(Not) The Substitute

Eps 78 - The Same Problem

Lpon "Sister, El don't ngaco. Robin himself said, you know Robin? mr. Andrew's son. Robin also said that Jimmy had a one-year-old son. Jimmy was a frequent cheat and heart player"

"Elnaz, why are you talking like that? Is there any evidence?" ask Elsa who of course refuses to believe in the talk of Elnaz who is considered nonsense.

"Yes El has no proof, but El is also convinced that Jimmy is not a good man, Elsa. At least Elsa's sister found out first about Jimmy, did Kak Elsa already know Jimmy?" Elsa can't answer her sister's question because she doesn't know anything about Jimmy.

Elsa's feelings are getting was and her mind is starting to calm down.

What if what Elnaz said was true?

"Sister, Elsa still hears El, right?" asked Elnaz from across the phone but Elsa immediately cut her phone connection with Elnaz.

He gets out of Jimmy's apartment to go find Jimmy and ask him that.

.........

Meanwhile, Elnaz can only stare at her phone after Elsa unilaterally turns off her phone.

"Evidence? Brother Elsa wants proof" muttered Elnaz, he didn't even think about it. And it's also true, why Elnaz can just believe in Robin's story.

"But there's no way Robin's lying" Elnaz murmured again.

He also tried to get rid of all the wild thoughts in his brain and try to refocus on his task. But a few minutes later Elnaz's phone rang and Elnaz thought it was Elsa calling back so he answered the call without seeing who the caller was.

"El..." Elnaz frowned when he heard his mother-in-law's voice from across the phone.

"Yes, this is Mama. Who were you calling from earlier? busy keep calling you" said the mother who sounded annoyed.

"Sama Elsa's sister, Ma. What's the matter, Ma?" ask Elnaz lazy.

"Check yourself why? El's not sick"

"You know you're not sick, but you can't have children, so you better check, let's know what the problem is" Elnaz growled angrily at what his mother-in-law had said. He even held his pen so firmly.

"Mama..." Elnaz sizzled sharply, his patience was already thinning and his like was about to run out due to the pressure of the baby and the baby.

"I can't have children, I'm just not pregnant" Elnaz sizzled sharply because he really felt what his mother-in-law did was too late.

"It's the same, El. So Mama said check with the doctor, let's know what the problem is. And if indeed you can have children, yes Alhamdulillah, Mama will be patient waiting. But if for example you can not have children, as good as Mama married Arfan with a friend's child Mama... "

"MAMA..." Elnaz exclaimed with annoyance and anger, he really did not expect his mother-in-law who was still his own aunt could with so much heart to Elnaz, talk like and hurt the heart of Elnaz.

"I can have children, I will give my husband children and my husband will never marry again!!!" firmly Elnaz sharp and he immediately turned off his phone, so that his mother-in-law no longer need to contact him and discuss the same problem again and again.

Now not only does Elnaz feel sad and upset, but he feels angry, very angry. His patience was exhausted and he could not accept the pressure anymore.

Withstanding all those mixed feelings, Elnaz could not help but stifle his tears.

"When shall I be looked upon with complete lack, O God?" his murmured with a heart so tight "Until when should I be depressed with my own family who can not accept the destiny that You Lines right and can not be patient waiting for the grace of You? I am tired, God. So tired. I don't want to be born a girl when parents want a son, I don't want to be pregnant while my in-laws want grandchildren. What can I do? I'm only your servant, weak and knows nothing. But everyone blames me... "

Elnaz covered his face with both palms, until tears welled his hands. He was still crying for a while, until his crying slowly subsided and he looked up again, sat up straight and wiped the tears that wet his face. Elnaz took a deep breath in exhaling slowly.

"right, I really couldn't do anything all this time. What happened was not of my own accord, I was like a dried leaf floating on water and just going where the water flowed. But now I'm going to decide what I want, which is my marriage, my husband. I don't want to and won't be pressured with the same problem again and again"

Elnaz braced himself, he was tired of crying because he was upset, because he was angry and because he had to be press again. Now he decided no one would press him anymore. Elnaz only wished she could be a strong and unyielding woman like her late grandmother. And for sure, Elnaz will not accept anyone interfering again in his marriage.