All Just Because of Envy
turmoil
after a long time we were in the city park, red on my cheeks and puffy in my eyes had reduced a lot after using the ice bag compress that Mike had given.
suddenly I was like I wanted to vomit, I quickly closed my mouth using my hands. It seemed to be caused by my stomach acid reflux as a result of last night I did not eat.
Mike who saw me like that, of course, panicked.
"why litt?" are you sick?"
"it's okay Mike, it looks like my maag is relapsing, because I haven't filled it last night"
I said as I rubbed my chest, trying to secure my body.
"what!!" you haven't eaten since last night?" have you gone crazy litta?" come on, at least like whatever you're dealing with, you gotta keep eating and taking care of yourself".
"let's get the doctor checked on you before it gets worse".
Mike also took me to the doctor, as I expected, the doctor said that my chronic ulcer recurred due to late eating and also partly due to my overstressed mind.
The doctor prescribed me a chewable ulcer and 3 anti-depressant caplets, as I have also complained of sleeplessness lately.
after penetrating the prescription Mike took me to a cafe to immediately fill my stomach.there I chewed first the ulcer medicine that the doctor gave.
"i'll order you an oriental chicken porridge, litta and a cup of warm water, because you're sick, so don't eat it carelessly"
mike said he should be an anxious parent to his son
"Hem.." I muttered Mike's words.
when the dish came we ate together, I was listless, and I just wanted to vomit again. My stomach seems pretty bad, I thought.
yes, before I already had a problem with my stomach, hit again all night not eating like this as a result.
"you're okay what litta?" asked Mike back to me with his worried face
"yes Mike, I'm fine".
"preferably after this you immediately disgraced the litta" said Mike
hearing Mike's words Of course my head became more dizzy, where should I go restorative. There's no way I'm going back to that house for now, too scary for me.
it seems Mike is aware of my turmoil.
"just rest in my place litta, there you can rest in peace"
heed
I looked at him for a moment without speaking.
"i don't mean what litta, I..."
not finished Mike said, I've cut it
"well Mike, I know you wouldn't be like that, if you were the kind of guy that maybe in the words of yesterday something happened between us" I laughed at him
"yes, thank God you know that I'm not that kind of guy" Mike smiled
in the depths of my heart, from the beginning, I was actually disappointed in Dennis, only I kept forcing myself to stay with him.
for a moment I felt that I was the dumbest woman in the world.
so much love came but I refused just to Dennis.
long before meeting Mike there were some men who were chasing me, but they were certainly not as persistent as Mike.
after I left the cafe, I decided to go home to my parents.
"Mike, we're parting ways here, yeah, I'm just going home to my parents".
"okay, well litta, you heart yes. Don't forget to take care of your health, if there's any need to call me".
"okay Mike, thank you"
we separated, and I walked home to my parents.
once there I saw my mom sweeping on the porch and dad reading the newspaper.
"ma, pa" my hello
"uh Tumben you're here at this hour?",
mama said
"yes ma, I'm not feeling well so I have permission and want to rest here.can you?"
say
"of course you can, stupid child. forever this house will always be open for you baby, until whenever it is" said mama while rubbing my head.
I smiled at my mom and didn't want her to know what had happened to me.
"yes already then litta entered the room yes ma, want to sleep for a while litta head dizzy".
"yes dear go la" said mama.
I went into my room, nothing changed here, everything was the same when I was still living here.
I immediately laid my body on the most comfortable bed I had, and I fell asleep.
it didn't feel like the day was starting late in the afternoon, and I was awakened by the sound of the alarm I had set earlier.
I was still lazing lazily while waking myself from my deep sleep earlier.
I got up and sat on the side of my bed, and I started thinking about my fate when I came home to Dennis.
"tock...
litta, are you awake?" mom's voice behind the door
"yes, I answered
"shower baby, it's late in the afternoon.Mama has prepared warm water for you to take a bath".
"yes ma"
I took a shower and changed my clothes.
mom and dad told me to eat first before I went home.
in my honest heart I refuse to go home.
"If anyone says I forgot you
Don't you listen
If anyone says I'm unfaithful
Don't you listen
A lot of love is coming closer
'I refused
It's all because I love you"
my phone rang, and Mike called me
"hallo, litta how are you?"
"i'm fine, Mike"
"oh good then, I'm worried about you litta. Have you eaten?"
"yes, this is me eating Mike, what about you?"
"i'm just going out to eat litta?" do you want me to buy you something?"
I saw papa looking at me sharply, and I wanted to end my conversation with Mike immediately, because I felt uncomfortable with his gaze.
"no Mike, I'm gonna finish my meal first"
"oh yeah okay, bye"
"viv"
"who called you litta?" ask papa
"aa.. my office mate pa, mike sir, I replied.
"litta you're married limit your relationship with other men, papa doesn't want you in trouble later".papa said firmly
"yes pa" I answered, asking papa's advice
"right son, what papa told you is for your own good" continued mama
"iya ma, litta knows and understands kok"
"If anyone says I forgot you
Don't you listen
If anyone says I'm unfaithful
Don't you listen
A lot of love is coming closer
'I refused
It's all because I love you"
again my phone rings and this time it's Dennis.
"hallo baby, where are you? mama said you haven't been home since this afternoon"
ask Dennis
"yes, I wasn't feeling well. I went home, now I'm eating with mom and dad".
"are you sick?" what's sick, baby?" I'm calm when you're there, I'm just afraid what's going on with you, baby".
"yes, my maag relapsed, but I went to the doctor this afternoon, baby. Are you home now?"
"dear, I'm home when I'm done coming home and get some rest early baby".
"yes, I'll be home soon"
"do I have to pick you up?"
"it's okay, Denn, I can go home by myself".
"okay well, then you're hearty baby" Dennis said, ending the conversation
"yes baby"
