Azka And Rasha

Episode 38's

“Dek, Mama is not defending anyone. But it seems, right now you have to see many sides other than your own side. Juan, may still be able to survive, fight and look for happiness other than you. But for Rasya, maybe he doesn't have much choice”

Mama's words still ring in Azka's head. Azka was so dizzy thinking about it. Yesterday after returning from the Emperor with Juan in between, Azka got a hostile look from Mama at the door. Then my mom asked me a lot of things.

“What does Rasya know Adek dated the child earlier?”

“Is Rasya still being nice with Adek?”

“What is Adek now happy and no longer think about how Rasya feels?”

The questions revolved around Azka's head. ‘Mama why the hell?’ his inner.

“Dek, Rasya was already quite desperate by losing part of his body. Is it possible that he will not be more broken when he has to lose some of the heart that became his hope?"

Not lost the round of questions, the sentence of the other Mama was already ringing back in his head. ‘What's really he doing right now this is evil?’ thought.

‘But, if I'm more comfortable with Juan what should I be?’ instead of steadying the heart, Azka actually heard the comfortable word he thought. During her relationship with Juan these few weeks, it seems Azka was too busy feeling bad for her friends. As a result, it was like he was undergoing a relationship behind the scenes.

“Woy Ka, why Lo?” greet Risa who is already sitting in front of me.

“Lo why?” Ocha repeated Risa's question.

“Pusing” Azka massaged the base of her nose.

"Most think Lo mah” timpal Risa.

“Sa, Cha, want to confide in Azka's whining dong” on her two best friends.

“Curhat what? Juan? Rasya?” tanya Ocha slightly lowered her voice, ghibah ON mode.

“Mama” reply Azka.

“Hah? Mama why Ka?” the two girls asked simultaneously.

Azka told Mama what she said to her yesterday. Ocha and Risa nodded while continuing to listen. The expressions of the two of them were dizzy and confused to hear Azka's story to the end.

“Mama really Ka” finally Risa voiced after Azka finished telling her story.

“Now I ask, How do you like Juan?” Ocha allowed her to sit facing Azka.

“Gue. Still cool we are mah” said Azka.

“There is no one in Lo's heart as long as Lo same Juan is dating?”

“There is, btw this is the first time I'm dating a real-life dating yes. I'm just afraid we won't be long. That's sih” said Azka lowered her head.

“Why do you think that?” ask Risa.

“Now, I'm comfortable with him. But every time I'm in between all of Lo, our friends, I feel like I don't want to bring that relationship. Trus..he wants to be a police kayak bokapnya”

“Emang why would he want to be a cop?”

“Gue—gak like police. Ehehehe” Azka chuckled, scratching her temple because perhaps the reason was very unreasonable.

“Ya is not necessarily Lo soul mate with him Ka. Just go lah”

“Satan! Whahaha. Damn Lo Cha, ngedoain I am not a match” Azka so laugh at Ocha's words. “But, it was Cha. I never meant for that date to break up. That's why I didn't want to be invited to date Kak Rasya. I want that person to be in a relationship forever. Cape chatter feeling if the end we have to start again from the beginning” said Azka.

“So?” Risa hung up her sentence.

“So, I want to find people who will continue to be able to receive until finally marriage and ngabisin old age together. Honestly, I don't have that dream as Juan”

“Gue ngerti” Risa finally nodded her head understanding “And actually Lo found it the same Rasya. Yes or No?” he added.

“Heem” Azka just mendehem and move his head origin. Not nodding nor shaking.

“Lo should talk anyway Ka, same Juan. At least don't get too late. And don't make you enemies if all this has to be stopped because of bigger problems”

Risa's right. It seems like Azka needs to talk to Juan.

“Low two months guys, it's over?” moaning Azka who was closer to muttering.

“Lo will be fine. Believe the same Gue” said Ocha while embracing his best friend.

Today is just one study session, so home is not too late. After the Ashar prayer at the mosque, Azka waited again. After this lesson, Azka was again picked up by Juan. Azka approached him when Juan had reached the outside of the fence. With a weak expression and no passion.

