AMEERA'S LOVE STORY

PART 27'S

About an hour away, we finally arrived in front of a motorcycle modification workshop. I went inside and was greeted by a SMK boy who was there, I guess.

“There can be helped kak?” tanyanya friendly.

“I'm looking for Deni,” I replied.

Instead of answering, the SMK boy looked at me. With hesitation he asked, “sorry is sister named Ameera?”

“I-iya,” I replied doubtfully.

“Then wait a minute well kak.” The SMK boy half ran to the back of the workshop.

After a few minutes of waiting, the boy returned with someone. Yeah, I know that guy very well. He is Tedi, Deni's friend who took care of this workshop. Me, Heru, and Tedi sat on the chair that Tedi pointed out. While the SMK child I had met again did his work that was delayed because of my arrival.

“I'm glad you finally came here Ra,” said Tedi.

“Hemm ... You how are you?” ask pleasantries.

“Good, you yourself how are you?”

“I'm also good.”

“Oh yes, who is this? Your candidate yeah? Or maybe you are married?” tanyanya turned to look at Heru.

“His idea is so,” chirp heru, “but unfortunately she would rather be my sister, than be my wife.” Heru's joke was met with laughter by Tedi.

“Oh yes Ted, where is Deni?” Tedi seemed to stop his laughter as soon as I asked Deni whereabouts.

“You really want to know where Deni Ra is? For what?”

“I ... I just want to apologize Ted, I'm guilty of him.”

“Before that I want you to know something Ra. Deni loves you so much, yes. He cannot show his love properly. I know that because we were friends for a long time. Outside, Deni does look not serious, likes to play games, and maybe a little indifferent. But I know in her heart she's planted so much love for you. He does not like to express his feelings, both when he is happy and sad.

Until then, I had actually seen Deni's attitude change. Yeah, when you cut your relationship. Deni began to get angry often. Many PKL children get angry, mostly for no apparent reason. And worst of all, he started getting drunk. You know very well that we never consume anything like that.

Until his peak ... two days ago when Deni was running his motorcycle in a state of severe drunkenness, he had an accident. Deni had a collision with a fellow motorcyclist. Reportedly the other victim suffered a broken bone. I haven't seen him yet, because when he arrived at the hospital, he had already transferred his family to a hospital in his hometown.”

“Then how is Deni?” manya curious.

“Deni hasn't regained consciousness.”

I was really hit by hearing it. Not expecting my stupid actions to cause someone else to get hurt. I really can't say anything anymore. Even to apologize, I couldn't. Somehow I showed my face in front of him. I'm really sorry.

“Ka-then convey my apology to her as soon as she regains consciousness. I pamit.” I moved from my seat.

“You don't want to deliver it yourself Ra? I'm sure, your arrival there will make it more quickly aware.” I turned away from Tedi's gaze, trying to walk away from him.

“Hospital Insan Medika. If you can come there, as a friend.” I didn't heed Tedi's words at all. It's not that I don't care, I'm just ashamed of him. How could he still be so friendly to me. To the man who made his friend suffer.

Heru followed my steps in silence. It feels strange without hearing the babble and his words are always annoying. At a time like this, he also has a sense of empathy.

Heru gave me the helmet, and she also wore the helmet. Heru seemed to turn to Tedi while smiling at him before we actually left the workshop.

“Now where are we going Ra?” ask Heru.

“A-I don't know brother,” I replied, “according to brother, I've been like a criminal well? I hurt a lot of people even accidentally.”

“You just made the wrong decision Ra. You put yourself in trouble.” Heru pulled over his vehicle, then turned his head towards me.

“What brother mean?”

“You decided to continue living in your past, so as not to care about the people who are currently beside you.”

“That's not true at all.”

“You don't have to refute me Ra. Because I know, no matter how much you deny it, deep down you must justify my words.”

“I ...”

“You don't have to clarify anything to me Ra, you don't owe me for that. All you have to do now is start looking into your future, leave the past behind. I don't know what has happened to you in the past, but trust me, your future means so much more than it all.”

I just answered Heru with a smile. True what Heru said, I should start looking at the future.

“Still for what?”

“You have always been there for me,” I replied, “and thanks for the enlightenment.”

“Iya equally.” Heru turned on his motorcycle again, “so now where are we going?”

“Should we visit Deni in hospital?”

“Good decision.”

Along the way to the hospital, I sent out an apology message to several people via social media accounts. Most of them don't take me seriously, others ask me where I'm going. Some even ask if this is already eid al-fitri, because usually the nuances of eid al-fitri are used by people to apologize to each other.

Arriving at the hospital parking lot, doubts suddenly approached. The fear of rejection, insults, and harsh words that the Deni family will throw makes my nyaliku shrivel.

“Let's go to Ra, we finish what you have to finish.” Heru clasped my hand, flowing strength there.

We walked towards the room where Deni was treated after we had previously asked the receptionist.

A mother came out of the room where Deni was being treated just as I was about to knock on the door. The mother looked at me. “Ameera well?”

I was surprised that my mother recognized me. “Iya ma'am, sorry whose mom is yah?” my many.

“I'm his mother Deni.” Short, solid and clear answer. I can't find the anger in his facial expression. There is only deep sadness.

“Let's sit there first.” Deni's mother pointed towards the chair in front of the room where Deni was being treated. I followed her steps and sat down beside her.

“Deni, although still like to mess around but never hurt the hearts of others, especially women. Deni loves his mother and his three sisters very much.

Deni is a son that is very much expected by his father. After we had three daughters, Deni's father wished we would have a son. And when Deni was born, our family was very happy. His father was very pampering him, so that even his nature is sometimes still to children.

But now, seeing it like this, I don't think you can. If you can, I ask that you just lie there.” Deni's mother started sobbing and it made me feel even more guilty.

“I'm sorry mom,” I said softly.

I bow my head inside. Unable to see the sadness that emanated from his mother Deni's face. The more I look at it, the more I feel guilty.

“Maybe it's Deni's destiny,” said Deni's mother.

“If possible, I want to find Deni bu.”

“Before mom wanted to say something.” Deni's mother seemed to take a deep breath before continuing her sentence. “Mother let you go inside, but after that I beg you never to see Deni.” again

“Ke-why did mom say that?” tanyaku.

“Mom don't want Deni to be in touch with you anymore, be it as a friend, or whatever.”

“Well if it's according to mom best for Deni.”

“Please enter, I give you five minutes to talk to Deni. Even though he can't respond at the moment, I know he's listening. Get done with what you need to finish. After that get the hell out of here, and never come back.”

I hesitated to step into the room where Deni was being treated. Deni's situation is so alarming. No more looks of her cherry. Right now even I miss her babbling.

The second I changed minutes, I just stared at him without saying anything. Silent. Our memories of being together.

I ventured closer to him, then stopped right on his right side. His hands are cold. “Sorry.” That's all I can tell him.

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