Why Should I..?.!?

2. Excuse me..........

Mom took a deep breath, then smiled and told me to have lunch.

What's the matter? Why do you look weird? this morning was fine. I followed my step into the kitchen, watching my deft mother take food for me. I accepted it with pleasure, eating it as voraciously as ever, until.....

"Sister......." Again, my mother did not continue her sentence. It's freaky.

"Mom... What is it.?", after eating I finally ventured to ask what happened to my mother.

"So your uncle came here, he said the son of the Warno apprentice was interested in the same brother, he knew the brother had graduated SMK. Later that night he and his son will visit here, brother want to see him?",

I gasp. My eyes blinked rapidly. Didn't know that this was the cause of mother's strangeness. Juragan Warno was the richest rice prince in the village, uncle and father owed a lot when we failed the harvest and when mother gave birth to my sister, Fani. I know where this conversation is going. I know my mother, uncle, even my father would not be able to resist the wishes of the draughtsman, but also could not bear to ask me to accept the proposal of his son.

'What? What am I supposed to do? Warno's son was still young, could immediately hold one of the Warno skiff shop when graduating from college. We met a lot but didn't he have a lot of crush? Why should I? Why are you interested in me?'.

"Sister.gimana.".", mother's voice broke my daydream. I looked at my mother, asking her advice. I just graduated SMK. I don't want to get married. I still want to work, want to see the outside world, want to enjoy my youth. But she was silent, as if letting me think and leaving all the decisions in my hands.

"All right, ma'am", I said softly. I can't bear to see my mother's grief, my father's exhaustion, but I also don't want to sacrifice my future. Am I being selfish? I don't think I have the right to decide anything now at my age of 18. I'll meet him, ask him what he wants and also explain what I still want.

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"You are beautiful", the first comment when I appeared in front of brother Zidan, son of the boss Warno. Her appearance is quite charming. Outfitnya blue shirt with sleeves rolled up to the elbow limit. He looks hot. I held my breath looking at his current appearance. Brother Zidan who used to only wear a shirt or short-sleeved shirt now looks neat and charming like a young executive in front of me.

I sat down in front of him, putting my hands on the table. "Thank you.", I said briefly. Maybe Brother Zidan is aware of my attitude. I who used to talk a lot is now silent.just sigh long and observe the plants on the porch of this house.

"Well, do you know what I'm here for? Did my father say anything to your uncle?", Brother Zidan seems to confirm my residence.

"Yes, brother",

"Well, honestly I've liked you a long time. Do you want to be my companion?", he said, holding my hand.

Huh huh? To the point once! Is this brother Zidan used to say like to all girls? What about his fans? sister Sarah, sister Dini, sister Dewi?

"Why should I..? Why should you like me? Why not the same beautiful sister Sarah or sister Dini sexy or sister Goddess who soon become a midwife?" I protested without pause. Although with a soft voice but it turns out it can make Kak Zidan surprised. Didn't know I dared to argue.

"You're different. Sarah's too possessive, Dini's too aggressive, if the Goddess I don't know her very well." Brother Zidan took my hand off when he said that. Maybe he knew that I had subtly rejected him.

"I'm sorry, brother. Anya still wants to work." I turned my face away from her, unable to bear to see her a little teary. Am I wrong to reject it? Will my uncle and father have problems with Warno?. I don't know, obviously I don't want to get married right now. Point.

"You can be with me managing his shop. That works too, right?" it turns out that Zidan hasn't given up.

"I just graduated SMK, I still want to see the world, want to feel the world of work. I'm sorry..", I can't continue my words. Brother Zidan again clasped my hand, squeezing my finger with a view I could not understand.

"His, do you have no taste in me at all..?" he said very slowly.

A Bachelor of Agriculture steadily said he liked me. I might like it a little. He's friendly, helpful like his father, handsome, I've never heard anything bad about him in years. But I can't take it. It's the same as if I go to jail, I can't get out of this village, I can't hide the mouths of those who like to demean my family, maybe even more so if I marry Brother Zidan. I don't want that.

"Sorry brother.......". At last it was the only word I could say, I pulled my hand from his grasp, I wiped the tears in the corner of my eye quickly. "It's too soon, Anya's still a little girl, Anya's not getting married yet" I can finally say the thing that's stuck in my heart.

"Alright if it's your decision, but don't stay away from me because this is Yes, I'll wait until you're ready". Brother Zidan let out a long sigh before saying that.

Oh my God.. Is it true that Brother Zidan really likes me?, I don't know why I can trust him. Like something's wrong. I should know. Brother Zidan who used to be warm like a brother to his sister now suddenly even dared to express love. Bizarrely.

"Yes, sister. once again sorry Anya, brother,"

brother Zidan nodded, then said goodbye to my father and mother. I saw his steps being shaken, probably still feeling disappointed in me. What am I doing this right? I don't know. I don't want to get married now. I just want to work, I want to be the pride of my family.

"Sister, how's..?" Mom and Dad looked at me seriously. I was confused how to tell them.

"Sorry yes ma'am.. Anya still wanted to work or maybe college, "I said quietly while observing the expressions of my father and mother. They nodded in understanding. Mom hugged me, dad's hand stroked my back hair.

"I'm sorry, brother, because I have debt, you have a burden" Dad rubbed the corners of his eyes wet. I know mom's dad loves me, but I also know what they're worried about going forward.

"Then how did Zidan kak respond?," this time the mother asked.

"Sister Zidan will wait until Anya is ready ma'am. but ma'am, Anya is afraid...",

"Why afraid? juragan Warno won't be angry, he's a wise man sis.." said my father calmed me down.

"Really ya?".

"Yes, brother, he said it's up to the young, so. but I want to ask seriously, do you have no liking for Zidan?"

I blinked quickly, not expecting that mom would ask me this. Well, how's this? I can't lie to mom and dad. "Em.. seemed to like a little mom, but Anya was afraid", I looked down embarrassed, not daring to look at mom or dad.

"Fear why brother?" , cut the curious mother.

"That has a crush on brother Zidan many ma'am, later if they know how could-can Aya in the demo or maybe directly beaten with them," I said annoyed.

"Hahahahaha, it turns out that my father's son has grown up, mom has dared to like the opposite sex," Dad even laughed at me. and he smiled at me who was still down.

"Dad iiihhhh Anya is ashamed" I said as I ran to my room. My face is red. I'm really embarrassed. I don't dare to deal with mom and dad anymore.

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