
As Shaka said yesterday. Nimas tried to be on time, at nine he was ready with a series of bags that he brought. Just a little bit of bag clothes went into his bag. Intentionally he did not bring all because he only had two bags and not too big.
It was approaching nine in the morning and the signs of Shaka's arrival were already there. Nimas had already seen Shaka's car from a distance and drove towards him. I don't know why his heart's beating any less. The nervousness also struck as Shaka's car got closer and finally reached the yard.
"Are you waiting a long time?"
"No, I just sat on the porch."
"All right, come with me. Let the bag be me. Do not lift heavy. That's not what pregnant women do, is it?"
Nimas lowered his head in shame. He was so ashamed that anyone else knew of his condition. This was only his sister Bryan knew, not both his parents and also the two old men.
"It's okay. Do not be sad, later Bryan will also be sad if you see you like this. Yuk!" Shaka once again invites Nimas to come with him.
The man really treated Nimas well, even too well. Although Shaka has to pay a heavy price for what he does, he still treats the kind girl who keeps herself in a rampage by everyone.
Nimas felt moved and flattered, the kind treatment by his future sister-in-law made him a little calm. He hopes his parents will treat him the same. It may be impossible, but I can hope, right?
The car drove as soon as all the goods and Nimas already got in the car. Sometimes Nimas glanced at Shaka who saw once that he was crying. His face and eyes are so thick. Wanted to ask, but he hesitated, they did not know and only met twice. It's not good to ask something sensitive.
Silent.
Shaka and Nimas are immersed in their own world. Wanting to talk also feels like I don't know what topic will be their discussion. Until a voice that broke the silence sounded in Shaka's ears.
Hueks.
Nilam has as much as possible to hold back from nausea, but in fact he can not hold it too long. The voice that could have been bothering others was finally heard in Shaka's ears.
"You nauseous? Wanna puke? I'll pull the car over if I throw up."
"No, just nauseous. There's nothing I can spit out. I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable." Nimas feels bad.
"You haven't eaten yet? I'll find a restaurant then." Shaka looked around, maybe there was a restaurant or anything that could prop up Nimas' stomach. Hearing Nimas saying that there was nothing he could spit out made Shaka think, the girl had not eaten anything.
"Not breakfast yet, I've tried to eat, but my stomach can't accept. I'm sick of eating anything."
"I have chocolate, eat it. If this one I'm sure doesn't make you sick." Shaka offers snacks that are always available in the car. The habit of Raisa whose mouth can not be silent makes Shaka stoke snacks in the car.
"thank you. Are you gonna take me home?" Nimas tried to melt the atmosphere. It doesn't feel good to have to be quiet with each other all the way.
"Before we go home, we'll stop by somewhere."
"We'll be there soon."
Shaka takes Nimas to Bryan's last house. Shaka had prepared his heart and mentality if he had to calm Nimas who would be shocked, shocked, and devastated by the death of Bryan. Just as his family was also devastated to lose one of his family members.
"We've arrived." Shaka took Nimas down and it made Nimas frown into several folds.
Nimas is confused, why was he taken to the funeral, who among the Bryan family died? Is this what kept Bryan out of touch all day? His family is mourning? Nimas was guessing what happened. Thinking that yesterday was a day of mourning for Bryan made Nimas feel guilty for thinking nothing.
"Shaka, who died?"
"A little while we'll be there. You can tell who we're going to visit."
A few steps after that short chat, they reached Bryan's house.
"Why stop?"
"We've arrived." Shaka replied with dewy eyes.
Just yesterday it felt like Shaka and her brother had a fight because the older brother did not want to share clothes with her, but now there was no more Brother that he would disturb. There is none and never will be.
Nimas reflexes turned his eyes to the tombstone not far from him. The heart that immediately stops beating and the breath that feels tight is the right picture for what Nimas is feeling at this time. As if there was no air entering his lung cavity, Nimas felt increasingly tightness that felt painful.
"Bryan" said Nimas very softly.
The girl sat down lethargic, she was still silent unmoved. Crying hysterically is very difficult to do. His cheeks were moistened by the roar of tears, but there was no sound of stuffing from his mouth. Sounded silent and Shaka knew, crying in silence and without making a sound was an incomparable pain. That's what he felt all night.
Shaka crouched down beside Nimas. He ventured to put a touch on the girl's shoulder. He may not feel the loss of a lover forever, but he tries to understand and give strength as much as possible to the woman he is forced to marry.
"If you want to cry, cry. Don't hold it. It's gonna hurt. I'm sorry if I told you like this. I thought I'd wait for the right time to tell you this. But, after I thought about it again, there is no right time for a sad news. Until time will never be able to understand someone's suffering. I hope you're strong, Nimas."
"What happened to Shaka?"
"Sister Bryan had an accident yesterday morning. The deceased died an hour after being taken to hospital. And Bryan's sister told us about you, Bryan asked me to replace him as your husband."
Nimas who initially lowered his head while stroking the headstone in front of him immediately turned to look towards Shaka. His eyes flashed and a stroke of grief was clearly imprinted on his face.
"No. I don't want to, just let me endure this alone. I don't want to sacrifice anyone's feelings. Leave me alone here Shaka. I'll accompany Bryan. In fear of the dark, she must be terrified inside there. I'll be right here. You can go home." Nimas said that with a firm, many times he wiped his wet cheeks because of tears that never stopped coming down.
"You broke your promise to me, Bryan. You promised me yesterday, hm? You will come with responsibility. But you even went to leave me? If I had known yesterday was our last meeting, I wouldn't have let you go home. Why don't you give me a chance to hug your body, why?" Nimas dropped himself to the ground, hugged the mound of dirt that was still wet and his cries broke out there.