All Just Because of Envy

expressing feelings

"litta... actually I've been watching you for a long time, this heart has been feeling for you, can you accept this feeling of mine?"

talita was silent...

his feelings became mixed, I don't know what he had to say to mike.

yet Talita answered, mike said: "sorry litta, I seem to have messed things up. Just assume I never said anything to you, can we.

act like none of this is going to exist? forget all you just heard about this...

okay?"

again Talita just fell silent, frozen...

in Talita's mind: what should I say to mike? I don't want her to hurt me, but I can't accept her feelings for me either.

"litt. Mike said.

are you okay, all right?"

talita seemed to be just awakened from the Underworld of dreams...

looking at Mike who was driving and saying, "yes sir.. sorry..... What did you just say?"

mike slammed, it seems litta was too shocked by the words he said just now. ahh. I've just assumed this is all I never said.

as if forgetting the new thing that happened they again talked about the project they were handling.

mike Masi hopes Talita will accept his feelings.

according to the project site they went to lunch together at a restaurant near the project site.

when there's a chance, Mike still wants to urge Talita about Talita's feelings for her.

talita kebinggungungan, honestly Talita indeed admires a mike pak who is so charismatic but he already has Dennis and they have long been together...

finally Talita with heart conveyed to mike sir.

"sir, before litta apologized. Litta was very pleased with the father's feelings towards litta, but litta could not accept the father more than his co-workers, litta already had a lover sir.

litta is really sorry".

mike did not force again after hearing Talita's explanation.

two days after the incident he with mike, zenna is still absent, Talita felt he had to visit zen because he had three days he did not enter the office.

after work, Talita decides to come to Zenna's house, and Dennis Talita leaves.

tock.tok...

zen...

talita said as she knocked on the door of the Zenna house

There was no sound from the inside, Talita tried repeatedly to summon zenna from the outside.

at Dennis Talita's suggestion call zenna.

"""""cripple my memory

write about him

I'd like to forget......

from behind the door came the geisha song paralyze my memory ringtone commonly used by zenna as a ringtone

talita said: There was a cell phone from the inside, the zenna should be inside.

talita shouted calling out zenna's name loudly while knocking on the door.

"zen.. open the door, it's me brother litta"

long enough litta waiting ahead

Dennis suggested going home just because zenna didn't open the door.

but Talita insisted on begging for a little while longer to wait for Zenna.

talita again tried to call zenna, calling several times.

Zenna finally opened the door.

talita was shocked to see the state of zenna.

zenna was so pale with her slightly blackened and puffy eyes, and her hair was flattened but slightly irregular.

holding both of Zenna's arms

"zen...what really happened to you?" why are you like this? come on tell me...

I'm worried about you zen..."

talita.

talita threw him in and asked Zenna what had happened.

"did you have a fight with Hendri?" did he hit you?" What exactly is zen? you're scaring me...,,"

zenna just cried so much earlier.

"has Hendri done anything to you?" come on, zen. plisss, don't be like this"

ps: hendri is zenna's lover

after being satisfied crying zenna told me everything.

"actually I'm so fucked up brother, hiks...

my mother... my mother my sister. "said zenna bata stammering in between her crying that has not subsided.

What's wrong with your mother zen?"

again the cry of the zenna increasingly split while hugging me.

I rubbed his back while calming him like a crying child.

after the zenna calmed down a little I told Dennis to get some drinking water for the zenna.

Dennis kitchens and takes a cup of warm water to zenna.

zenna with her hands and the body still shaking from crying held the cup and drank it slowly.

zenna then began to tell me that she was very frightened.

his mother had run away and left him a large debt.

and now the zenna is being the monthly month of the collector where his mother owes him money.

zenna was threatened with death or even had to pay the debt with her body.

he's been in terror, and actually it happened a month ago.

only Zenna back then could still calmly deal with it.

but the more aware their threat gets the more terrifying, the more the Zenna loses its direction and confidence.

it all makes him sick and doesn't dare to get out of his house even to work Just that he's so fucked up and scared.

talita and Dennis also felt the sadness of zenna...

"you who are calm zen, all must pass.

then where's your mother zen now?"

"no, sister, I don't know where she is, she just called me and said don't be afraid, all of my business will be handled by myself".

I took a deep breath as if to feel the tightness of the zenna, I stroked the back of the zenna who was in turmoil with her problem, tried to calm her down and persuaded her to return to work.

because I don't think confining myself like this is a good thing.

"zen, it's good tomorrow you go back to work, preoccupy yourself with your work, don't lock yourself up like this, this isn't a zen exit".

"yes, Zen is right, as Dennis said, It's good to keep busy first, while thinking about how to walk the good way".

zenna agreed with us and she promised that tomorrow she would return to work

me and Dennis came home, on my way home and Dennis told me a story.

And I told him about mike.

dennis's response was ordinary, he was neither angry nor jealous,

I don't even understand Dennis, I don't think he's as romantic as other guys.

but I can never escape from it, I feel so loving her, worrying always.

yes Dennis rarely does romantic things to me, like other lovers.

for example, when the birthday gives a surprise or valentine gift etc.

Dennis never did that.

on my birthday, he would just ask me to buy whatever I wanted.

no surprises or anything.

even a lot of guy friends who are after me who give me surprise, honestly, sometimes there is a bland feeling between me and Dennis.

but like being bound by Dennis I really can't get away from him.