Azka And Rasha
Episode 8
Dilemmas
I really want you
I melt my frozen heart
But I wasn't ready, I was in a dilemma
I don't want to hurt you
Because the heart is still doubtful
But me, need love. I was in a dilemma
I miss you when I no longer meet
Should I accept, Love is a dilemma
After the incident of eating together which culminated in the drama Olive Popeye, Azka and Rasya no longer engaged in conversation either indirectly (chat) or directly. There was a deep feeling in Azka's heart. The Olive-Popeye gift given to Rasya made her feel trapped in guilt. He felt another comfort with Rasya, only his wits and logic still lingered on the unrequited feeling in Agil. Azka decided not to contact Rasya for a while. Likewise, Rasya, himself felt enough to be Popeye in his imagination, rather than demanding it on Azka.
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“Azka good morning” Welcome Ocha and Nadia from inside class when Azka just arrived.
“Pagii, what's wrong?” tanya Azka was suspicious. Not usually they welcome with such a style of spoiled if there is no mode behind it all.
“Nothing kok” answer them compact while still smiling sweetly. The sweetest smile Azka had ever received but was poisonous to her. ‘There must be a wish nih’ thought Azka sure.
“Seriously? Sure there's nothing? How's smile?” tanyanya is still investigating
“Lo mah, dibaikin judes, not dibelain ngambek” finally Ocha normal face back
“Fiuuh, I like your face as it is, gausah sok manis” Azka replied as she continued towards the bench leaving them at the doorstep.
“Ka, he said Agil again heartbroken, not welcome Dinda” Ocha told Agil's latest news that made him shocked instantly.
“Seriously? So you guys seseneng it because of this news?” asked Azka while looking at the faces of her two best friends alternately
“Ya is not Seneng Ka. But the news from the ipit, he said Agil would shoot Lo really. Not gossip kayak yesterday” information from Nadia that suddenly made Azka more surprised like being struck by lightning.
“Serious??” the question just came out of his lips. “Eh, I mean, he really wants to shoot me after just rejected? Damn it!” his curse while moving his hands roughly pulled out the books for the first hour of study.
“He thinks I'm what? Just a runaway doang because he's heartbroken?”
Ocha and Nadia just put their shoulders together not knowing what Agil's motives were. They only heard from Ipit. Maybe they think it's like a good thing for Azka. But knowing the previous incident was that he was rejected by Dinda, it made Azka doubtful. ‘Could-can he benefit in the likes of I who was pendem from 2 years ago just for the escape of inner doang’ Azka grimaced. ‘but, indeed Agil know the feelings of I really so far?’ similar questions filled his mind until it felt like his head was extremely claustrophobic.
The bell rings a sign that the first lesson is about to begin. Mr. Su came in and gave some explanation of the intermolecular forces that were carefully observed by all the students in the class. Every now and then Mr. Su gives examples of questions and exercises that must be done by students in front of the class. Some students came forward to work on the practice on the blackboard. The explanation from Pak Su was as vague as Azka's hearing. Azka felt her focus was not at the maximum at the moment. Some such explanations were simply missed as his mind returned to recall the words of Ocha and Nadia this morning.
“Eh, so how the hell is it, try to re-explain Cha” as he approached the Ocha table.
“Tumben Lo does not understand, usually Pak Su's lesson is the most literate?” ask Ocha of astonishment
“Don't know, don't konsen” replied the origin, then pulled the notebook Ocha towards him.
“No konsen because of news Agil want to shoot?”
“Sssst, diem Cha. I'm learning again. mending explained this one to Gue” Azka replied rather sewot.
“Sini-here. Ribet deh if Azkania already this” Ocha then pull the book back and explain the material that Azka had pointed at in his book. Azka nodded her head in understanding.
“Makasih Cha, hehe” said after Ocha finished explaining.
“Sama-sama”
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After school, Azka and Ocha decide to stay for a while at the school mosque. Mushola is the best place to stay, especially every Friday’at after school. Jum’at day they were repatriated before adzan dzuhur reverberated. There is no agenda of Friday prayers together at the school makes this school quiet even though the new time shows at 11:30. Not many people in school make a mushola that is basically always comfortable, to be very comfortable. The two lovebirds slept on the floor with prayer mats while waiting for the dzuhur adhan.
“Cha, really yes Agil will do it?”
“Nwhat gelakuin?” Ocha is still not connected to what Azka meant.
“What you said this morning” Azka greeting was greeted with a nod of Ocha's head who understood the direction of the conversation.
“Yes don't know either. Wait a minute malem”
“That's yeah?”
“Heem”
“Trus Gue should how dong?”
“Ya it's up to Lo Ka, I don't know how to give advice Lo”
Azka sighed violently, turned around and sat leaning against the wall.
“Lo also has not told me again the same I how Lo feels now”
Ocha is right, Azka has not said how she feels now. Not because he did not want to, but because he was still confused by his true feelings.
