
my hands shook holding the testpack with two red lines on the top of it, clearly indicating that I was pregnant, cold sweat splashing down my face,I leaned against the bathroom wall and still kept looking at the testpack which pointed to the results of the forbidden relationship with stepfather all this time, my legs felt limp, he said,unable to fit my collapsed body onto the wet bathroom floor
as for where this could happen, what should I do, this child cannot be left in my womb, the child whose father is the husband of my mother.
at that time I felt like my world was collapsing, my lustful love with my stepfather had put me in this state, man if you know we've been betraying him for years,I have to do something, this fetus has to be removed from my uterus
I got up from the floor slowly, washed my face that had been soaked by tears, I tucked up my messy servant and then moved to get out of the bathroom,before I hid the testpack with two red lines in my pants pocket, I was afraid I saw it
slowly I opened the bathroom door and I saw my father sitting restlessly waiting for me, the man came closer with a face full of question marks
"how about...?"
father's question I didn't answer, I just nodded conditionally right if I was pregnant, father rubbed his face rough with both hands, he must be just as agitated as me
"now Ira has to do with dad, Ira doesn't want this kid in Ira's womb..."
I can't imagine my fate if I get caught pregnant with my stepfather's child, especially I will face the final exam for graduation, gradually my stomach will be more bulging, more and more, People will surely realize the existence of this child in my body, what should I do now I'm afraid.
"father will find a way, we will fall your womb, you do not panic gini yes"
dad's words calmed me down a little, hopefully there's a way out of this.
***
"Mom... Ira did not come home today, then after school Ira want to go to the house of friends Ira sarah, Ira Ira Ira should do it, ma'am..."
mom stopped her activity of hearing my words
"why do you have to catch up, son..What is the event at Sarah's house?" ask me who's wearing socks and going to school
"there's a lot of work, ma'am, we're gonna take the graduation exam so all the work we have to do, I'm afraid it's not ready to be Ira nginap aja Bu"
mom just nodded her head to hear my explanation, I kissed the back of my hand and then said goodbye to school
on the way to school my father was waiting for me right at the intersection, I will not go to school today, I have got a place where we will do ab*rsi, he said,a place that is far away can take two hours if taken by motorcycle.
we stopped at the SPBU to change my school uniform, then continued the journey we still had to take another hour, my heart was uncertain,I often hear people can bleed to death while doing ab*rsi, how come if it happens to me, various thoughts are raging in my head, but I can what it is at the moment, he said,there's no way I can let this fetus be born and be a lifelong disgrace to my family
***
"how many months has it been...?"
"i don't know, but I've had my period longer than two weeks"
the man nodded his head and stood up from his seat.
I was worried about continuing to squeeze the hand of my father sitting next to me.
"he's been helping people like us, you don't have to be afraid" persuaded me to try to calm my panic
" is the money provided? in accordance with what we agreed yesterday, if the money has been handed over, I will take action"
said the man who was about to commit an ab*rsi to me
hurry up, I'll drop the money that's been in the envelope and hand it to the man, you know,shortly after counting the money of millions of men he took me and my father to the floor of the shophouse that was used as a place of medical practice and also a pharmacy in front of him,there were two other people in the shophouse who were serving some customers who bought medicine, I saw when entering this three-story building, I think the dispensary and the medical pamphlet in front just to cover the illegal activities of Meraka.
after climbing the stairs leading to the third floor, I was brought into a soundproof room, I could see from Diding a layered room, there was no window in the room, only a very cold AC
my body lay on a narrow bed after removing the clothes I wore and replacing them with the sheaths provided
dad didn't go in that room, he was waiting for me outside because he wasn't allowed.
both of my legs were raised in the right position and tied up to the refutation that was connected to the bed, I felt my Breath go down, up, The air conditioner so cold made me shiver because only a sheath covered my body.
I could only close my eyes when I saw the man wearing gloves and begin to approach my leg area, and then I felt my stomach pressed with my hands,a moment of silence until I felt something enter my lower body, facing the excruciating pain, it even felt through my stomach.
"Aaaa... saaakiit...!!!"
my screams he did not hear right, it continued to reach my stomach, until it felt like I was almost dead in pain, a pain that made all the bones in my body like a crumble
"Aaaaaw aaampu...!!! sakiyit...."
I kept screaming, wanting me to just let go of my body and run away from this pain, but other than my legs my hands were also tied, as much as I could get up.
the man was still sitting between my legs, the hard object that was the tool to lift the jan*n still he put into my body, several times he pulled the thing that created the pain,then enter it again and go back to my virginity
"saaakiiit sir.. saaakiiit! his race is very sick"
sweat poured out on my body, the cold AC no longer felt, the man did not even stare at me, he still continued to do his work.
I'm not powered anymore, the hutuh is getting weaker, the man is still not finished with his work, while the area under my body feels wet by a puddle of fluid.