A Wife's Escape

The Disappointing Wife

"I-I'm .. There's a question about one thing." Keyran then looked into Nisa's eyes. "After I understood all this, I came to the conclusion that you have the power to rule the people there. You could have told them to keep quiet and let me go home empty-handed. If you want, you can keep this a secret from me. But you'd rather tell me this way, the way I know from others. Tell Nisa, what are you doing all this for?"

Nisa turned her face, she then lowered her head and looked at the Keyran tie that was still in her hands. "On that .. I don't know, I'm not so sure either. It's just ..." Suddenly Nisa stopped talking and bit her own lips.

"What only?! I didn't expect such a vague answer from you! I need you to explain everything!"

"Did you still think of me as your wife?" asked Nisa without looking at Keyran.

"Speak what are you? Of course you're my wife."

"That's what I think, Key. I'm your wife .. and as a wife, shouldn't I be open to my own husband? But, as your wife I also want to always be impressed in front of you. As for me, in the past have done such a thing ..."

"I don't want you to know my bad side like that, but on the other hand you're my husband and you deserve to know what your wife really looks like. Then by chance you knew Chelsea who was William's younger brother. You both want to know what happened about William's death 4 years ago. And you alone, I don't know why you suddenly suspected me again ..."

"Nisa, listen to me. I don't suspect you for nothing, but I do feel that something is awkward with you, especially your personality. You tend to be different and you can do things beyond my shadow. Though all I know is that you only have an ordinary background, of course with all that I suspect even though you are my own wife. Just like you said, I'm your husband and I deserve to know all about you."

"..." - ".Nisa was silent, she kept her head down and her hands clenched as tightly as possible.

I want that too, I want you to love me for who I am. But for now it's too soon to know everything. And once I think, I'll never find an answer to when the time is right.

But fate works mysteriously, there are coincidences that bring you closer to what I'm hiding. Then I purposely let you know from others. I don't know if this is right or wrong, but I think .. I'd regret missing this opportunity. Even it seems .. I'm the one who can't tell you about my rottenness with my own mouth, I'm afraid of the reaction you'll give later.

At this moment the atmosphere became silent, none of the two of them were about to speak. But in the silence, Nisa, who was still bowing her head, suddenly said, "Now you know I'm fully involved in the case of William's murder. Are you planning to report me to the police?"

For a moment Keyran was stunned, then he said, "No."

"Good, you're smart enough to make the right choice."

Keyran sighed. "Hahh .. What can I do? One side you're my wife, but the other side if I report you, of course, the dark business once run by the Adinata family is also uncovered. If that happens, this family's good name is also tarnished. But ... What would you do if I reported you?"

Nisa sneers cynically. "What else is it? It was clear that I was going to run away. Who would want to be in jail."

"Is there absolutely no remorse in your heart?"

"Nothing, I'll never live in regret. Maybe you'll think of me as a horrible woman because I have absolutely no regrets about doing anything wrong. But maybe I'll regret not doing that and letting my friend die there."

Keyran no longer spoke a word, he just looked at his wife with a look of disbelief. "What actually? What have you been through all this time? What exactly makes you this way?"

Nisa looked up, and also showed a faint smile on her lips. "It's my choice, I've chosen to go down this path."

"Can't you stop?" keyran asked with a hopeful look.

"I'm sorry, that seems impossible" he replied in a soft voice.

"Why?! Why did you say it was impossible?! What kind of organization did you choose, Nisa?! I'm your husband and now I command you to stop!!"

"Sorry, for this one please forgive me. But there has its own rules, I can't decide to just stop. They've been with me for a long time, I can't betray them all."

"You fool!!" snapped Keyran who suddenly hugged tightly Nisa's body. "You fool, Nisa!! You will have many enemies if you keep joining them! There will be more and more people who hate and intend to hurt you! I'm not as stupid as you think! I know that you're not the only one who's been through a life-and-death situation! Please think about your own safety! I don't want bad things to happen to you. What would happen if I were without you, huh?! Please think of me too!!"

"You stupid wife! So stupid! You being my spoiled wife is enough! You are good at cooking, decorated yourself is also good, your knowledge is also broad. I'm happy enough to have a wife like that! I don't need an amazing wife who can beat up people, I don't need a wife who can destroy a dark organization! I want Nisa, the Nisa I know!"

"I know it's not easy for you, you must have borne a very heavy burden with that identity you have! I know there are more people who curse you than pray for you! You said you chose this path a long time ago, I know you're depressed about it all. I'm sure that's why you have an anxiety disorder, even when you're seriously injured you say it's just scratched! Realize that it's only hurting yourself!"

"So I beg ... I beg you to stop if you still consider me your husband!"

"Keyran ..." muttered Nisa trembling.

I was touched because you were worried about me. But ... This is not even everything, this is just a little bit of the many things I have done. I am now more and more afraid to admit that I am the leader.

If I say everything now, it means that the matter of why I could miscarry will also be revealed, whether you will look at me later. Maybe it's not time to be completely honest about myself. But I promise you, somehow, someday, you'll find out.

Instead of returning a close hug from her husband, Nisa actually moved away and took off the hug. Keyran who realized that only looked at Nisa with a face that seemed confused.

Nisa smiled faintly with her pretty eyes. "I'm sorry, I can't stop. For me, my responsibility to be your wife and mine are just as great. Again forgive me, I am indeed a disappointing wife ..."

Nisa suddenly stood up and walked towards the door, the smile on her face turned into a bitter smile. "I want to get out the wind. Then if you want to clean yourself, I've prepared warm water with your favorite lavender fragrance."

KLF ...

The door's closed. Now the barrier that limited the two people was clear. Keyran who was still silent in that place again sighed.

"You forced me, Nisa. Don't blame me if I take action for you. This is all for your sake too, dear." he murmured full of earnestness.

I will investigate everything that has to do with you, whether it is an organization, a place, or even a person. I will restrain you and will never let any of your actions escape my scrutiny. It doesn't matter if you think I'm possessive even once. Because this is my love for you.

***

Meanwhile on the outside of the room door. Since then Nisa did not move from there at all, she crouched right in front of the door while tightly shutting her own mouth. Even without him knowing, at this time the general anxiety disorder he suffered was relapsing.

"Sorry .. I'm sorry, I did disappoint .. but please don't hate me ..."