“Gue also confused”
“Lo with Rasya how?”
“Gak. I yesterday gave the doll to Kak Rasya”
“Bonneka?”
“Yang I bought in central” Ocha ber oh ria while nodding his head. “Emang what doll?”
“Olive”
“Bwahahahahahaa”. “kocak lo Ka. Swahahahahaa”
“What's funny anyway?”
“Pair is the same popeyenya?” asked Ocha while holding back a laugh.
“Well, it's fake isn't?” Azka turned her shoulders and then leaned her head against the wall and closed her eyes. Silent.
“Gue is comfortable with Kak Rasya, but my mind is still filled with my curiosity about the feeling I have tanem from 2 years ago. I still keep thinking that I should wait for Agil. Maybe if Agil shoots this malem, I won't accept him. Not now, because maybe she's just a runaway because she was rejected by Dinda. But later when he really has the same feeling” Azka said that without pause. Ocha nodded her head, she must have understood what Azka was feeling.
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Tonight Azka as usual doing the task even though tomorrow is Saturday. Nugas is her passion. Azka did not stop writing the answers to the questions on the worksheet. Sometimes he glanced at the cellphone that had not budged on the edge of the pillow.
“Dih, it has been made severe baper turned out to be just discourse” He muttered. ‘kok I so ngarep really in shot huh?’ Azka scratched her non-itchy head and then tried to focus back on her worksheet. Suddenly the sound of notifications on the phone made him surprised. Slowly but surely Azka took her phone very carefully. His heart suddenly hit. ‘alah kayak fugitive loan shark aja Gue’
- Rasya
The deck?
There was a bit of disappointment when the one who sent the message turned out not to be Agil. But then He still replied to Rasya's message that He had opened.
-azka
Da?
- Rasya
Can I speak seriously?
-azka
Not serious all this time, brother?
- Rasya
Yeah, it's not that
Shortly after, the phone returned. A call came in from Rasya. ‘Thanks don't, lift don't?’ Azka weighed in on her heart. There is little concern if what will be discussed later is the matter of Agil. ‘Ck, I still think of Agil’.
“Adeee” Mama calls from outside room.
“Iya Maaaa” answer
“Eat here, don't nugas continue. Tomorrow saturday. ‘Well, why Saturday?’ Azka was just shaking her head to hear my mother's words.
-azka
“Kak, I ate first ya” Azka turned off her phone and rushed out to eat with mom and dad.
After the meal, Azka helped my mother to wash dishes that had been stacked into one above the sink. He washes silently while holding back curiosity. After he finished washing the dishes, he entered the room in a hurry. He took his cellphone which had just been stung on top of a pile of tasks.
5 messages received
‘Kak Rasya,Kak Rasya, Kak Rasya, Agil!!!’ Azka read the name of the sender of the message in his heart and immediately gasped when he knew that 2 out of 5 incoming messages were messages from Agil. To calm down Azka moved open Rasya's message first. Although this curiosity has been overflowing asking to be filled.
- Rasya
Deck, about your feelings all this time, don't waste it on this occasion. I'm Agil's best friend, and I know who and how he is. If you doubt, don't.
One thing you should know I love you.
Three messages that Azka thought would make her a little calm actually made her more riled up. Rasya could have expressed his feelings. Azka ignored Rasya's message and moved to open Agil's message.
-Agil
Still got my number? It's me Agil Ka.
Ka, I know you've been with Rasya. But I know that feeling we can't force, right? I like it Lo. Do you want to receive it?
Azka tried to remember Ocha's message this afternoon while driving her home. What should he do??? But his mind was already more muddled with five messages coming in a row from Agil and Rasya. Azka ventured to reply to Agil's message first.
-azka
I know this is Lo's number. Why are you suddenly talking? What do you know about my feelings?- Sent
Huuuf, sir,
-Agil
Do you believe me, I do not believe you?
Agil is still in typing mode, then a message goes back into their conversation column.
If you don't believe me because I'm talking
via chat, I'll go to Lo's house tomorrow?.
‘This reckless person very willing to go to the house of Gue’ Azka
-azka
No need for Gil, I can answer now
Azka justifies his sitting position to be more firm. He took a deep breath and took it out slowly. Then he started typing again
-azka
Looks like I can't find Lo. Excuse me. But it seems like now is not the right time. Anyway I don't want to just be an impingement Lo doang.
Azka was steady in sending her answer to Agil. Then he closed their chat. His heart is still beating. He blinked his eyes to wake up to what He had really done.
“Feelings 2 years that, apparently did not mean anything for today” Azka muttered to herself, holding tight so as not to pop into the surface. But it turns out He could not, tightness filled his chest cavity, Azka took a deep breath many times so that He did not shed tears for every decision He took today.
Azka turned to a message from Rasya that he had just let go. Azka wrote down a few answers and chose to sleep.
-azka
I gave you the decision. But I don't know if it affects you.
