You're Me She

74. Contrition

An old woman sat quietly beside Alia's body lying unconscious in a hospital bed. In the old woman's hand was seen a piece of paper that was Alia's handwriting. Blood stains were seen on the paper. Yes, that was the last message Alia wrote before she tried to end her life.

Every now and then the old woman seemed to wipe away the tears that kept flowing on her already wrinkled cheeks. With trembling hands, he rubbed the back of Alia's hand. Alia tries to end her own life by slashing a pulse on her own wrist. Luckily an assistant finds herself drenched in blood and lying on top of a bathtub at just the right time. Alia did not die, but she had to receive intensive care to recover her body that had lost a lot of blood.

Oma, as soon as everyone calls the old woman. He is Anton's mother who has been caring for Alia after Anton's divorce with his wife. The old woman seemed unable to accept the reality, she felt very devastated because she almost lost the granddaughter she loved so much. His disappointment became even more, when he read the last message written by Alia. His face looked furious and shattered to see the letter and also the body of his beloved grandson lying helpless this afternoon.

"Who is that boy?" Her words while rubbing Alia's hair.

It had been two weeks that oma was in her hometown, and only today she returned to Jakarta. Therefore, he did not know the Son at all, the man whose name was written on a paper written by Alia. On that paper, Alia revealed everything. What happened to him was that he was compelled to end his own life. He also wrote the insults of the Son which were also addressed to him.

Since yesterday, after the son left, Alia began to get depressed. He felt his life was meaningless. His holiness has been frowned upon, the humiliation he got from the mouth of the person he loved, but did not appreciate him at all. His life was completely ruined, especially when the Son left him.

Papa, Oma, I'm sorry.

Because I ended my own life. I felt guilty and considered my life useless. I am no longer holy. All this because of the Son, the man I loved, who never loved me. Now he's gone and left me with a sense of innocence. He also insulted this useless me.

Papa, Oma, I know I'm just a burden to you. I'm a kid who can only give you guys shame. I'm so useless. What the Son said was true, I was a worthless woman, easy and stupid. Yeah, I was too stupid to love her and force her to love me. My doubts were too high about her, just because she was able to steal my attention.

Papa, Oma, I just want to die. Why would I live if everyone left me? My mother left me, she prefers another man as her happiness. The son left me after he was content to destroy me. Papa, papa has no attention on me. Only Oma cared for me and loved me. So, I apologize profusely to oma, if I can't be the granddaughter that you want me to be.

Goodbye all.Say my greetings to the Son, the man who has destroyed me. May he be happy with his chosen woman. May you be happy with my departure.

Ii'm sorry...

Alia.

The sound of a message written by Alia is able to make anyone who reads it cry, especially people who love the girl. Just because he thirsts for love, he tries to get love from the man he loves. Without her knowing it, that love can never be forced. Only because of lack of attention, he easily dissolved in the Son who just wanted to vent a momentary desire to himself.

Alia is an example of many girls out there who are hungry for attention and love. Then die of love itself, unrequited love, wrong love, love that plunges. Now Alia who has resigned her life will be forced to fight to stay alive and face reality after she realized later.

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"Jang, you're okay, right?" Ask his mother, when the Son just dumped into his chair.

"That's okay, it's ambu.." Sahut Putra who looks a little calm because there are both parents.

"You don't be rude to my son!"

"Eh, old lady! Better to shut up! It's still a good thing your son I didn't kill! Now you just sit in front of your child. Look at your battered son's handsome face. Somehow you guys educate your kid, so he's such a loser!" Said Anton with overflowing emotions.

The two parents of the Son were silent, they sat on their respective benches and looked at the Son who was seen to continue to subdue his gaze.

Her mother was also crying. What Anton said was exactly what Banyu said to him. Now he began to regret himself who overindulged the Son. Until the child of his pride it only looks good in his eyes, but not with his morals on others.

His father Putra was only able to try to calm his weeping wife with remorse. He also felt sorry for himself who agreed with what his wife said. Though all this time he was trying to embrace Banyu. But he was always about all-out by his wife who was convinced that Banyu was not a child who could boast of them. But today, everything is proven. When educating a child who is always won, there is no point at all. It makes his son become weak and printed into a loser who always avoids problems by hiding behind the armpits of his parents. Very different from Banyu who they should be grateful for his presence. Although they were already too evil to Banyu, but the boy grew stronger and stronger. The child understands family the most. That child often helps and never troubles his mother and father. Suppose Banyu is not a great child, do not rule out the possibility if Banyu grows into a brand because of his revenge.

Now they realize, the child they wasted his feelings, is not a vengeful child and a child who does not boast. It is precisely Banyu who raised the family degree, without wanting to fall down with a differentiated attitude.

Just Banyu. yeah.just that kid.

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Have we ever felt guilty about our children?

Do we feel it is fair to be parents?

Do we not apologize to our children?

Do we feel perfect being parents?

Think again. -De'rini-