A Wife's Escape

Don't Care About Me!

Nisa immediately looked on as soon as she found out that Ricky was right in front of her. The feeling Nisa felt was only chaos, she never imagined she would meet her beloved ex in a party.

While Ricky, suddenly he took a serving of choco lava cake and thrust it to Nisa. Then with a gentle smile she said, "Take it, it's your favorite..."

Nisa did not respond to Ricky at all. Realizing that, Ricky then put the cake back on the table. But the smile shown by Ricky turned into a bitter smile. And then he said, "How are you? Everything's fine, right?"

Seeing Ricky acting like that to her, Nisa still kept quiet, from within her came an outpouring of emotions that were difficult to describe. Nisa started to grit her teeth and clenched her hands as tightly as possible, the look she showed was disappointment.

Nisa finally decides to turn around and is about to walk away, but suddenly her hand is held back by Ricky. Nisa also did not intend to shake Ricky's hand, even she was very reluctant to turn her head towards him.

"Nisa. I want to talk to you, but somewhere else. Are you ready?" ricky asked without letting go of his hand. And on the other hand Nisa answered him with a nod of her head without turning her head. "All right, now come with me!"

With his hands still holding tight, Ricky then invited Nisa to go to a place that is quite quiet, the place is in the corner of the park that is in the residence of Cakrakumala. After they arrived, the two of them stood face to face and did not say a word.

Nisa kept her head down as if she didn't want to see Ricky's face. In the depths of his heart he felt all sorts of emotions such as disappointment, anger, hatred and also longing. Actually there's a lot he wants to say, like; how you are, what you still love me, what you do and whether you are happy.

But in reality Nisa held all those questions by biting her own lips. And without any warning, suddenly Ricky hugged Nisa tightly. He also rubbed Nisa's head while saying, "Sorry Nisa. Again please forgive me..."

Nisa still continues to bite her lips and does not return a warm hug from Ricky, although in fact the hug is very much missed. Not long after that Ricky released his embrace, then with both hands tried to lift the face of Nisa who had just kept her head down to look at him.

One of Ricky's thumbs suddenly rubbed Nisa's lips. Then with a bitter smile he said, "Stop, I beg you not to hurt yourself, stop biting your lips. Don't get arrested, just tell me everything..."

Nisa complies with Ricky's request to stop biting his lips, then with both hands he clasps Ricky's hand which is holding his face. Nisa then lowered Ricky's hand to get off her face, but after that Nisa turned back down. Then with a bitter smile she said, "What can I say? Besides, what's your business? You don't interfere in my business anymore!"

"Nisa, why is your attitude like this? Have I made a mistake? If so, please tell me what my mistake was. I'll definitely try to fix it..."

"No, you're not wrong." Nisa then raised her head and smiled cynically, "Everything is my own fault."

Because at that time I myself said that you can forget and replace me, it's my fault that I can't be willing, so it's not anyone's fault.

"Your fault? What mistakes did you make?" ricky asked with a confused face.

"What do you want to know? My fault is my own business, the wounds I feel are my own. You just stay happy, don't mind me!"

"Of course I should care, what you mean must have something to do with me. So please tell me," Ricky suddenly pulled Nisa's hand and grasped it as tightly as possible. "I want to know everything, you can't leave before you tell me!"

"Ricky!!" Nisa tries to wriggle but Ricky clasps her hand even tighter. "Do you really want to know? Maybe my confession will sound really funny to you."

"Whatever, whether it's funny or whatever I don't care. I still want to hear a confession from you, so say it now!"

"All right, I'll tell you everything. Maybe you've changed, but I'm still the same, still the same Nisa. I still love you Ricky!"

"Nisa, I-I did too..." Ricky then let go of his hand. "I'm still..."

"Enough, listen to me first!" Nisa then looked into Ricky's eyes and smiled bitterly at him. "I admit, I am still the same person, who is still secretly always curious about you, wants to find a gap to see you, also wants to make sure whether you are sad or happy. Even though I knew what I met would only hurt me."

"Sina..." Ricky tried to reach Nisa, but Nisa immediately brushed her hand away.

"You're wrong Nisa, this is not funny at all. I know why you're acting this way" Ricky then held Nisa's face back with both hands. "I see, you're not happy with your marriage because you still love me. Has it ever been on your mind to part with him and return to me?"

"Huh, why ask such a question?" Nisa then releases Ricky's hand from his face. "Let's see, there will be a day when you will see me as someone who has healed from wounds, someone who has completely given you up, someone who has stopped loving you, no matter who and how you are with whom. Later, believe!" Nisa then walks away leaving Ricky alone.

Bangs*t, even though you yourself have found my replacement! Your question is nonsense.

Ricky was still silent when Nisa had left him, but shortly after that he suddenly smiled. "Hahaha, now I get it..."

Nisa, now I have understood the meaning of your words at that time. At that time you advised not to believe you, it was only for the sake of the sentence you just said. I know, actually you still have hope for me. You feel you will not be able to be willing, forever you will continue to care for me. My honey's...

**

After that Ricky decided to go back to the party. But it was very different from the one before. He continued to stare at the shadow of himself on the glass of wine he was holding, even the expression he displayed was also very sour.

"Nisa.." muttered Ricky with a bitter smile.

Honestly, I'm still disappointed in you even though I know that you still love me. At first I thought that you were happy, I saw you being so friendly with your husband.

It feels so stifling to see you two like that. He holds your hand, puts your arm on his shoulder, even smiles gently at you. While I was, I could only feel cold while watching you from a distance.

My days are so heavy and different without you, you who always give me spirit in the morning, who always reminds me to eat, who always jokes with me before going to bed, now that figure has disappeared.

The hardest thing was seeing you step out of my apartment. As you walked away, I counted every step you took.

If only you knew how much I needed you. All I can do to comfort myself is to recall all our memories, and I still keep all the gifts you have given me, even though I have mostly destroyed them.

Every night I have trouble sleeping, I feel haunted by your shadow. Everything I do keeps reminding me of you. I also wondered, while being with him if you ever thought that I was okay alone, and had I crossed your mind. As for me, even your name is always on my mind.

Although your body is not mine now, I have not given up. As long as in your heart there is still a special space for me, as long as I will continue to fight to reclaim you. Maybe it's not time yet, but I promise I will. If the time comes, whatever you are I will accept it, because I love you sincerely, your happiness is my desire.

"Yourf..." Ricky then drank the wine he held and spent it in one gulp.

When he wanted to put an empty glass, suddenly the atmosphere turned even more excited. People started running towards somewhere, they also started spreading rumors that were not necessarily true or not.

"Let's see, he said someone fell into the pool!" say someone.

"Yes, some say she's a woman!"  say someone.

Ricky was still silent when he saw people starting to stir themselves. But he suddenly thought about something.

"A woman.." murmured Ricky while frowning.

It was Nisa! If it's true then it's very bad, Nisa can't swim, I have to get there right away. Hope it still has time!