
BRAAK!
Nisa slammed the door of her room, she had no idea why she was feeling upset. As soon as he got on the bed, he just stayed still and sat down to bend his knees. The strange feeling in him grew more turbulent, even his eyes looked teary.
Shortly after, his mother suddenly came in. Realizing that, Nisa directly lowered her head to her knees. She did not want her mother to see her crying.
Bu Rika slowly approached and sat down next to Nisa. He also rubbed his daughter's head gently. A mother's heart is like that, she understands very well what is being experienced by her child.
"I'm sorry mom, maybe now you feel this is unfair to you. Even though your sisters seem to be insinuating you, but that's the only way you can be sober. I also understand if your attitude is like this, basically it is because of your nature as well as your circumstances. I know your reason for being like this is because of a broken heart, but if your broken heart causes another heartbreak..it's not good Nisa ..."
"Why indeed? I've loved someone, and I'm heartbroken because of it. Isn't it natural to love to be ready for heartbreak?" nisa said with a trembling voice.
"You're wrong, what broke your heart isn't really love, but the amount of hope you put for it. Learn to love without fear of loss, no longer is all your happiness fixated on one person, because if he leaves then you will lose yourself. So please try to learn to love your husband, no need to rush, just slow down ..."
"Mother asked me to love her, but couldn't love be forced?"
"Mother instead of forcing you, try to open your heart first. Surely long will get used to it, later you will definitely fall in love because you get used to it."
"But it feels tormented ... Every time I look him in the eye, his eyes look exactly the same as Ricky's. And I hate that look! Up until now whenever I remembered him, I somehow felt hate for myself as well. Uuhh .. r-it feels stifling ..."
"...."
Haiss ... this child .. maybe at this age it is natural to be able to think mature. But still he was young, still had a fragile heart.
Nisa's body was now beginning to shake, she clenched her hands as tightly as possible. His mother who saw it felt like she couldn't take it anymore.
"Sina!"
"A-what ...?"
"Bless your head now! Look mother!"
Nisa slowly raised her head. Bu Rika who saw the state of her daughter was a little shocked, Nisa's lips were bleeding from her own bite, and her eyes seemed to hold so many puddles of tears. Without saying anything more, Nisa suddenly hugged her mother tightly even though her own body was trembling.
"What's wrong, son, cry if you want to cry .." he said while stroking Nisa's head.
"Hik .. hik ..."
Then came the tears that he had been enduring all this time. Her feelings are so complicated, she is simultaneously toyed with by guilt, resentment, unacceptable, hopelessness, hatred, and love. Not all feelings can be saved, which is why tears are created.
Nisa still cries in her mother's arms. It took him quite a long time to vent all his sadness. He still cried even though he stopped crying.
"Calm down, do you want to take your medicine?"
Nisa shook her head.
"Why? Let you feel better, tell me where you keep it, I'll get it for you."
"S-It's over ..."
"...."
Haiss ... right too, it must have run out since he wasn't married. My son this one is so concerned, I saw a scar on his neck, he must be trying to hurt himself again. Brought to the psychologist the results are also nil, in fact he was hit by Nisa. Looks like tomorrow's gonna have to get some more medicine.
"I-mom ..."
"Yes?"
"W-Am I a bad person?"
"Nisa, good bad someone is relative. What do you want to be, how do you want, no matter what happens you are still a mother's child. And all I ask of you is one, learn to control your emotions. Never try to hurt yourself again, the one who loves you a lot. I've known all along that if you've covered the scars on your body with concealer, I've asked you to stop fooling people. You used to claw your own hands, I know that too."
"...."
Now I finally understand, mother to say like this, this means that I am not a bad person, but a disappointing person.
"I-I know mom loves me. But ... has my mother ever regretted giving birth to me?"
"Hey, what are you doing? Which mother might regret giving birth to a sweet child like you. It's true that sometimes you're naughty and you piss me off, but I also understand why you do that. Mother was also young, once mother was also naughty. So it's impossible that if a mother regrets giving birth to her child, I'm sure one day you'll understand, one day you'll be a mother too."
"...."
Maybe I deserve to be a mother? So just a wife I failed, even if later I have children, my son will definitely be the unluckiest person because it has me as his mother.
Nisa then took off her embrace, she suddenly lay down and turned to her mother. "Mom can go .. leave me alone ..."
"Alright," Rika smiled, before she left once again she rubbed Nisa's head.
KLF ...
***
The day changed, the attitude shown by Nisa to her family changed to a little cooler. But now when dinner was over, when everyone was still at the table, her father suddenly said, "Nisa, there's something I have to tell you."
"What?" asked Nisa with a flat expression.
"Last noon I received an invitation to a party, your father-in-law gave it to me. He invited us all to attend his birthday party which will be held in 3 days."
"Don't you understand my condition? I want a divorce, which means breaking up the family relationship with her. It's up to you and the others to attend, but I choose to stay home."
"Nisa, please don't be so selfish. If we attend a party without you, then what does that mean? After all this party will also be attended by many influential people, especially your status is still an official wife, if you stay at home then people will think of a variety. Do you want your life problems exposed?"
"Mother agrees with your father, the most important thing is your presence, even if later you choose to avoid everyone it is not a problem. Moreover ... he said your uncle and your brother were also invited, funny if Tia came but Nisa even stupid, it's your in-law's birthday event you know."
"..." - ".Nisa turned her face away.
Ck, basic old man mostly style! Why did he have to be born this month, can't he be born next month? Though it was almost the smell of land, but even busy birthday events.
