Actually I Why?

what my fault

The teacher looked at me and started to open up..

" just go straight. Class 7 point point. Yesterday at school hours . Suddenly the glass in the back window was thrown by the stone until it broke!!.

.the student who threw it ran away, then we found one of the disciples who was there as a witness.

He said they were fighting because of the girl's seizure, and that girl was you".

I was shocked to hear his words.

"Sorry ma'am but I've never been close to anyone . so how could I possibly be their grab mom. ".

The teacher seemed to hold back his anger staring at me .

I turned my face away . My face was fixed on the tree in front of me . I saw that woman peeping at me behind a tree.

"Denger yes son. 

You are a child . Still SMP . No need to look for attention .   My son is your age . Studying . No I can be in weird weird . And he's receding.

You are not like your parents . Hard work nyekolahin . His son at school even misses here and there ".

I was silent at his advice .

"Sorry ma'am . Every day I go home from school and go to work . Help my mother. .. I also take care of my two younger siblings I bring work.  I'm home at 10pm . I don't have a mind for a lot of behavior in school, I want to make my family life better".

The teacher smiled lightly turned her face to me . "denger well!!. Pantes a lot of students who are interested in you, you pinter gomong ".

I stared in disbelief at the teacher .

"The tree is horrifying  . Until something happens again . I'll call your parents".

The teacher stood up and left me. I still hear the teacher's voice muttering . "Based on the children of today".

I walked to my class .  I was thinking exactly what was my fault .. why they all didn't like me . . What am I actually doing.

Friday after that ..

I practiced scouting .. I deliberately went home last . To meet that woman ..a woman that makes me very curious about what her intentions and goals are all along.

I walk alone in school .

I'm heading to 7th grade..

It just so happens to be in the very back of the school close to the boys' bathroom.

I was standing outside that class . I saw the clock pointing at half 6pm .

Almost magrib thought I .. The sky has started to get a little dark .

I looked to the right to the left and to the back .

I exhale with excitement. I am gathering the intention of the heart . Get into that classroom.

I saw the room was a little dark.

I walked towards the repaired glass . I'm staying right there

I closed my eyes . "Yes Allah . What really happened . Please this sinful servant of yours ".

Slowly I opened my eyes .

I moved my body closer to the glass.

I see in my mind..

There are a lot of 9th graders there.

I also saw their faces familiar faces .

Jesus !!!...

I saw ika, Dyah was also there..

I saw another student from class H . I saw the bed on his left arm.

They're bullying a 7th grader . The student was pushed and told to throw another class of glass.

The student finally threw the glass .

I immediately backed off and covered my face.

I saw ika and dyah .

"Okay good . Tomorrow say yes to your friend's friend .. don't forget his name eji ok ".

The student nodded..

Slowly my vision returned to normal.I thank God and I also thank you for your concern ..

Even if you and I are in a different world..

Thank you for your concern..

I left the classroom .

I kept walking outside the gate.

"Assalam mualaikum ".

Say me .. and then I go home from school.

In esokan day . I who was entering the school walked in the gate . I see the clock is still 6 hours over 18 minutes.

I waited beside the school fence.

I hope in my heart . You can meet the male student who threw the stone yesterday...

I want to convince him!!!....

If the bully in school must be reported.

I waited long enough . Until I finally saw the boy come down from angkot with bebe rapa his friend.

I walked quickly waiting for him to get closer to the gate...

"Hey,,, wait ".

Hold me . I held the boy's shoulder ..

She looked at me,,, her friend also looked at me in wonder..

"I can talk to you for a minute ?".

she turned her head towards her friend's friend .. Then her friend's friend left her..

I dragged him a little to the edge of the gate..

" sorry deck. What is your name ? ".

She smiled . He rolled his hand at me "sosling bagas".

"Emmm, I'm sorry.

I know about you being forced by a 9th grader to throw stones at your own class. You don't have to be afraid, I'll be a witness for you".

Bagas looks silent .he stares at the name on my chest ..

"Oh so you're the one whose name eji ".

I was shocked by his tone of speech which instantly turned a little harsh and a bit harsh.

"Because of you, I have to follow them .. I also have to ask them questions and teachers!!!.... . I had to lie about me not seeing who was fighting...

Because you made my friend so ridicule me ".

After speaking ..he left me.

I'm chasing her . "deck waiting, please deck. It's for the common good ".

"You're a ".  He went to see me die..

I don't understand what he thinks..

Am I selfish . Thought I .. .

That moment I realized.

It's free for me to try to fight them.

They are many . They will fight me in various ways..

I'd better shut up later, they're tired of themselves.

Starting that day....

I was silent what they treated me like.

Like spilling water under my desk .

Scribble the package book. And hid my workbook..

Sometimes when I want to go home. My bike tires are deflated .3x also.

That time . At home there is a problem . My father was sick, and had to be taken to the hospital . Besides I work . I also accompanied them to sleep at home.

That day also the teacher told us to bring a mobile phone . .

My phone is still a keyboard . I think my phone is useless because I can't open google I thought.

But I still carry that phone.

After the lesson is finished .

Sany came up to me and sat next to me . I'm silent pretending I didn't see her..

He grabbed ...