After He's gone
seven doubts
"Pst, Miss Nita" Lia said warning her friends of the teacher's arrival from the next lesson. Classroom activities are a little loose because the midterms have just been completed. The class that was once crowded turned silent. They sat neatly waiting for the beautiful teacher to enter the classroom.
"Good day, today we will review the future plans that you have written in the student's personal book." Said Ms. Nita as she placed a stack of light green-coated books onto the table.
He called his students one by one to take the book forward. Until Alana picks up the book, Ms. Nita holds the book for a while and stares at Alana for quite a while. The teacher had read what Alana had written there. From his gaze it was clear that Bu Nita did not support what was written by Alana.
"I saw some kids who weren't serious about writing down their future plans, so I asked you to re-read them carefully and think about your choices carefully, because whatever you write determines your life in the future. You must be completely honest and not playfully answer it, so that you can also help you as much as you can." The teacher spoke at length after the book was finished being shared.
"If there are things you want to talk about in person you can meet mom in BK's room, you understand?" It is answered by nodding and agreeing.
Secretly Ananta also noticed Alana, from the way bu Nita looked at Alana, it seemed like she really needed to worry about Alana's choice.
***
Ananta and Alana were walking in the hallway of the classroom, they were going to the cafeteria when they suddenly crossed paths with Bu Icha. The two greeted the homeroom politely.
"Ananta," Call Bu Icha, arrest Ananta before he can continue walking again. Alana turned her head as the teacher approached Ananta.
"You are a list in SMAN 1 Nusantara right" he said looks to be remembering something.
"Oh, yes ma'am" Ananta replied hesitantly. He looked at Alana with a bit of worry, then went back to face Icha ma.
"The attachment files will certainly be very much, so it must be prepared in advance, and do not forget to contact the mother for the development of the process." Continue to Icha.
"Good ma'am, thank you, I. Pamit first" Ananta replied a little clumsy. The secret was discovered, by Alana accidentally.
Ananta cursed inwardly as he walked back to Alana who was only two steps ahead of him. Alana must have heard everything.
As she expected, Alana looked at Ananta with a gaze of protest. Alana must have cursed him inwardly.
The SMA just called it, the favorite SMA. High School in complete dormitory, with many rules that are quite strict and especially the location is also quite far away which means Alana will very rarely meet Ananta for three years of school if Ananta really goes there.
And again, with high entry requirements and minimums, it seemed impossible for Alana to attend the same school.
Although from the beginning did not plan to go to high school, Alana was still not willing if she had to split away from Ananta. Alana had even imagined how annoying it was.
Alana melengos left Ananta who felt guilty, because it was discovered prematurely.
"Alana, listen to my explanation first." Said Ananta chasing after Alana who had walked far away leaving him.
In addition to being annoyed at not being able to meet often, Alana was actually also worried. Because if that really happened, Alana would no longer be able to take care of Ananta. Alana will continue to worry without knowing the state of Ananta who lives in the dorm. Thinking about it made Alana even more upset.
***
The next day, they no longer left together.
Alana just showed up in class just before lesson time started. When Ananta came to his house this morning, his parents said Alana had left first.
Alana was like avoiding Ananta in her own way. His face also looks tired, complete with panda eyes that are somehow because of what.
In the days after, Alana increasingly avoid Ananta's invitation to play, or out of the streets.
Ananta thought it was all because Alana was still upset with him. Alana's attitude made her even more confused herself. Although busy with other things, it still feels strange if you do not meet Alana first as usual.
"More." Said Ananta thrusting Alana's favorite thing.
"Hmm? Ice cream?" Alana asked the hidden purpose of the gift from Ananta.
"No want? Yes I ate it myself" Ananta pulled back the cold thing, but nimbly Alana grabbed it.
"You eat the ice cream, you're not angry anymore." Alana did not hear him, instead hurriedly opening the ice pack in her hands.
"Who is angry?" Alana asked without looking at Ananta, as usual she would be very focused when dealing with her favorite object.
"You."
"What if I'm angry?" Ask Alana.
"As for me who's signed up to SMAN 1 archipelago." Said Ananta with a little insistent. No way, he misunderstood.
"Oh, I'm not angry. Even good. His favorite school. Very Ananta once" said Alana, emphasizing the last 3 words.
"That's still there."
"If it wasn't for that, then why lately has been avoiding. Getting out of the streets is never going to." Ananta.
"If that one... Ra-ha-si-a." Alana said enigmaticly. Follows Ananta's previous style of speaking.
Ananta was a little upset that Alana was replying to him with the strategy he had done first. Though he wants to be with Alana more often before later separated during High School.
"Will be home together.." Ananta said when he saw Alana's mood had improved.
"No" said Alana briefly.
"Why else, he said not angry" Ananta protests brought up the sentence Alana again. Though from Alana's tone she knew that Alana's emotions had subsided.
"This time it's not really because I'm angry." Alana. This time he spoke while looking at Ananta because his ice cream was up.
"Why else?" Ask Ananta. He was really curious about Alana's often fickle mood.
"There's something I want to do before I go home." Alana answered with understanding to prove that she was not angry.
"I can go along" Ananta tries to persuade Alana who looks stubborn.
"No. You have to learn for the Olympics" replied Alana, looking for excuses.
"The dream is over, Alana. I'm a champion" said Ananta accidentally heard bragging.
"Yes yes, the most champion one" replied Alana annoyed.
"I'm sorry, I don't mean anything"
"Definite. This time I'll be alone." Alana chose honestly. Excuses will still sound like excuses, so being honest is the better thing this time around.
"Yes already. But not angry..." Ask Ananta again. He wants to be absolutely sure.
"Once again you ask me that, I'll be angry." Alana began to get really upset.
"OK okay. Excuse me. But later if I chat in reply yes." Ananta said again, some days the message he sent to Alana was always blue tick, but there was never a reply.
"Hmmm... I'm sorry if that's because I got it back in my heart, so it didn't send." Alana said while grinning the horse.
"This really must be answered" said Ananta firmly.
"Ready boss." Alana replied taking a respectful position while joking, then? they separated again doing their own activities.
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