At the End of My Tired!

Tears of grief II

"yeah? kok tumben jam is still bangkong. Wake up, the children's breakfast is waiting at the dinner table." Said while preparing a change of clothes for her husband.

Kira was surprised, seeing Justin did not react. Carrying her heavy belly, Kira walked towards the side of her husband's bed. Justin's position is tilted and slightly bowed, making her painstakingly flip her husband's burly body.

Kira's eyes widened in disbelief, when she saw the blood that had dried on the pillow of the husband so much. With a trembling body, Kira grabs Justin's phone and calls Bryan.

After she finished reporting the bad news, Kira refocused on her husband. His body was cold, and his lips were turning blue. Her face was swollen, it could be ascertained, if her husband's kidney was the cause.

Kira pulls Justin's hand which is a little stiff because of the swelling. Kissing her for a long time, Kira tried to muffle her cries so as not to be heard by their children. Just last night they spent a hot night lovingly. The next morning, she found out that her husband was gone.

Justin's body has shown symptoms, if his kidneys can no longer be invited to compromise. His legs and hands were slightly swollen, but the man was always in denial and refused to seek treatment. During that one week, Justin was preparing for his departure, the man piled up a lot of firewood in the warehouse. Repair anything that looks damaged or has not been replaced for too long.

Every question is always the same answer, "fear not in the test season, difficult to find firewood if fit again need."

"It's been a long time, so it has to be changed, if you can now why later. Afraid he'll hunt down no time, it's broken." That's Justin's cliche answer.

Kira was stunned in tears of loss, the husband she loved so much has now left her.

"Mom, why are you crying?" jevier's small voice suddenly made Kira turn her head. Without being able to hide her tears, Kira extended her hand to her son.

"Here" the mother's hoarse voice made Jevier approach hesitantly. He was afraid that his parents were fighting as he had seen in the village. Where the two friends' parents had a fight in the yard, when they visited the village to check the mother's content.

"Hold dad's hand, whispered dad. Say, thank you for being a good and wonderful father, our great father loves you. Goodbye, see you in the new Jerusalem" Kira's voice is almost inaudible, but the sensitive Jevier can instantly grasp the mother's intentions.

What he caught was, if the father was gone. The same speech they often heard, when there was a person in the village or one of the distant relatives who died. Mother and father will say the same, good bye and see you in the new Jerusalem.

The toddler's eyes condense, although Jevier does not yet understand the real context of the loss. But he knew that the dead could never come back and be together again. The person's body will be put in a crate and stacked with moist soil. He still does not want to lose his father, his heart does not accept and is not willing.

"Call brother and sister, get ready, change clothes yes, which is black. Her sister's helped first, mom's gonna clean dad's face." Tell Kira with a trembling voice.

Kira went inside the bathroom, then came out with a small bucket of water and two small towels in her hands. Kira sat down next to her husband's lifeless body. Her heart throbbed painfully, Kira cleaned her husband's face covered in dried blood. She regretted not knowing when her husband left.

If he woke up at dawn, he did not go straight to the back garden picking vegetables and immediately cooking while cleaning the house as usual. At that time, her husband was still breathing even though he was dying. He still talks to Justin. Slightly relieve the pain of her husband, when facing the sacratul of death.

With tears in her eyes, Kira took off her husband's clothes to change for a new one. Kira hugged Justin's shirt tightly, her body shaking violently. For a moment she forgot, if she was pregnant.

When she finished, Kira called her children in a hoarse voice. Then give a lot of ultimatums, which are easily digested by the Three. Lucky to have smart children, they immediately understand. One by one the toddlers kissed Justin's face affectionately, their tears flowing.

In the minds of the toddlers, their father has now been called by God. And they will never be able to meet Justin again, ever. Who is not sad, even though the meaning of death is still far from the third understanding. But losing and not being together anymore, that's what they understand. They are sad and feel lost.

The sound of a motorbike in front of the house, Kira turned to Jevier, the boy immediately rushed without being told. Welcoming the arrival of Pak Lurah and some residents who came to serve, they were contacted by Bryan. Because their trip there takes 1 hour, even though using a plane.

Mr. Lurah and the people asked for permission to bathe Justin's body, although Kira's weight allowed. The 7-month-old pregnant woman went from her husband's side to the wardrobe, looking for shirts and suits and others. Justin was joking, if he ever died. He wanted to wear the clothes he wore when he married Kira. He always felt close to his wife.

Kira hugged the clothes while sobbing painfully, ma'am Lurah and Ms. RT approached and brought Kira to sit on the sofa in the room.

"Surpassed, son. I know it's hard for you, but Justin's steps will be heavy, if you don't let go. God loves him, so don't want to burden Justin with a long illness." Bu lurah's advice was like a spiritual shower for Kira, she forgot that fact. But the pain was left, taking control of his entire soul. He was still not willing, and sincere was still very far from his heart.

7 Months of living together as friends who encourage each other, then 4 years of living in a beautiful marriage, and full of happiness. How could he just let her go.

"Is this what you're going to wear to your husband?" tanya RT's distracting.

"Yes." Kira answered in a small voice almost like a whisper.

Soon mother Romlah (bu Rt) grabbed her, but thought held her back. The two looked at each other, "are you sure you're doing that?" ask mom Romlah reassuringly. Kira just nodded without answering.

Justin once said, if he goes first, he wants Kira to wear the best clothes he wants. And now, Kira really has to do it. Even though his heart is not that strong.