Actually I Why?

pain is not bleeding

Risky put the crackle in his bag.

There were cigarettes, matches and some rubbish.

Of course the cigarette is just the stick.

Risky put it all in the bathtub.

I was surprised to see her.

Lutfi grabbed my bag and doused my bag with water in the tub mixed with their garbage earlier.

I tried to grab my bag .

Lutfi threw my bag into the corner.

When I want to grab my bag . Lutfi pushed me to the ground.

"Eji, let's be my girlfriend.lo's safe "

I shook my head while crawling around and grabbing my bag.

"Fucking girl".

Say risky . He stomped on my arm "it hurts ky. please let go".

Not to take it off . Risky instead pressed her even more strongly.

"Please freelin".

Sani come in .

"Guys yuk goes, waha ngak yuk ni".

They all looked at each other .

And go away I died.

I cried myself there.

I heard from outside the rain was falling.

I took out my wet book while crying.

My heart hurts so much.

I hugged myself.

I cleaned the water tub in the toilet.

I'm coming home on foot.

I saw my dad coming to pick me up.

"Where you were, you weren't there".

I smiled while riding my dad's bike.

"So again take care of the schedule eskul sir".

"You think there's still a lesson said your security guard blm out, trs said there was a basketball practice schedule at school . Maybe come along so the security guard told me to come check again".

I smiled when I heard my father speak.

At home I dropped my wet book again.

I thought if asked the parents . I just answer wet to rain.

Thankfully it rained.

Tomorrow I leave for school .

It turns out they didn't stop .

They spread the old chat that they used to spread it . They spread again.

Honestly speaking.

I can't take it anymore.

I feel like I'm alone now.

I want to die.

Maybe dying is better.

My mind is completely dead.

I think I'd better die.

From my family side .

I won't burden my mother's father over my school . And just focus on my sister.

On the other hand I feel peace will not be treated like this again.

My decision to end my life was right I thought carefully.

That night I bought a cutter at the store.

I wrapped the cutter in a cloth.

I wrote 3 handwritten letters .

One for my parents.

One for my friend.

And one more for them.

I decided to end my life at school.

His place is in the UKS.

Deliberately tomorrow, because tomorrow is Friday.

There are scout training activities as well .

My inner.

I'll leave if I'm not at school .

So many media covered .

And read my letter.

I've been all over the world knowing, her cruel outside world to her son..

I let them make a sound.

After putting everything.

I asked for a delivery of father .

I stared fixedly at my two sisters . Then leave.

I went to school feeling more excited than usual.

I was really looking forward to school.