All Just Because of Envy

happiness is beginning to fade

that morning I accompanied Dennis to the hospital to retrieve his father's lab results, and the results that came out turned out Dennis' father had lung cancer.

we immediately saw the doctor who handled his father, the doctor said his father's life would not be long because it had entered the final stage.

only the miracle of God can bring healing to him.

hearing the doctor's statement arrived Dennis jetlag and almost fell, I asked Dennis to sit down.

the doctor said that all he could do was give him medicine to prevent the spread of his cancer, and do whatever his father wanted.

yes we understand what the doctor meant.

it was a great sadness for Dennis to have to find that reality, he had just gathered with his father, now his father's life is soon.

Dennis looks very frustrated.

while in the car Dennis was no longer able to stem his sadness, his eyes glazed with glass and fell a point of tears that soaked his cheeks.

my heart felt that sadness, not even my eyes were glazed over, I tried to strengthen Dennis

"denn is strong yes, we pray to God for the healing of your father. "

"when everything for us humans is impossible then for God nothing is impossible, trust all in God, God knows what is best for us, for papa and for all people..."

Dennis was crying while hugging me.

"it's impossible litt, it's impossible, papa is late stage, the doctor has given up...

dennis cried with tears

really I can feel Dennis' inner tightness right now.

there was nothing more I could say, other than trying to calm him down I took his hair and his back.

after we calmed down we headed for Dennis' house,

in front of his home park Dennis's mother was sitting. Seeing Dennis's car coming in he immediately stood up.

we approached him.

"Tante.

he just smiled at me.

"how did den, what was the result?"

"papa, late-stage lung cancer ma.." said Dennis softly while holding back his tears.

his mother fell down and cried.

dennis and I tried to calm him down,

"ma..

"yes, a patient Auntie yes, I said between soft and a little scared.

his mother just kept quiet and said nothing..

it is like a person who has lost consciousness.

"denn. nak litta. please don't tell papa yes, mama is afraid papa will be shocked and worsen the situation...

"yes ma..

"yes Aunt...

but suddenly I saw his father Dennis with a grim face turning away from us entering the house, as if he had heard the results of the lab tests.

but I don't dare say it to Dennis or his mom.

dennis drove me home shortly after.

the next night as usual dennis was always present in my house, just sitting with me on the porch.

"litta, are you ready when I get married?"

I was stunned to hear that question,

"it looks like I'm ready to...

I nodded with a little doubt

"yes, while papa is around I want to marry you"

I no longer say what, my mind is so messed up because for me this all came too late.

how many days have I kept urinating, mom and dad noticed...

"son, what else has happened?" why are you so tangled up "ask dad on me.

"yes what's wrong with you litta? timpal mother

I finally told my mom and dad.

"Dennis yah ma'am..he wanted to propose to me, I'm so fucked with that."

"yes. you and Dennis have been in a relationship for a long time and naturally he wants to propose to you, if the father's advice is accepted good intentions, son Denni."

"so soon she wants to propose to you, you think again are you ready to be someone's wife, are you able to give up your freedom?"

mom's dream enough to make me fucked up.

"mother, our child has grown up it is appropriate that he married, especially for a long time they have been together" said the father to the mother

"yes well, I as a mother just feel unwilling that after marriage our child will be difficult not as free and comfortable as it is today"

"yes, don't bother my son, baby, if you think it's time and you should get married, accept the proposal".

I just kept quiet and thought hard

"it's night time, la, tomorrow you have to go to work again"

said the father who knew that his favorite daughter was in a state of turmoil

after thinking all night, I made up my mind to accept Dennis' proposal.

I worked as usual, the next afternoon Dennis picked you up, on the way he asked again about the wedding

"so how's baby?" are you willing for me to apply? are you ready?"

"yes, I'm ready.

one week later came the Dennis family to propose to me.

set the good day, the wedding process and other customs of our parents, which we do not really understand.

me and Dennis were just preparing for what was part of us.

such as choosing a wedding building, wedding dress, buying the necessary equipment.

several times Dennis took me to his house to talk about our marriage interests with his father's mother, Dennis' father and mother did not interfere much in our affairs, but on the contrary with Yuna, Dennis, it was like he hated me so much.

he always interrupts and gives advice that I find unpleasant,

somehow my impression of him was not good, he always tried to bully me.

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today Dennis and I went to pick a wedding dress, but somehow Yuna was there.

I've been feeling the unpleasant air with Yuna there.

when choosing a dress, Yuna always gave advice to Dennis, yes basically Dennis is indeed obedient he instead let sister Yuna choose a dress for me, of course my heart is very arrogant and upset.

while Dennis as usual never sensitive to my feelings.

along the way Dennis and I had a fight, because of Yuna.

I got out of the car running into the room and crying, while Dennis just came home.

my heart was so claustrophobic, I became doubtful of this decision