Why Should I..?.!?

4. Retreating?

One week from the moment I met Anis has passed, a short meeting that made me think every night.

If I work then the desire to go to college can still be open, even though I know the possibility is very small. Work a few years while saving for college.

Yeah, I'll do it. I didn't want to burden my parents anymore, so today I decided to accept Anis's invitation to work with her.

"Is my sister sure? It's far from the house, later what could cost? I can't bear to, son.." Mom said as I delivered my decision.

Mom sat next to me, watching my facial expressions, she knew I was disappointed that I couldn't go to college, she knew yesterday I cried all night after telling dad I was stepping down from the scholarship.

I took mom's hand, rubbed it gently, "Mom, Anya sure can, there's Anis who will help, she's a good friend, Anya will also be with Kia, I don't have to worry, I don't worry, so please allow Anya yes ma'am.." My words beg.

Mom closed her eyes for a while, then hugged me, "Have you been sure, but still be careful, brother, pray 5 times do not get to be hollow, has the same permission father?"

"Already mom, said the important father Anya should be able to take care of herself and faith Anya ma'am..".

Mom took off her arms, looked at me teary-eyed. I know my parents couldn't have worked away from home, but they couldn't do anything, staying here will only make me hurt by the many people who sneer at our lives.

"Sir wants to work? Whereabouts? Well later brother Zidan kangen loh.", the sound of a cry suddenly startled me. Damnit. The boy could ask like an adult.

"Heh Chibi Maruko Chan if you go home with greetings first, do not immediately ask unclear,"

"Sister. Fani brother. FANI. F-A-N-IWAS. Don't change it up. That's the name of the father's gift, if you want to change there cut the goat first for thanksgiving", Fani grumbled annoyed, her chubby face more and more round when pursing her thin lips funny.

"Well goat, cut tofu deck, given eggs, mixed with spices, kept fried eaten together," said I meledeknya.

"Ah, I know my sister's favorite egg. Ma'am there are indeed tasyakuran who only slaughter tofu?", Fani asked the mother who had been holding back laughter because of our chatter.

"There was. Later deh brother masakin, would not?", I said as I moved from the chair I sat with my mother.

"Religion. Later even salinity. But said brother Zidan if you can not cook not anything because at home there is a maid. Ciyyeee's sister wants to marry ya brother Zidan?", Fani talk fast without pause, making the mother gaping not believe what Fani said.

Jeez, the boy is getting worse. I took a quick step on his collar, I steered his right cheek and his left cheek together. "Fani darling if you still love the same bakpao cheeks you do not talk anymore brother to brother Zidan huh? Okay?".

"A.... Look at cheek fani so much bigger. That's brother's hand what's Chouji's hand anyway? Fitting can be cupped cheek fani."

I ran after taking off my pinch. Haha, rasain, wrong himself is still a bucket of stories about his own brother to others.

"Already deck. Here's mommy look. Oh it's okay, later after eating can return to how it was. But tomorrow-tomorrow if brother Zidan nanyain about sister Anya adek do not answer yes", said mother pacify Fani.

"Gini loh deck. If for example the mother who said to Devan or to Naya adek already 3rd grade but sometimes still likes bedwetting, about angry adek not the same mother? shame is not the same with them?", said the mother explained.

"Yes, don't mom! Don't tell them. Fani's shy." Fani answered without thinking.

"Well that's also what Anya's sister felt. if Fani told others Anya must also be angry with Fani, ashamed of her brother Zidan as well,"

Fani frowned, as if thinking aloud what the mother said. "Oh, that's it, ma'am. Yasudah later Fani apologized to brother and Fani will not be the stories again deh same brother Zidan,".

"Now change your clothes and have lunch."

"Ready ma'am," said Fani as she placed her hand on her forehead, exactly the position of grak respect during the ceremony. Mom smiled with relief, finally Fani understood without having to explain at length what to do when making a mistake.

"Mom, Anya to Kia's house first yes, want to discuss anything later that will be taken to Anis' place," I said to mother. Kia's house is not too far from my house, only a 15-minute walk away, but through the homes of neighbors who like to sneer at my life and my family.

"Yes, be careful, son, if you meet Ayu or Wati ma'am do not need to be in the ladeni," mother's message to me.

"Ready ma'am," I put my right hand on the right, just like Fani did when she talked to me.

"Silver is very compact right now, like grak respectfully with mom," mom smiled happily, watching me until lost behind the door.

Just 5 minutes of walking that mom was worried about. I ran into Mrs Wati in front of her house. I nodded politely, smiling at him even though his face looked sour when I saw him.

"Let's mom." I said in pleasantries.

"Where are you going? He said he wanted a list of lectures but didn't get it? So cassian.. So if you do not have money do not be pretentious to go to college, do not pity what your parents. Go straight to work or marry him, let's not be a burden." Ms. Wati spoke at length without pause, without spaces.

"You go to Kia bu's house, come.", I said briefly, then immediately stepped faster leaving Wati's mother who was still grumbling annoyed because I neglected. It's always like that. Is it our fault that the economy is still below? Why are those whose economy is at the top always making fun of us? Don't they think we deserve our ideals too? Do you want to change your nationality someday?

Hufff. I blew the tip of my poniku. I spread my eyes around Kia's house. The house is slightly larger than my house always looks clean, some small plants are also neatly arranged at the end of the terrace, mango trees in the middle of the yard add coolness in the house Kia.

"His? Come in, why just stand there?", Kia's words made me look at her. This cute girl with a beautiful face and iris eyes is my classmate.

"No, just enjoying the atmosphere. The breeze's good, it's just yep, it's cold."

"Foolah. Notar yes, I take a snack first," said Kia then entered her house.

We discussed everything in preparation for our departure tomorrow morning. We agreed we would go through this together. Facing the world of work. The world will change the course of our lives. Yes, we are ready to go.