When Your Heart is No More For Me

Seeing Bianca

"I'm sorry if all this time my attitude has gone too far. But all this I did because of my disappointment with you in the past." Aryan got up from her seat and kissed Mika's forehead gently and long enough.

For some reason when doing that suddenly his heart shook, Even Aryan felt something different from kissing Mika's forehead during the Qobul ijab event two years ago.

"What's wrong with my heart? Why does my heart beat faster than usual. Even this pounding is exactly the same as when it was still the age of smp" said Aryan while rubbing his left chest.

Aryan looked back at Mika's face which was still closing her eyes. Without him knowing, it turned out that the day was getting late.

Aryan decides to get out of Mika's room because her heart condition is getting worse.

After arriving outside, Aryan stepped into the garden. Sit in one of the long chairs there. But his heart was still beating very fast.

"God, what's wrong with my heart? It doesn't usually beat fast like this. Why should the pounding be the same as when jama smp." said Aryan while continuing to hold his left chest.

"Why after all this time I tried, this heart still feels unsafe every time it is close to you, Eyla" said Aryan again

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Without feeling like the night has just passed. Aryan still closed her eyes while clasping Mika's hand. I don't know what time he was asleep last night, but for sure, Aryan was able to close both her powers after making sure Mika's condition improved again.

Last night, about one in the morning, Mika had a seizure and even her pulse also stopped, making Aryan quite panicked because suddenly the fear of loss disturbed his mind.

Slowly Mika's fingers moved. The woman opened her eyes while occasionally braking to adjust the lighting that began to enter her sense of sight.

Mika looked at every corner of the room. Trying to remember something. Why is he in the hospital. Mika rubbed her head which felt very dizzy. Maybe because of that hard impact.

After quite a while, Mika finally could remember everything. All the events of how he got into an accident that afternoon.

When she felt that her hands were heavy enough, Mika turned her head to the side and found Aryan who was sound asleep while clasping her hands tightly.

"Aryan, He's here as it turns out" Mika muttered while looking at Aryan's face which did look very handsome. It's only natural that Mika is so big to love him. But after Mika remembered their debate that morning, made Mika realize that Aryan could no longer hope for her.

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Aryan woke up when he heard the door open. It turned out that it was the doctor who was checking on Mika's condition. "How is he doing, Doctor?" artan asked when he saw the doctor had finished checking.

"Slightly less progress. We just pray yes, hopefully Mika's brother can be aware soon. Then excuse me"

After the doctor's departure, Aryan took his phone and looked at the clock..It turns out that today there is a fairly solid lecture schedule, so inevitably Aryan must go home.

Aryan looked back at Mika's face, His heart began to worry again when he remembered the words of doctor Andre last night. What if Mika had forgotten everything, what Aryan would have done. His heart was completely ungodly when he remembered that.

Chequelek

The sound of the door opening again made Aryan turn his head. It turned out that the one who came this time was both of his parents. "How's Mika doing, Aryan? Is there progress?" ask her mother while walking closer

"According to the doctor there's been a little progress, Ma. But Mika still did not realize. Oh yes, Ma. Today Aryan has a lecture schedule until the afternoon. So most likely Aryan can only come after going home from college later"

"alright. But remember, don't mess with that damn woman, remember Aryan. Don't think we both know nothing about you with Bianca" Alberto replied,

"Yes, Pa."

After that, Aryan passed from before his parents. Walking out of the ICU room, tracing each hospital corridor with an erratic feeling. Since then his phone continues to ring, it turns out that the one who has been calling him is Bianca.

But somehow Aryan did not respond at all to the incoming call, Aryan just took a glance and then put his phone back into his pants pocket. Somehow the man was suddenly lazy to pick up a phone from Bianca that was so annoying.

Whereas before, Aryan was always enthusiastic when there was a message let alone an incoming call from the woman.

Right after Aryan got to his car, there was a message coming in from the woman's number. His forehead shriveled as he read the message Bianca had sent him.

[Baby, I'm sick. Sorry I can't get to work today. You can come to my apartment, right? ]

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When he arrived at his house, Aryan was silent for a moment. Look around the house. The house suddenly became very quiet. Not like the usual early morning. Where there is Mika who will nag all morning because Aryan is very careless to put her belongings.

Aryan could only take a long breath for a moment. Then go into his room upstairs. Again Aryan sighed, Because usually in the morning there will be Mika who prepares all her needs. It turned out that without Aryan realizing it, the presence of Mika was really needed.

IN THE HOSPITAL

Both Aryan's parents decided to have breakfast in the hospital cafeteria, because before leaving here, they had not had time to eat and only drank a glass of coffee.

Right after the two of them disappeared behind the door, Mika opened the second she said. The woman grazed several times until finally her consciousness was gathered perfectly. Simultaneously, Doctor Andre came to check on Mika's condition again. The reason was one of the nurses said that Mika had regained consciousness earlier at dawn.

"Good morning, Mika. I checked first huh" murmured doctor Andre after arriving next to Mika.

Mika just nodded. The woman looked around the room to look for Aryan. But the result is nil, because Mika did not find anyone there.

"Oh yes, Doctor. Where's the guy who took care of me last night?" mika asked while looking at Dr. Andre.

"It looks like he's home. Do you remember that?"

Mika nodded"Yes, Doctor. I remember that guy very much. She's my husband, but-" Mika's words depend on remembering that no one should know about her household with Aryan. Because all this time, everyone knows that Mika and Aryan are a very harmonious couple. Even if the reality is very turned around. Because until this moment, Aryan had never touched Mika at all. They sleep in different rooms.

"I don't know what really happened. But what I read from the look on your face, seems like you are not happy with the marriage" said doctor Andre who inexplicably just said that. Even when he saw Mika's facial features, Doctor Andre felt like there were many wounds that he had suffered.

The doctor approached and stroked Mika's hair. At that instant, Mika felt her heart very calm. It felt like he was near his father. Mika felt like being caressed by the mother.

Unknowingly Mika's tears just decayed, When the shadow of the mother who was in an accident just passed by. Not an accident, but a hit-and-run.

"Why are you crying, son? Did I say it wrong?" the doctor asked, quite confused.

"No. It's just that I'm reminded of my dead mother"

"Inallahi. Patience, I know it must be very heavy"

At the time Mika and doctor Andre were still chatting. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

"I'm sorry, Doctor. The patient next door had a seizure" the nurse told Dr Andre. So inevitably, Doctor Andre must end the conversation. Though Andre's doctor still wants to know more about Mika. The girl who reminded him of the woman he used to drive away just like that.

"I'll be there soon" replied Dr. Andre as he turned to the nurse.

Then the doctor Andre looked at Mika. Both of his eyes were very wet. Hearing a little story from Mika, Doctor Andre really remembered Madinah.

"I'll go first, yeah. Next time we have time to tell each other again"

Mika nodded while raising both corners of her lips. When Andre's doctor stepped up, Mika called him back, so that the old doctor turned his body back.

"Doctor, promise not to tell anyone what I told you earlier, Doctor. And one more thing, please keep saying if I forget the memory. Because after this I decided to leave their lives" Mika said with her own face.

"definitely. Whatever you do, I hope it's for the best"

Doctor Andre came out of Mika's room. Sometimes the doctor looks back. Somehow he felt very close to Mika, like there was an inner bond between the two.

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Today Aryan left for college without breakfast, because there will usually be Mika who prepares everything. But because today the woman is in the hospital, so inevitably Aryan must eat out. Just as the man parked his car, From inside the car Aryan saw the figure of Bianca being with another man who was across the road. Or rather a hotel.

"Bianca" he said slowly as he continued to stare at the two men.