AMEERA'S LOVE STORY
PART 30'S
“Sa-I have committed a great sin Umi, I am ashamed to tell it.” Without realizing it, I began to sob.
“Astaghfirullohaladzim.” Umi Salmah immediately beristighfar heard my confession.
“But I really did not intentionally do it. At that time I was unconscious, and when I woke up I ... I....” The tightness in my chest made my voice clench in my throat.
“Umi's right, I did run away. But instead of running away from home, rather escape from the rampage of citizens who will parade me because I have .. I was considered to have gathered kebo with my friend Umi.” I can't afford to continue my story. I could only cry thinking back to what I had yesterday.
Instead of being disgusted and directly driving me away, Umi Salmah instead grabbed me in her warm embrace. And the treatment I received made me sob.
Umi let me cry in her arms for a while. Then he slightly stretched out his embrace and looked at me fixedly, “why did you decide to stay with a man who is not your muhrim? You know, a man and a woman who are not muhrim if both in one room then the third one is satan.”
“I know Umi, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do it. That's because I really don't know where else to go.” I took a heavy breath before continuing my story. “Previously, I was kicked out of boarding because of my boyfriend, I mean my ex-boyfriend made a fuss in my hostel, so the hostess asked me to leave the hostel. Then my friend asked me to look for another hostel, but I couldn't. Because it was night, my friend invited me to spend the night at his house. But it turned out that his house was empty because his mother had gone and brought the keys. Finally my friend invited me to spend the night at his father's cottage.”
“And that's where it happened Umi.” I paused for a moment to convince my heart, whether to tell it all to Umi Salmah or not. I also decided to be honest. “That night was very cold, I drank a drink that I just found out afterwards if it was liquor. My friend forbade me to drink it. I ended up drunk and unconscious. And when I woke up I no longer found my clothes Umi.”
“Astaghfirullohaladzim.” Umi Salmah came back to listen to my story. “Where are your parents? Why are you doing cost?”
“My parents are in Umi village, once I graduated school I decided to go to town and find a job.”
“That's how young people are today. Once school is over, choose to go away from home, away from parents. He feels independent and can take care of himself. Though they actually still need parental guidance so as not to go the wrong way as happened to you now. If the problem of finding a job actually does not have to go alone out of town. Work can be anywhere, but maybe the difference is the income.”
“Many people choose to migrate to find a better job, when in fact it is not to find a better job, but a better income. If you are just looking for a job at home, there are also many. Washing, sweeping, mopping, cooking, isn't it a job? Even according to Umi, being a housewife is an endless job.” Umi Salmah so vent.
“But actually not only that's my reason Umi.” Duties confide, I'll just tell you everything. It might make me feel calmer, and it's easier to forget my past. “There is another reason that made me determined to go wander out of town.”
“What is it?” ask Umi Salmah.
“When I was in high school having a relationship with a man. Either called what our relationship is because if it is called courtship, then there must be something called shooting or expressing feelings. But not so with us. But even so I love him very much, and I also know he loves me very much.”
“We were together for about two years, and during that time no one knew that we were in a relationship. Because his parents are quite well-respected in my area, we just don't want to tarnish their good name. What I admire about him is that during our time together, he never touched me at all. He greatly guard my honor.” Suddenly I missed Habibie.
“He promised to marry me once I graduated school. I'm so happy to hear that. Until one day, because of something he disappeared somewhere. I looked for her, and from the information I got it turned out she moved into her grandmother's house. And we just got to meet again on Eid.” I look back on Habibie's face the last time I saw her.
“And I was devastated to learn that he was already betrothed by both parents with the child of his friend. Destroyed was my wish to be with him. People say they are very suitable. They have an equal religious understanding. The girl looks beautiful, polite, learned and sholehah. I was jealous of her. That's why I decided to go out of town, to avoid it.”
“Before I left he asked me to wait for him. He said he would convince her of his choice. For two years unknowingly I waited for her Umi, until last week I heard the news of her wedding.” I again sobbed to remember Habibie.
“He lied Umi .. he lied ...” I'm getting hysterical considering Habibie's wedding invitation. “He said I should wait for him, but he lied. It wasn't her who came to me, but her wedding invitation.”
Once again, Umi Salmah grabbed me in her arms. A warm, soothing hug. Like a mother's embrace of her child.
“You know neng, the soul mate has been arranged with God. You may not be destined to be with him. But surely God has prepared the best soul mate for you.”
“Astaghfirullohaladzim.” Umi Salmah took up the third time. I know a lot of my mistakes. I'm ashamed of that.
“I've sinned too much. According to Umi, will God forgive me?” I asked as I stretched out our embrace.
“God is forgiving. As long as we sincerely repent and promise not to do it again. Later Umi teach prayer repentance well. You want to, right?”
“Iya Umi, I want.” My answer.
Umi Salmah looked at me inside. “There are a few things you should remember. First, if you have a problem, make the problem a means for you to be closer to Him, not even away from Him. Ye know? The best solution giver is Allah.”
“The second, do not love a creature beyond your love of God. God doesn't like that. And thirdly, do not ever pin your hopes on man, for man is a wrong and a place of caliphate. Relying on humans will only bring disappointment, different if we depend on the owner of life. Always involve God in every part of our lives. Because He is the best guide.”
“Iya Umi, thanks for the enlightenment. I was very lucky because I met Umi,”, he told Umi Salmah.
“Our meeting has been arranged with God. Thank Him because we are still given the opportunity to live to this day and can still be given the opportunity to improve ourselves.”
“Iya Umi, alhamdulilah.”
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