At the End of My Tired!

Cxii Part

"So how's that Killa, huh? Why did Tria's sister offer Killa to stay with her. The boy can go back and forth to our house, whenever he wants and for whatever reason." Sarah spoke in an annoyed tone. The woman looked agitated.

He began to worry about the possibilities that would happen in the future. He did not want Killa to still be around them anymore. Sarah just wants Kira and her kids to be her main focus now. The boy could have messed up their quiet lives later, if they were still in the same city.

"That's Satria's business, baby. We don't have to think about it, Satria is just spontaneous. And I'm sure he's got a better idea than just taking care of Killa. No, don't think about it anymore." Reegan's reply didn't calm Sarah down. Thinking the boy will be around her family, makes Sarah's mind go awry.

"Alright, if sister Tria can handle her well, that's good for her. It's been a time when Killa was foster by the person who made her afraid, not by the person who could always please her." Sarah said as she threw her eyes out the window. It was a bright and lively morning, but not in Sarah's mood.

As if there was something wrong with her feelings, that fear would one day become a reality. And it will be the deepest regret, for the umpteenth time for Satria and Reegan.

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The morning atmosphere at the Reegan residence seemed so crowded, the behavior of the twins Ednan and Edeline Keenu Sudibyo. Keenan and Arumi's youngest child, Always Successfully created boisterous laughter big family Sudibyo. Plus if the little star Alkey Agam also gathered, it will be more crowded Reegan's big house.

As the smallest, they have always been the center of attention by the Reegan and Angga families, as well as her best friends.

15 Years went by with so many stories they went through. Sadness will lose, too, the presence of a new member in their family. As if replacing each other's roles and positions.

Amidst the boisterous atmosphere of the house, a middle-aged man was staring at the portrait of a beautiful girl, who was smiling happily. By wearing a high school graduation kebaya shirt, and a trophy and a charter of appreciation from his school for the achievement of the girl. That sweet smile Reegan could only see through portraits and some memorable videos, without being able to touch or hug her again.

Three years passed, it felt so fast. It felt like just yesterday they were celebrating their half-century anniversary. With their five children and grandchildren. Now all can only be remembered in a large frame, which hangs on the wall of the family room.

Reegan wiped her tears, never ending she regretted every bit of her carelessness in the past. Suppose that. It's a word that often comes to his mind. If time could be turned back, if he could be more sensitive to circumstances, if at that time he did not allow his daughter to leave. Suppose that.... Suppose that.... Suppose that.... And there are still many if only the other that man regretted.

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Elsewhere, a young man was sowing flowers on the grave of his loved ones. "Hi his heavenly angel... How are you doing? Must be happy, right? Sorry you can come again. Pray for your brother to graduate quickly, and get the best grades and come back here soon." The man paused his words with a heavy sigh.

"Kangen is not the same brother, hmm?...... Brother kangen, really use it." Then the man chuckled softly, with endless tears streaming down both of his cheeks. "Remember, last year, my brother told me. On campus, there is a new student, who sees his face every time. My brother always remembers you."

"name, Asara. The guy is ugly and fierce. A year of being in the same class, doesn't make us familiar. The girl loved to look for problems with her brother, last before the brother came back here. He spilled his drink, in my diary you always take it wherever you go." The man again paused his words, wiping his unceasing tears out from his two eyes.

"Mami nitip salam, hail kangen he said, make this beautiful princess. Princess Kirasya Resar Sudibyo's. Mami hasn't been able to come back here, it's too much for mami, all the memories in this town. Like thousands of arrows, which at all times were ready to strike right at his heart. Mami still can not forget, making peace with reality is not as easy as when we advise others. My mom is as fragile as she was three years ago. Every day my mother lives by locking all the good memories, from the people she cares for. Who is now sound asleep in a long dream, and will never wake up again." Daniel ended his venting session on the navel of the idol.

Daniel again hung above the navel of Kira, with a deep sense of guilt and will never end he regretted. Why is God so cruel, to a man as good as his favorite girl, Kirasya. To call her home in such a tragic way.

Nature seemed to dissolve in the young man's deep sadness, the speck of rain began to wet every strand of the flower group that Daniel had just sown. However it did not make her leave immediately from there, the man was still dissolved in his own grief.

The most painful thing in the world is that when we realize our mistakes, time does not give us a chance even if it is just an instant. To fix things and apologize, even just to look at them, we can't.

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Reegan stared at the side of the bed, which had not slept for three years. Apparently, his fatal mistakes in the past, have managed to destroy the porandakan, the wholeness of love that he built with his wife.

This year his life feels so empty, the presence of his grandchildren is as an encouragement for the rest of his life who knows when. He will be called home to meet again, with his loved ones, who have already gone home.

Clamps

"Well, not sleeping?"

"Here, just going to bed. Why son?

"No, just look at your father's situation. I just got home, didn't miss dinner. Umi said, I ate it a little, I'm not feeling well or what?" Keenan was worried about his father, who later looked a little unwell. More daydreaming and often looking sad.

"Father is OK, the problem is the name of the disease of the elderly. Don't think too much, have you eaten? Want me to go with you?" Bargain the father. Welcome from Keenan. Even though he himself had dinner.

"Come, I'm lazy to eat alone, Umi his children again in heavy sleepy mode. Just muttered softly, saying I haven't eaten. Yuk!"

Keenan was saddened to see that his parents, who happened three years ago, had died a scar that never recovered in the hearts of both. Each lives with his own wounds, without any intention of healing each other. As he reconciles with that reality, it is harder to forgive.

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