Why Different?
An Effort
Whatever Juan is selfish, he will still force himself to surrender if the opponent is Zahira. Can't smoke? He does. Can't drink liquor because in women's religious teachings everything that contains alcohol is haram? He does. Can't talk rudely and have more patience? He does.
All the. All the things that the woman thought were good would have Juan happily follow, without any objections that indicate a compulsion. Juan's love for Zahira was not only great, but also sincere, until that sincerity got rid of more than half of the bad things that had previously been in Juan.
However, when one forbidden word is spoken from the lips of Zahira, all the love that is spilled is no longer meaningful. Juan bak lost his way, lost his goal and worse—he lost himself.
Three days had passed since he hung up the phone unilaterally. Since then, not a single message has been sent to the woman. Despite the overwhelming urge within him to know how Zahira was doing for three days without meeting, he suppressed the urge to the bottom of his heart. Someone he placed in the hospital has also been pulled back, aware that his efforts to keep his lover turned out to only produce something bad.
Juan didn't do all that because he was angry with Zahira. He was just looking at himself. Looking for where the flaw is that makes Zahira able to think so against him. Is there an excessive attitude towards other women other than her lover, so that jealousy arises which in the end makes Zahira think that he has been double? Or what? Juan was just trying to figure out where he was wrong.
“Ren,” after exhaling a breath that feels so heavy, he makes a sound. His head then looked up, staring at the dense and gloomy expanse of the night sky without the sprinkling of stars. The moon that should have looked whole did not get a chance to show off its beauty because the cloud rolled all its parts so as not to be left. “Lo same Clarissa ever fought as great as anything before finally breaking up?”
The sudden question made Reno who was still busy taking care of her work immediately stop. Laptop on the lap he slide, he put it on the round table while his gaze was directly fixed on Juan sitting across. “Lo equals Zahira again fight?” rather than an answer, Reno asked a question instead.
Juan did not answer, instead exhaled a long breath and looked down, looking at his bare feet. The bluish floor of the balcony where his feet rested was cold, but the cold was still unable to rival the condition of his heart which was even almost frozen.
“Ju?” Reno. For several years, he was a witness to how romantic and romantic Juan's relationship with Zahira was. In fact, they almost never fight. Even if it was, it was just a small quarrel that would end with just a hug. They are just equally tired, equally busy so that little sparks can be created. Seeing Juan's condition that already resembles a no-man's empty shell now makes Reno know that the problem this time must be serious. “You fight because of what?”
“Zahira accuses me of cheating.”
Chirps. For a while, Reno was unable to move her tongue to speak. Just like Juan, he also did not understand why the accusation could come, especially from a Zahira whose brain contained only positive things.
“Zahira accused you of cheating? On what basis?”
It was also what Juan wanted to know, but he did not get the answer. He also shook weakly. “Lo remember fitting us samperin Zahira to the hospital after returning from McD?”
“Remember.”
“There, I met three guys, I'm sure they're Zahira's friends who also koas there. And you know what they are doing?”
Reno didn't know, so she shook her head. “Ngapain?”
“They're ugly-ugly Zahira. They talk bad things about Zahira when there is no one who is real.”
“Terus, what does the incident have to do with Zahira who even accused you of cheating?” because to be honest, Reno really does not understand. There must be a part where the incident continues on other events that make Zahira draw her own conclusions.
“Gue is very hurt to hear the words of the three guys, Ren, but I also do not have the heart if I have to tell Zahira. From there, I became more diligent in Zahira's condition, make sure that he was okay during the hospital because I was afraid that the bastard boys began to disturb Zahira openly. And well, because of that Zahira thought I was hiding something again. He said because my attitude changed and he thought I was .. cheating.”
If this was someone else, Reno would calmly advise to straighten out this misunderstanding so as not to get any wider. But since Juan and Reno knew the man was most anti-fidelity, all he could do for the first time was pat Juan on the back.
“Did I fall like that yeah, Ren, until Zahira could think that I was cheating?” juan's gaze was very sad, making Reno could also feel the heartache in his cousin's heart. “Do I want it for Zahira?”
Reno shook her head hard, “Lo is no jerk, Ju. I'm sure Zahira also did not mean to recite lo kayak.”
“But she did.”
“She didn’t mean it, Bro.” Reno tried to convince. “Gue knows you're disappointed, it doesn't matter. Your disappointment is grounded and valid, so you can overflow it. But, Ju, try to shift your perspective a little from Zahira's side. I mean, he is busy, so busy he can not go home for days and make you also so rarely can meet. Your communication is also just that, not like people who can be 24 hours a week mengediain time for his girlfriend.” To make Juan understand his words without intending to make the man feel his feelings were not validated, Reno gave a pause.
“With such a condition, Ju, it is possible that Zahira questions herself. He may also wonder if he deserves you, if the little time he has is worth it to get a love reply that much gedenya from you. From those questions, it is not impossible if Zahira so have concerns about your relationship?” Reno paused again, only to take a deep breath as it turned out that talking to Juan was quite a drain on energy.
“Not to mention facts about Moana, Ju. I'm sure Zahira actually knows about Moana, she's not blind, and you know, she feels much more sensitive than we do. He must also be just as jealous, just as worried, afraid just in case Moana might be able to chance to deket same lo since you guys are in the same division, too, which automatically makes you have to meet every day. The percentage of you meet even more than your chances are equal Zahira.”
Juan's ears opened wide to listen to everything Reno said, inversely proportional to his tightly clenched lips.
“Gue knows lo keles and is disappointed to think Zahira does not believe in lo. But, Ju, let the disappointment grow too big also will not bring your relationship in a better direction. You don't want a relationship that you've been working hard to end that way, right?”
Clearly, Juan shook his head violently. It's crazy that he's willing this relationship to end just because of a short chat in one night. It can't be. His struggle to get to this point was not playful, so at the very least, eventually also do not get that bad.
“Gue love so much Zahira, Ren.”
“I know,” Reno nods her head. “Makanya, now try to take hape lo, keep calling Zahira. Let him talk about it with a cold head. Which I believe should not be allowed to drag on because the more stored, the more tangled.”
“But I don't know where to start,”
“Start from see hape lo. I'm sure there are a lot of chat that Zahira sent and absolutely not lo read. You are so, like not to squirm hape if you are angry again. Everyone is also lo cuekin.” Said Reno, understand very well the habits of cousins who are only younger than him one month. “Hunt, before it's too late.” Imbabya, then push Juan's body so that the cousin bongsor it immediately move to take action.
After thinking for a while, Juan finally followed Reno's advice. With wide steps he went back into the room, the fog seemed to look for the existence of a cellphone that he had not touched for days even to just check about work.
As soon as the phone was obtained, Juan fell silent for a while, gathering all courage before dialing Zahira's number while preparing anything he wanted to convey to his beloved.
Seriate
