A Tears's

Chapter 8's

It's been five months since Luke cut ties with me. From that moment on I had no intention of figuring out how he was and what Luke was doing now. Neither did Luke, nor did he seek or contact me since that summer night.

Now that autumn has arrived, the air is getting cold. I am still trying to get through my troubles. It's not easy for me to forget Luke. There are times when I hate him so much but there are times when I miss him too. Anyway, I'm still trying.

Alan and Sam finally found out about my problem, how not, almost all the songs I wrote had very sad lyrics and wrapped them in a cheerful tone. Sam always said the song I made sounded terrible, "How could you write a song like this, if you wanted to write a sad song to have a sad tone for the music" he explained

I just wanted to write a song according to what I thought, but like her I was too forced to listen.

Until one day, Sam asked me to come to the agency. I thought there would only be meetings as usual, choosing which songs to release and choosing which singers we would invite to continue the project. But like her I was wrong.

"Joa, I think you need some time to rest" he said

"Why?" ask me. Alan who was in the same room was just speechless hearing Sam's words.

I still touched on the situation, and began to think whether I had made a mistake.

"No, it's just that we think you need some time off" Sam explained. I'm still staring at Sam and then Alan.

Alan started looking at me and said, "Joa, we know what happened between you and Luke. Not everyone. Just the fact that you guys split up" Alan checked my expression and continued, "Don't you think your situation has an effect on your work? Your song sounds very dark. Like there is no hope. It's very different from the kind of song you used to write" Alan explained.

"That bad?" ask me. I don't think my feelings will have any effect on my work. If Sam says bad, it means it's true. Sam was never wrong in judging a song.

"I know, you might not want to talk about your time with us. So Alan and I offered you a vacation. Forget your problems and look for a new atmosphere. When you are calm, write the lyrics. You can work anywhere, right? You can come back anytime" Sam explained.

It took me a long time to think, would a vacation be needed.

"Okay, I'm going on vacation. I had to apologize to you guys earlier. I need some time to tell you Luke and I broke up... It was because he was going to marry another woman" I explained in a flat voice, "Maybe they've married and are waiting for their first child to be born"

There's nothing I have to hide, Alan and Sam have to know what's keeping me from working.

They were silent, as if they did not believe what I said. "When Kevin was here, wasn't he? That night?" ask Alan, please,

"I'm sorry, Joa, I should have asked you a question right away even though you might not like it. I should have comforted you" Alan explained

"No need to apologize" I said with a smile, not wanting to make things awkward I said, saying,

"I can take a vacation, right?" ask me again,

Sam looked at me and smiled "Go on vacation"

On the way I kept thinking "Where should I go on vacation". But Alan's voice broke my daydream "I should have paid more attention to you. We even stayed together, how could I possibly let you through a difficult situation by yourself. I'm really sorry" Alan looks sorry, I'm honestly grateful Alan was so patient not to ask me about anything from that day on. "That's why you feel guilty, I'm fine now. Where do you think I should go on vacation? " ask Alan.

"Have you told Juno?" ask again

As if understanding my decision, Alan said "Go back to Korea"

"Bahh.. I also thought about going back to Korea. Should I go home, then take a vacation to the small towns there? " many

Alan agreed "It's a good idea, we're Koreans but never anywhere but our hometown" he said with a laugh. Unlike me who came to NY to study and finally work, Alan has been living with his family in America since he was seven.

Hearing Alan's commentaries I laughed, I agreed with Alan. I myself do not travel much in Korea, I have only been to some cities such as Jeju Island and Busan.

"I have to tell Juno first, she won't be happy if I suddenly go home" I said.

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In less than a week, I went on my way home. I told Juno and some friends that I might stay longer in Korea than I did before.

Juno was of course very happy to hear my plan, without asking me why he had directly arranged his schedule to be able to pick me up at the airport.

During a flight that took twelve hours, I made the determination to have fun every day, me and forget Luke completely. Arriving in Korea, Owen manager Juno was waiting for me at the arrival terminal. "Bahh.. He still survives being Juno's manager, even though he is very handsome, he should also be a celeb" I thought.

Owen has worked with Juno since his debut. Having the same age as Juno made them familiar quickly. Owen has a good heart and is very hard working, that is also the reason Juno has no intention of changing his manager.

"How's the flight?" ask Owen

"Fun, I kept falling asleep. How are you?" I also asked Owen.

"As usual, still busy following your brother's schedule" he smiled.

Ahh Owen's smile felt life-breaking, had a white skin color, big eyes a long life, making me ever like Owen in my teens. Owen used to pick me up when I had to go home late at night after class, my classmates thought that Owen was my girlfriend. But my hopes had to be dashed when she introduced her boyfriend three years ago, 'What a shame" I thought.

Owen showed me a parked car in the airport basement, as I opened the car door and Juno with her big smile greeted me in his arms.

It hasn't been a year since I returned to Korea for our parents' death anniversary, but I feel like I haven't seen Juno in a long time. Maybe because they are in a difficult situation.

"I didn't think you'd pick me up today" I said

"Of course I have to pick me up" Juno replied casually. "You're gonna stay here longer?" ask Juno

"Yapp, Sam doesn't put a time limit on me" I replied

"Good, there's no need to go back there" Juno's smile emanated, I'm happy for her.