Between Love and Taste

Chapter 24 The Sadness of Kayla

''You mean?'' ask Kayla who does not understand the words of Alvin.

''I used to love you but not after you thought I was that bad, I realized you were not the kind of woman I was worth fighting for. You know there are women that I deserve to fight for now you should find a way to make our relationship separate immediately.'' Alvin walked away from Kayla who looked a little shocked with his words even he now returned laughing with the circumstances that made him become like this.

A few weeks have passed since Alvin officially proposed to Kayla, who knows what makes Rayhan seem to just disappear, no one even knows where the man went. Kayla has tried to contact him many times but all the results are nil mobile number that Rayhan used now he can not call again. Kayla is increasingly frustrated that plans to cancel the arranged marriage become very complicated especially Alvin just gave it to her to find a way to get their marriage canceled.

''Brother Rayhan you have the heart.'' Kayla cries how she will marry the man she never loved to live with the man who now loves the other woman in her life.

''Brother Ray, please come back.'' Lirih Kayla on the sidelines of her cries. Whether to whom Kayla must find out Rayhan's whereabouts she herself does not know she can only cry because repeatedly Kayla told her father to cancel her marriage to Alvin but all in vain as if her father shut his ears tightly.

Even all of his older brothers couldn't help because of his father's stubborn attitude.

''Kay?'' mbak Diana knocked on the door of Kayla's room for two days Kayla never came out she just stayed in the room.

''Enter the door not in the key.'' Kayla screamed with her eyes starting to swell. I don't know how long Kayla cried for herself she couldn't take away her grief.

''You don't be like this.'' Diana hugged Kayla. She knew very well the feelings of her sister Diana herself could not do anything she could only try to strengthen Kayla and give her motive to be stronger and patient.

''I can't brother. How can I live with a man I never loved.'' Kayla said slowly.

''You can learn kay. Brother sure Alvin is a good man for you.'' Diana said she was very sad to see Kayla who had been crying for days and not eating.

''You know there are many couples out there who get married without any love from each other but finally they can live happily?''

''I know it's brother. But I'm not that strong a brother I won't be able to.''

''You can definitely Kay, as long as you open your heart wide to your future husband. Brother is sure you will be happy.'' Ma'am Diana rubbed the top of Kayla's head which was now lying on her lap.

''I don't know it's going to be hard my own brother is so sad Kay heard all this happened to you. But I'm not sure if you can get through all this.''

Kayla just remained silent as if her body and heart were dead again with the circumstances that forced her to endure.

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A month has passed now Kayla is being made up by some wedding fairies.

Kayla will now only live her life as Diana always told her to try to erase Rayhan in her life and open her heart wide to the man who will be her husband even though Kayla thought it was impossible for her to love a man who has a lover in her life as if to go into a pit of misery even so Kayla will try to be a wife who obeys her husband and accepts Alvin as it is. Let God's destiny determine what will happen in the future.

''Kay?'' Alisa now goes into the bridal room where her daughter is.

''How dear are you ready?'' Alisa rubbed the back of her daughter who looks very beautiful with a traditional Javanese kebaya dress looks very graceful.

''It's already me ready.'' Kayla took a deep breath she was still staring at the reflection of her reflection in the mirror which now showed her who was tidy with the bride's grooming.

''I'm sorry dear, I'm sorry because you can't help you to change your father's decision.'' Alisa wiped the tears that now fell by herself there is a sense of pain that now she feels she is very sad when she sees her favorite daughter will marry a man she never loved.

''This is not a mama's fault, this is all the destiny of Kay mah, you don't blame yourself mamah.'' Kayla wiped away the trail of tears from her mother and hugged her very tightly.

How sad his chest felt so claustrophobic with the bitter reality that he now had to accept. Maybe it is true that love is his choice now there is no way he can not repeat the time even free he repeated the time of the man he loved so much even no longer care about him.

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Rayhan was just speechless he even felt so guilty he just thought what Kayla would think of him but Rayhan could not do anything especially when Mr. Arif asked himself to be the head of the house sick where Reza's father from Kayla asked him to stay there.

Not without reason Reza did that with all his efforts Reza helped the economy of his family with the intention that Rayhan was self-aware and willing to follow all his wishes.

Rayhan is aware of how much he is trying to be with Kayla he will not be able to because of what he is when compared to Alvin who is the hope of a Reza.

''You're sure Han, you'll come at Reza's son's wedding?'' ask Mr. Arif who already knows about the problem of Reza and Rayhan.

Actually Arif did not want to interfere but when he found out Rayhan accepted Reza's decision to move on duty that's when Arif felt surprised. Didn't Rayhan used to turn down his offer on the grounds that he didn't want to be too far away from his family but a few months ago Rayhan was willing to make Arif very confused.

Until Rayhan finally told her about her problems with Reza's daughter when Aris knew for sure the cause Rayhan was happy to accept the offer to stay away from Kayla.

Mr. Arif always supported Rayhan's decision he always kept Rayhan to avoid maslah with Reza because he knew very well how Reza's attitude.

''I'm sure sir, I have to congratulate you for this farewell I should really be able to forget. Maybe in this way I can forget that woman.'' Lirih Rayhan sadly he cannot continue like this with a heart that always expects a woman who is very difficult to reach.

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