but how could I give empty hope to them
"Ira if it still takes time to think, mother does not what son.." I looked at the face of Bu Nila, a face filled with pleasure, he wanted to give me time to think, he wanted to give me time to think,if they knew I just wanted to get out of here
"however son.." the woman asked again about my decision, now her countenance changed in worry because of my unhappy expression
"Bu.. thanks for asking Ira to be mother's daughter-in-law, Ira asked for a little time Mom, Ira will tell you immediately about Ira's decision" I forced a little smile, I'm going to tell you,I hope they don't feel disappointed because there's no answer from me
"well, I understand, maybe you're surprised because of our sudden presence, later if Ira has an answer immediately tell us yes.." the woman still looks calm.
"i hope you will give us good news" he said again still reviewing a smile
"i'm sorry Miss Nila, maybe Ira still needs time to think, I also hope we can be made by Mom..." my mother's timpal asked the two guests to drink tea that they had not touched
"Mom... Ira please don't tell my father about this proposal yes. "I asked my mother after Sarah and Miss Nila left our house.
"lho..why is Ra. this is happy news" said the mother while cleaning the glass on the table.
"Ira doesn't want you to know now, later if Ira has a decision" she sighed and sat down next to me
"Ira..
"Ira does not want to rush to make a decision" I said briefly
the day changed, there was still no chance for me to leave, even if my savings were just a little money I would still be reckless, than I had to run away and marry my stepfather, he said,let me disappear from their lives
***
"Mom .. I have a three-day job out of town, there's work to be done there" my father's words to my mother made me aghast,I close my ears to the wall of my mother's room to make sure what's new is true
"usually if there is work done from here well" my father's work as an iron trellis welder has indeed progressed a lot, many orders that I have been working on lately
"yes ma'am.. It's been made here but the tide has to be dad too, so I have to go there" maybe this is my chance to go,dad's not home for three days then I'll leave this house
"yes, when did you leave?"
"tomorrow Ma'am, make sure the children of mothers take good care of ya Bu, Ira also do not be loved wandering, girls should be able to take care of themselves" the father's order to the mother
"It's big dad, I'm still forbidden to go" I tried to protest with my father's orders to forbid me from leaving the house
"the point is that I don't want my children to be why-why when the father is away from them" the father's voice was full of emphasis
"yes, if that's what you want" I'm moving my body away from the wall of the room, I have to devise a plan as to how I go without you knowing
tonight I have to serve my father as usual, I really hope this is my last service for him, after being content to vent my lust whispering to me
"father will go three days out of town, when he comes home he will get a lot of money from work, it will be enough for our plan" I looked at the man I called the father, he said,he really wanted to take me on the run, but I'm sorry I was going to disappear before he could take me away
when I'm about to melt my eyes in Aril's face, any way I might go Without him knowing, I can't be unfair to him, let me meet him first, let me meet him first,uploading what before that I could not say, if any answer Aril later I will receive, I will accept,for sure I have admitted everything and my struggle is not because I do not want Aril or run away from the proposal of the man I love, I went to escape from this very disgusting life
early in the morning, my father picked up his friend with a pick-up car full of iron trellis ready to install in one of the hospitals outside the city,I waited until the state of the house was quiet and then entered my mother's room to find my cellphone hidden in my father, I checked every corner of the mother's room as well as the wardrobe where the father's clothes were placed, incidentally unlocked,usually dad always closes the meeting, I think he forgets
quickly I sibak one by one his clothes father and I found my phone in the folds of clothes that have not been worn for a long time, I grabbed the object quickly and put it in the pocket of the pants, I put it,then tidying up the location of the father's pact a little messy
I came out slowly towards the middle room, my mother still hasn't come home from taking my sister to school, the atmosphere still looks lonely, I immediately entered my room to activate my phone
there were a lot of incoming messages when my phone was on, with Aril and Sarah's names, I think every day they sent me messages, none of which I read,because all I thought about was telling Aril that I wanted to meet
[bang... Ira wants us to meet now!] write me on the green app and get two blue ticks right away
[Ira... Thank God, you finally called Abang, where are you?]
answer the man I miss so much
[fetch Ira in front of the alley right now!] doorstep
[well, ten minutes from now until] I rush into the alley of my house before mom gets home, the eyes of the day are up,mother will usually go home when Azka selsai school because the mother is always waiting for her youngest child since the mother is no longer a washing worker
I waited a while for the man I was waiting for to arrive, without further ado, and we left, not a word that Aril and I said we were just henig,until the motorbike we were riding stopped at one of the parks in a complex owned by a gas company in my city
the surrounding atmosphere is quiet there are no visitors, there are only a few security passes with a motorbike controlling the state of this vast park area,this park is open to the public but also kept tight so as not to be polluted because of the evil hands that can damage its beauty
we sat on a bench in the garden while keeping our distance, in front of us lay Bougenville flower plants that bloom with various colors, so beautiful in combination with green grass
"you're okay, aren't you, Ra? Aril started the conversation, I stared at him and nodded
"what really happened Ra, why don't you want to accept lamran Abang" I turned my face away from her looking ahead with a blank look, she said,what I will say after this will probably recede his desire to marry me, take a deep breath and then exhale again, hoping that when my breath is blown the weight in my heart will come with him,but it is not, it is getting heavier in the heart
"bang... before his Ira apologized for not being honest with Brother" the man linked his eyebrows at me full of his signature
"Ira will accept whatever you think of Ira after you listen to what Ira is going to say" I took another breath in trying to strengthen myself to tell you, I said,the man in front of me was still sitting quietly waiting for my explanation
"actually so... Ira is not a holy girl like you thought all along" Aril's face changed as soon as his eyes looked at me sharply, there was shock there, I haven't said anything more disgusting yet but Aril's expression was already so,did I just blur my intention to be frank