"I don't want to come!!" Nisa stood up and wanted to leave.
"Curtain, you forced me. Reihan!"
"Yes dad?" answer Reihan spontaneously.
"Hurry up and get the pen!"
"Pulps for what?"
"To cross your brother's name off the inheritance list!"
"Don't woi!" Nisa immediately ran away turning closer to the dining table. "Yes yes .. I will come! Are you satisfied now?!"
"Well, so new is true" he said, crossing his arms in front.
"...."
Aharghhh!! For the sake of inheritance I am willing to do everything! Even though I came, but don't expect me to bring a gift.
...3 days later, the main residence of Kartawijaya...
...••••••...
Nisa and the whole family were present. Mr. Muchtar's birthday party is prepared so luxurious, classy entertainment, glamorous guests, and dishes that are classy with star-rated restaurants.
But it cannot be denied that birthdays are just a cover, the main purpose of the party is a gathering place for people who are busy discussing business and establishing relationships. In fact, there are even some people who pretend to be familiar for the sake of social climbing.
The main highlight of the party was, of course, Keyran. As for Nisa, she instead deliberately acted insistent on everyone who tried to get her to speak, she did so for the sake of destroying her image in the eyes of the people. Yes ... can be said this is a blessing, Nisa does not intend to make trouble is the greatest blessing.
What Nisa did at the party was only two things, first she continued to drink wine, and the second she kept trying desperately to avoid Keyran. But there is one thing that makes a little happy, that is he can meet with Tia.
Tia herself is a super model, because of the demands of work, she can not linger talking to Nisa. Once left by Tia, Nisa again continued drinking wine so greedily.
The event that was arranged went well. But Nisa still feels bored and really wants to go home soon. At first Nisa did not bring any gifts, but she was forced to hand over the gifts her mother had prepared. Even when wishing his father-in-law a happy birthday, the words and hopes he offered were all full of falsehoods.
But Mr. Muchtar was no less cunning, when he expressed hope on his 58th birthday, he hoped to get a grandson soon. Of course it was a hard slap for Nisa. As for Keyran, when he heard his father's words, he just mutely and looked at Nisa with a look full of disappointment.
The party is still going on for a long time and is getting bigger. In the midst of the excitement there was suddenly a man who patted Nisa's shoulder from behind. Nisa was surprised and immediately turned her head towards the man.
"David ...?"
"Yep, it's me." David smiled, then he gestured for one of the servants to approach. He took two glasses of wine, the other one for Nisa. After that, he asked Nisa to make a toast.
"I still didn't expect to see you, you must have been invited to enliven the event" Nisa said with a smile.
"Yaa .. the boss is right, moreover the director of my agency is also social climbing. This is why I'm here. And ... I've heard the news from Faris, so is it real?"
"Yes, I mean it."
"Oh deserved, just right from earlier your husband glared directly at you. Look tuh!" david with eye signals.
"Ck, don't discuss that. I don't know why I had a bad feeling ..."
"What kind of bad feeling?"
"Look at 2 o'clock! The waiter guy who stood by the table full of wine from earlier did not move, he was there constantly."
"Maybe he's a newbie, so boss don't overthink."
Though near the table was also your husband, most actually the boss also secretly noticed him.
"But even though he's a new kid, someone should have scolded him."
"Maybe he's anti-social, it's been .. boss stop overthinking. Let's talk about something else."
"What talk?"
"Talk about the future. Or maybe money, boss will like money~"
"For me now the money problem is less challenging, every month my account is automatically filled. Moreover, the money from investment from the casino, now mah arguably back the capital. So the point is I can foya-foya without worrying about anything."
"Haha .. has become permanently rich now. Then about the kidnapping, what's the boss's plan for revenge?"
"That can be thought of later, I'm still waiting for Ivan's results. You ask like this, do you want to come?" asked Nisa with a cynical smile.
"Of course, come along, we've been quiet for a long time."
"Huh, we wait for the time to come. I'll stay for a while, I'll get my own wine."
"okay."
Nisa finally leaves David to pick up the wine, she walks closer to the table she had discussed. Just as he was about to grab a glass of wine, suddenly his hand was held back by Keyran. When Nisa turned her head, she then brushed off Keyran's hand that was holding her hand.
"Stop drinking!" pinta Keyran with low tone.
"What right do you have to govern me?" nisa asked while turning her face away.
"I'm your husband! And forever will be. After this party's over, I want to have a serious talk with you."
"What do you really want to talk about? Are you still not satisfied with my words? But actually I also don't mind if I have to repeat everything again. If you want to talk about anything less useful, you better not."
"Nisa, please don't provoke my emotions!"
"Curtain, whatever."
"...."
Damn, it turns out your attitude is still indifferent like this! If this wasn't a legal state, I would've been monitoring you.
Keyran was finally forced to leave in frustration. As for Nisa, she resumes her goal of drinking wine. He quickly finished the wine, and then put the empty glass on the table.
The truck!
Huh, now my taste for drinking has gone.
"Wait a minute ..."
Suddenly Nisa's eyes widened, she was very surprised by what she saw. A male servant who had stolen the attention earlier suddenly passed in front of him, but Nisa realized that the servant was hiding a knife.
The waiter hurriedly walked past Nisa, his eyes were looking for someone, and that person was none other than Keyran.
Nisa realized that, and she immediately ran away shouting, "Key!! Watch out!!!"
The waiter panicked, he immediately ran towards Keyran while preparing to slam the knife. But Nisa sped up her run so that she managed to block the servant's path with her own body.
JJB ... !!