a bitter life that is happy

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We both did it with pleasure. His hand massage massage on my milk was very smooth.

I enjoyed it all, and we did 69th because it was my favorite position.

Unknowingly I could not bear to do the same battle Kevin.

***Dela: vin does not need long heating yes...

Kevin: why, baby?

Dela: I'm lusting after your rocking. (while starting to change position up Kevin's body)

Kevin: well, you set***..

I immediately put the carrot into my mek. and I genjot up and down quickly.although it was a bit painful but I remained genjot until Kevin and I climaxed.

***Kevin: honey, let's continue to shower.we have to find food.it's 2 rounds. (while rushing to the bathroom)

Dela: heemmmm okay... (Go to the bathroom with trembling legs**)

We both bathed together and rubbed each other's backs in turn.

Don't know why what I used to love so much, turned into a saturated feeling.what because it's been days always together?

is this what is called Labile?

in my brain there are so many questions.

but I always ignored all those questions.I was unknowingly noticed by Kevin..

***Kevin: honey, what's wrong with you? (somewhat surprised)

Dela: gakpapa darling.emang why? (i'm starting to wake up with my confused mind)

Kevin, how are you talking? does the problem still make you angry? (start to hug me)

Dela: no kok. has hunted mandian yuk. because I really laper. want sibling sop nie. (grab hold stomach**)

Kevin: yes, baby...

We both finished the shower and rushed out of the hotel looking for breakfast.

From the elevator to the car, I didn't talk at all.

Maybe I was traumatized by Kevin's first treatment.

I felt like I was raped.

So in my brain that was recorded it was her abusive treatment.

I'm a little surprised, why Hendra like that I'm not traumatized?

But Kevin like that traumatized me a bit?

Is it because from the beginning Hendra was rough? so I'm used to it?

While Kevin from the beginning was soft and I was shocked because he turned rude?

There are so many unanswered questions in my brain.

***Kevin: honey, what's wrong with you? how are you silent and like a dazed person?

Dela: gakpapa kok. (my tone is rather cold)

Kevin: honestly, baby, let me not be confused..

Dela: well klo you want me to be honest. I'm a bit confused by your attitude.why did you just like not the Kevin I know.

Kevin: sorry baby, I don't know either. I'm afraid of losing you.

Dela: vin, did you forget I was a teenager? thinking about getting married is still a long way in my brain. I still want to marry young and happy.

Kevin: I understand, but I don't know why you're so different from the women out there.

Dela: Vin, all guys are curious about me. In fact I've often made bets with them. because I'm too cold as a guy. but your exaggerated attitude made me start to feel uncomfortable Vin.

Dela: so you don't believe me?

Kevin: it's not so dear.

Dela: why do you think you are gini?

Kevin: that's not it baby. (not finished talking)

Dela: (cutting off Kevin's talk) Vin, I know I am still a teenager.even still a child. but do you forget that my environment is people like what? you forget I'm including a grown-up kid not yet?

Kevin: baby don't be mad dunk. I'm clear first.

Dela: please, I'm listening.

Kevin: gini you know baby, I've said many times that I'm afraid of losing you. I've even wanted you to follow me abroad. and I take care of all your schools. even want to charge you. I understand our age is quite far away. precisely because of that I am more afraid if you remember it all. because you are a period of development and I have been difase maturity. not just **** I thought of you, but there are many things about you.

Dela: okay klo your thinking like that. I accept. but what in a relationship there is no trust? I also explore the time to maturity Vin. it all needs a process. I do not care our age is different until 8 years. but I need a process. I hope you can guide me. don't make this relationship find a point of saturation.I also love you.I'm also afraid of losing you. But I need confidence from you. not like this.

Kevin, I know I'm selfish.I just don't want to lose you.

Dela: Vin we just started this relationship in a short time.we need to understand each other, and it takes a short time.we still do not understand the nature of each of us Vin.

Kevin: baby goes with time for sure we can understand each other.

Dela: and I'm no longer in the mood to discuss this issue. anyways already want to***.

We both got to the restaurant.

And we both ate without talking to each other.

I'm starting to feel a little overwhelmed because he's starting to make me uncomfortable.

The attitude of him who was starting to be arrogant and the fear of losing him made me a little afraid.

I'm afraid that later he who is good and gentle can turn rough and not soft anymore.

I've been through a lot of trauma because of violence, and I don't want to experience that for the umpteenth time.

And we finished eating.

we both drove back to the car without talking.

***Kevin: do you want to go to the mall? you want to shop?

Dela: I'm lazy.I'm actually not a hobby of shopping.

Kevin: yaudah we just copy yuk.

Dela: it's up to you.

Kevin: wait inside. I want to call the office.

Alright***.

I got in the car and let Kevin call outside.

I was thinking, how did I learn to take a car. But I don't want to tell Kevin.I'd be so embarrassed if he knew I couldn't bring a car. at home many cars are idle but I can not use it.

***Kevin: let's go to kemall ahead.

Condolences: yes***.

We both slid the mall not far from our restaurant earlier.

I don't talk to Kevin on the street.

and the distance is not too far we also akirnya until the parking mall.

and we both went into the mall directly to the exelco.he knows I like to drink avocado coffee the same tofu.

we are both busy with each other's mobile phones.and kevin took out his laptop.he did his job.I was busy playing hp.