A Tears's

Chapter 4's

Ever since the loss of my parents, I've always tried not to put myself in a position of depending on others, even Juno.

I always try to do everything alone, stay home alone because Juno has to practice a lot before her debut, cook food and eat alone, even face difficult circumstances on her own.

I remember since I lost my parents, my friends started to pity me, some of them even shared their lunch boxes with me. But one day I was facing a more bitter reality for a twelve-year-old, in the toilet seat of the school I heard my friends talking about me. About their difficulties to comfort me, share their supplies even they are afraid of experiencing the same thing with me if they continue to hang out with me.

At that moment, I realized that I could only rely on myself.

I forced myself to become adults before my time, I refused when they wanted to share their supplies because I knew they were just forced to. I left my friends because otherwise they would have trouble pretending to be nice to me.

I started to like solitude, to be a little less worried, I didn't mind when people talked about me. I always say to myself "It's better, they don't have to push themselves or me"

I who at that time had determined the direction of my life tried the best in my education. If I was good at my grades, I wouldn't be bothered at school, I added a cold impression to myself, so people didn't dare approach me. I maintained my attitude until I graduated High School, I was labeled as an antisocial child at school. Of course I don't mind, I want this situation.

When I moved to NY, slowly things changed my attitude a little, I started making friends and even dating. This is progress for myself. Juno also felt my change since my arrival in NY, she always said, "You look a lot happier right now"

My body felt so heavy, I glanced towards the clock, ten o'clock in the morning. As if I had not been satisfied with my long sleep, I took my phone under my pillow"

Checking multiple messages on the phone screen with your eyes half open. Alan told me that he had to go to the office to work and left Kevin to me, "Ahh you think he's a kid?" thought

Another message came from Luke, I forced my eyes open, "Good morning, have a good day. I'll call you tonight" he wrote

I started typing on my phone screen, "Good morning too. I wish we could talk, there's something I need to tell you"

Since Luke's apprenticeship we haven't had much contact. Luke is too busy for his internship as well as myself being busy with my work. We are committed to trust and take care of each other, always telling the problems we face in order to help each other.

"I haven't told Luke about Kevin" I told myself

Recalling Alan's message, Alan wouldn't be with us all day. If he goes to the office he'll definitely be back late at night. I was a little hesitant about Kevin. Slowly I opened the door to my room, Kevin was sitting in the lounge alone.

"Hi.." I said

"Hi, you just woke up?" Kevin returned my greeting, it could be seen from the look on his face he was also worried about this awkward situation.

While walking towards the kitchen, I said "Yes, I slept too late last night. You slept well? Is the room comfortable?"

Kevib started to approach me, "The room is very comfortable, thank you for letting me stay here"

"No problem, Alan and I are too tired of living together. Have you had breakfast?" much

"Ah.. Alan and I had breakfast. We made sandwiches for you" said Kevin, he started to open the dinner lid on the table and shoved it on me.

"Thanky.. Pasta last night?" I remember them offering pasta when I came out of my studio, I was pretty hungry so I needed something other than a sandwich.

As soon as I stand up "I'll heat it up, you sit down"

"You eat your sandwich. When you finish the sandwich, the pasta is hot"

My eyes began to tremble, "I mustn't trouble others" I whispered

"No hassle, just think of it as a replacement because it has allowed me to stay here" said Kevin

A little surprised that Kevin was listening to my whisper, I started to sit down and gobble up sandwiches. "What are your plans today?"

"Uhm.. To be honest, I've been on vacation in NY a lot, and decided to end my trip here. So I thought about relaxing a little bit before returning" Kevin said as he placed the newly heated pasta in front of me. "Thanky"

"May you like it" Kevin said as he took a chair and sat down in front of me.

"I'm not picky when I eat" I said with a smile

For four years after our parents died, Juno and I had to survive on the insurance money our parents left behind. After we got out of the house our parents rented, we both moved into a small house on the outskirts of Seoul. The room had only one bedroom, I occupied the room and Juno slept in the guest room. We eat trying not to starve, eat as it is, trying to get a little more money than the part time you do.

My last meal was at lunch last night, so it didn't take me long to finish the meal Kevin had provided.

"If you're bored at home, go to the lake. You can see the sky there. Ahhe.. I suggest an afternoon, it's too hot to go out now" I advise Kevin not to get too bored, my neighborhood is indeed good enough to show off.

"Right, let's go together this afternoon" Kevin asked.

"Okay" says. I began to prepare to clean up the dishes I was using, while looking at Kevin, "You know, I'm not the type of person who gets along easily with someone. But since Alan told me so many times about you and I also saw you a lot while watching the game, I felt like.. Uhm.. We know enough" I said. Kevin's eyes started following me, he nodded in agreement.

"I actually feel the same way. Because Alan used to tell you so much, I felt like I was meeting an old, serious friend" Kevib replied embarrassedly, I just smiled at Kevin. It's like a joke I thought.

"I wasn't sure I was staying here at first" Kevin said

"really?"

"Yes, I'm just not sure if I'm happy enough with myself, however this is our first meeting, officially" Kevin explained.

I was amused by Kevin's words and laughed, "Official?" Kevin tried to explain his point, but I raised my arm, "I see you mean, we just got to know last night. Actually, I'm glad Alan brought you here, this house is too big for two people to live in"

Suddenly I realized my appearance, still in my piayama, had not washed my face. "Shameful" I thought to myself. "Alright, I shouldn't have come out of the room with this appearance, I'd better go back to the room now. You should also rest now" I explained.

"Okay, we're going out this afternoon" Kevin tried to confirm his call just now.