Why Should I..?.!?

73. Unprepared

This sound...

A voice that I had never considered but suddenly came and immediately wanted to propose.

A relaxed voice that is quite tempting when accompanied by a crisp laugh.

A voice that makes some girls hate me.

A voice that has long been lost is swallowed up by the earth.

"Well...how are you?" Unknowingly the owner of this voice had stood in front of me as well as Selly's sister. Staring at us alternately while smiling meaningfully.

"Now better than yesterday, brother. Brother how are you?" I asked back in a somewhat nervous voice.

"I'm Good. It's....." He turned to look at Selly.

"This is Selly's brother, mother's distant brother." I had to lie so he wouldn't ask again. "Selly, this is Zidan's brother, the son of the boss where you work." I continue to introduce them.

"Hi, greetings." Said Selly while smiling kindly.

"Greetings know too. Emm... Yes, I'm sorry." His words softly, accompanied by a sad look staring at me.

"It's sister. Thanks." Thanks." Tukas ku softly as well, again remembered with the late father.

Selly raised her eyebrows, put a smile on my face as she slowly stood up from her seat. "Gue into it first Yes, want mastiin breakfast aunt Ami." Pamitnya.

"But brother......." My sergeant's fast.

"Udah is okay. You're here, you guys haven't met for a long time, you'll need to have a casual conversation right.." Whether true or just my hallucination, I saw Selly briefly pull the corner of her lips while looking at Zidan before she sauntered into mother's room.

"Why Him?" Ask brother Zidan. He took Selly's seat, then looked at me with some anxiety.

"I'm just worried about Fani, she seems to be shocked by this." Kill me without looking at Zidan's face.

"Hmmmm...Will I try to look okay?"

"Can."

Silent. I don't know why I feel nervous around him. I'm confused not knowing what to say.

"Him, sorry...." Said Zidan suddenly. He looked at me softly, blinking so slowly that it made me slightly misbehave in front of him.

"Sorry why brother?" Ask me not to understand.

"I'm sorry if because of my confession, you became thinking and even hated some girls who like me." Said brother Zidan quietly, as if understanding that his reckless actions last year had a big impact on me.

"Nothing brother. It's their business to hate me or not. Oh yeah, um.sorry, last month I couldn't come, I'm so sorry." Last month Zidan's mother died, she told me, but I couldn't go home because I was still working.

"Yes, it's okay, I know you're working away." Answer Zidan briefly.

Silence back.

One minute,

two minutes, two minutes,

three minutes, three minutes,

"Him...." Call brother Zidan doubtful.

"Yes... Why brother?" Ask me nervous.

"It's not so." Brother Zidan let out a long breath. Then try to hold my palm, "What if you don't have to go back to work?"

"Sister mean?" Ask me in shock.

"Yes, don't go back to work, you're here just take care of your mother with Fani." Tukas Zidan, this time sounding resolute, did not hesitate at all.

"Sorry, but I have to work. I am now the backbone of the family, should be able to protect mother and Fani like father...." I replied, again remembering my father.

"If so, let me replace you. We can get married, let me work, you at home just take care of Mom with Fani." Tukas brother Zidan steady.

Duarrr....!!!

Dumm.. Duoms... Duarr..!!!

I'm woken. Surprised and reflexes tiptoed as fast as lightning. I immediately pulled my hand from the grasp of Brother Zidan.

Appaa?!?!?!?

What the fuck? Why is it so easy for Zidan to say marriage? Again kuntilanak what jailangkung nih people?! My inner.

"Ma.sorry sister." I don't know what to say when Brother Zidan looks scared because of my reaction to the clasping of his hands again.

"Hey.sorry why? You don't want to marry me?" Ask her with a worried look.

"Sister.please. Dad was buried yesterday, why did you suddenly say marriage to Anya?" I asked back, astonished by the words that sounded only the origin of the sound, which was just indulging in lust just like it without thinking it carefully.

"Yes.I mean I.I mean I'm not married now. We can get married next week, or next month, which is important you don't have to go back to work first." Answer brother Zidan. He no longer tried to hold my hand.

"Sorry brother. Anya's not ready. Mom and Fani are still sick so Anya has to work to pay for their treatment." I began to calm down, and could face the face of Brother Zidan without hesitation.

"But I love you..." Said brother Zidan softly, he crossed his arms while looking at me in despair.

"Sorry brother, but Anya is not ready. Anya still wants to work, still want mom and Fani healed first." Answer me awkwardly.

"But you love me too, right?"

"Entah brother. At this time, obviously I can not think dear or whatever it is, I want to focus on the healing of mother and Fani alone." Answer me honestly.

Brother Zidan let out a long sigh hearing my answer. I know he may have heard I broke up with Aryan's brother from Kia, so he dares to see me again now.

"Alright if that's what you want. I will wait," Brother Zidan finally gave up, resigned to all the subtle rejections I gave.

"Don't wait for Anya, brother. There are still many beautiful good girls who are better than Anya, who are better suited to older siblings." I said casually, trying to give understanding to Brother Zidan.

"Well..depending on her later, who knows tomorrow or the day after tomorrow you're so dear to me right? Hehe..." Brother Zidan came back cheerful, then suddenly took out a brown envelope from his pocket.

"Is this brother?" Ask me wonder.

"The deposit from my father, this is your father's last salary." Answer brother Zidan.

"Oh, yes, thank you, brother." I received the envelope, then put it in the pocket of the shirt I was wearing.

"Oiya, I'm back, yes, I have to open a shop. It'll be day or night I'll be here again." Pamit Zidan stood up, but still looked at me expectantly.

''Yes sis..makasih..." I answered while smiling back at her smile.

Brother Zidan passed, but I became upset. Am I wrong to have rejected him again?

Brother Zidan is kind, honest, handsome, understanding. A lot of girls are interested in him, but somehow I just think of him as a big brother.

"Well. How's it?"

"Astaghfirullah's.! Brother Selly.ngagetin knows." I jumped, surprised suddenly Selly's brother was already standing beside me with a big smile staring at me.

"Where?" Ask her again.

"What's the matter?" Ask me confused.

"So, he doesn't like you.." Selly raised her eyebrows again.

"Ah, I know brother..." Kill me as you step into mom's room.

"Hey.gue knows which time the same guy who is the same as usual." Shouted Selly while juxtaposing my steps.

"Ssttt.kak has not been discussed." Tukas I'm anxious.

"Hayo.shame... Hihihiiii" Ledek kak Selly again.

"Au ah..." Reply to me while I go into mom's room.

Sally's sister was silent as soon as we walked into Mom's room. Mom hasn't woken up yet, but her face is fresher, not as pale as yesterday.

Mother...when did you wake up?