“Nothing. Emm—ada who wants me to talk today” said Azka a little doubt.

“Oiya? Where to stop by first?”

“No, no need. Later I will talk on aja” motor yes. Azka chose to speak on the motorbike that drove, so that he did not need to look into the eyes of the young man when he had to talk about what Mama said yesterday first.

“I'm going home for a minute okay? Later abis from there we go directly to your home” said Juan still with a smile.

“Iya, can. Why go home?” ask Azka.

“This, Brother want something nitip to transfer to his house temenya”

Azka just nodded her head. He then rode on Juan's motorcycle and then they both stayed away from the Emperor.

“Wait here yeah. Sit down aja” said Juan when they reached his house. Azka sat down. Juan stepped in through the door leading to the room next to the living room. There was the sound of two people talking to each other even though the conversation was not clearly heard.

Crack.

The door to the room was open. Azka turned her head, but it was not Juan who was there. Rather than a middle-aged man, who from his appearance seemed to be Juan's father.

“Sore, Pak” greet Azka. Not answered, the person whom Azka thought his father Juan was actually displaying a sharp expression that was not friendly.

“So you whose name is Azka?” asked the man in an equally unfriendly tone.

“Em—I-Yes Pak” Azka forced her smile to be etched.

“Sway Juan. Supposedly, you can better determine with whom you should relate”

“Bapak” has not had time Azka respond to a man called Father by Juan, Juan has appeared with a panic expression. Fear and sadness are mixed into one. Behind him appeared a person who was very similar to Juan, it seemed like it was his brother.

“Pak, Father into the first same Patra. Let Juan talk to Azka. Ju, Anter Azka home there”

Juan pulled Azka's hand until he turned around. Azka turned her head and bowed her head begging for saying goodbye because she had no time to speak. Azka boarded Juan's motorbike which immediately left the house. Azka was confused by what had just happened. Juan chose silence. The motor stopped at a stop, Juan raised his head gesturing to go down.

“Why get off here?”

“Say I said, what did you say? Not on the bike. Danger” Juan opens talks.

“Eh—Emm.. You don't want to explain first what really happened?” Azka carefully chose the word when saying it, “Tadi, Papa you?” ask Azka again.

Juan snorted violently. He took a deep breath, then faced the girl sitting beside him.

“Nyil, sorry about Mr. earlier” He did not continue his sentence.

“For what?”

“Are you sick to say Father?”

“Which one?” Azka.

“Sway Juan. Supposedly, you can better determine with whom you should relate”

“Oh, the. I'm sure Papa you have a reason. And surely Papa you want the best for you. Yes right?” This sentence actually matched the current state of Azka. He tried to swallow the words he said. But it was too late, because that sentence had already been thrown out. “Papa you didn't like me even before getting to know him?” Ask Azka more to herself.

“I feel there might be something wrong with this all. Either from the perspective of Mama me and your Papa, or even our relationship is wrong. But it seems that we can't help” Azka continue words that feel more like a monologue than a dialogue. “I love you Ju, but what do you want to say?” Azka took a slow breath, trying to regulate the feeling that had almost come out spewed. “Not only you have that problem. I also” Azka did not continue it. He chose to smile to arrange all the tightness that was blowing in his chest.

“Nyil,” Call it.

“Are we going to make a deal for the future?” tanya Azka answered the call.

“I never liked with deal”

“Trus do you have any other ideas?” Azka was getting claustrophobic, but He held her as hard as He could. The clouds began to change color. It seemed to be a tightness within the chest that Azka and Juan felt represented by the sky. There's something that's going to come down and get the soil wet.

“We are quite back as before. Until there are first to release each other” said Juan.

“We end here?” Azka is not able to talk much.

“It seems, for a while. Although I never knew who we would be united with. But as long as it hasn't happened, you should know that my heart never changes”

The sky takes over. It rained as if it would stop the tears from both. Maybe the universe never allowed that parting to be accompanied by tears. Because in fact, both of them actually get a tremendous sense of relief.