After He's gone

thirty-three is sorry

Three days had passed since that day, the day when the news that was either good or bad was said by Alana's own father. Alana is still focusing on Ananta. Waiting for him every day because his condition is like declining day by day. She felt more pain than ever, making Alana feel the same pain every time she saw Ananta.

Bella also often gives news about Arkan's condition that is getting better. They sympathize with each other. Give spirit that is either useful or not.

Alana's secretly getting desperate. His father said there was no other way but a donor heart given the condition of Ananta's heart is getting weaker. But it still has to beat longer. The promises they made are still not fulfilled. Although the promise is man-made that is not yet certain to happen, Alana really wants to make it happen.

"Well, what's the state of Arkan now?" ask Ananta suddenly. He still could not leave his room, therefore he also could not visit Arkan. Alana looked at Ananta with a slight annoyance. He should ask if he is doing well first before asking about the situation of others. But since Arkan was in a state of concern too he tried to understand. Alana answered Ananta.

"bella said she could eat a little, still recovering because some of her bones were broken. He still has a bit of trouble talking. Fortunately he had no drama forget his memory. If there was, I would have hit him immediately after waking up. Bella has been waiting for him every day to know." said Alana at length. Although some times his voice was low due to sympathy, but he still sounded happy, because Arkan's situation was not as bad as he thought.

"hummm.kok said Bella continues, you've never looked at her directly?" tanya Ananta made Alana go silent for some time. Indeed indeed. Alana still can't see Arkan. Guilt still afflicts her whenever she thinks about meeting Arkan.

"jengukin him dong Na.." said Ananta rather loudly. It's definitely coercion.

"it will be there later." he continued. He had to force Alana about this. After all, Alana still seemed to blame herself for what happened.

"huft, yes" replied Alana with a heavy heart. He still doubts. Although Arkan knew nothing, but his memory of him wanting bad things to happen to Arkan was still very clear in his head. He was afraid that meeting Arkan would make his guilt even worse.

"Even if Arkan knows everything, he won't kill you. Because it is so. She was understanding." continued Ananta tried to calm Alana. Alana nodded slowly, yes, she indeed had to deal with this alone.

"yes yes, I know." replied Alana in a low tone. Well, he lost.he always lost when he talked about Ananta and his request.

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Alana waited a little while at the door, Arkan had already been moved to a private nursing room. Alana is still haunted by a greater sense of guilt that makes her not dare to enter even though she is also very eager to see firsthand the state of Arkan now.

"thank you for coming" Bella said with a bright smile.

"Hi. sorry I didn't bring anything. I just came from Ananta's room." Alana said a little stiff. He felt like a stranger, even though the two people in front of him had previously been so close that they were like brothers.

"it's okay brother. Brother came I was so happy. Arkanese. Brother Alana who loves the same spirit nemenin me from the beginning. You have to thank Alana" she said, smiling so widely. Bella was proud of Alana in front of Arkan, flattering her as if Alana was her guardian angel when her circumstances were almost desperate.

Arkan nodded weakly, although he had already greatly improved he had yet to completely recover. It takes time for him to return to his former state.

"thank God, you're awake" Alana said, saying sincerely. Although something still stuck in his heart.

"even though it's awake but the recovery process will still take a long time, even though it happens so quickly, but the effect during that." said Bella a little upset, said, Again he brought up the accident that happened to Arkan. Really, it all feels like a dream. But every time he saw the wound on Arkan's body he was again convinced that it was all true.

"the name is also calamity, must be faced with a lot of patience" said Alana already like ustadzah in a study. He smiled faintly at Arkan who was lying with a bandage full. Fortunately Arkan's face was not much of an injury, so it was still a little pleasing to the eye, but the bandage on his head made everyone who was looking feel an imaginary pain in their respective heads.

"Ma..." Arkan tried to speak even though his neck still hurt every time he opened his mouth. Bella draws her body closer to Arkan and tries to hear more clearly so that Arkan does not have to speak out loud. Alana came closer when she heard her name called.

"Ananta how?" he said a little more. Obviously he hasn't been able to speak fluently, but the first question is how Ananta is. Really, Alana's feelings are falling apart right now. How could he think ill of someone as good as Arkan. There were no tears on her cheeks, her lips were still trying to smile making an expression that contrasted with her tears now.

"Ananta's fine. You have to recover quickly so you can see for yourself." said Alana with a raucous voice. Her soft voice disappeared somewhere every time she cried. Bella stroked the back of Alana who was still busy wiping her own tears. She was a little surprised, Why is Alana crying. Is Ananta really that bad now?.

He himself often asked Alana about the state of Ananta, but as far as he knew Alana always said that Ananta is fine, has improved, or any sentence that is like consolation. But he himself rarely could see Ananta directly. Here he is also busy caring for Arkan, his condition now can not be left often. The usual rest time is only used for eating, bathing, already. That's it. The rest of him was always next to Arkan. Therefore both understand that they can not often visit each other. Although Bella felt strange because Alana had never come at all in these three days.

"thankfully" Arkan said again with a smile before grimacing in pain once more. Substantial. Arkan so unfortunately with Ananta huh? Alana knows now. The friendship between the men turned out to be amazing. Alana exhaled her breath violently letting out a slight feeling of resentment in her chest.