When My Race Is Dead

7

To this day I still keep my husband quiet , cheated alone it feels very painful let alone cheated with our own brother off it he was intentionally or just carried away but for me cheating remains cheating whatever form.

I don't want my family to know this incident, S1 all I swallowed myself I don't want the problem to spread where he was no matter where he was the husband who was clearly struggling amid the rejection of my family.

I'm fooled by love, I don't want my husband getting ugly in front of my extended family.

I'm pretending to be stupid in this complicated situation.

"Yank forgive me ..?" my husband said, with my feet on my feet, I just kept quiet with a blank look.

I still don't want to talk I have to make peace with this pain.

If there hadn't been Aksa I might have asked for a divorce, but.... Aksa's my reason for staying quiet and holding on.

I was born into a broken home, I know how much the pain is a victim of the selfishness of parents, and I don't want my son to feel all that pain

Nauzubillah..!! don't let it stop enough in me.

I just need to keep pretending to be stupid.

After a few days in silence I tried to hug my heartache tightly until the pain slowly evaporated but not with the memory of the moment the wound was scratched so fiercely.

My cousin disappeared maybe she was embarrassed and not nice to me I don't know ..

Mas Aldo started to come back like all things as if there was never anything I just needed to pretend to be stupid to save all.

It does not feel Aksa's age has been a year as normal children in general my son has begun to learn to walk and talk

Mamamamamama was the first word that came out of his mouth, ahh happy taste.

"For another week Aksa's birthday, don't want to give me a gift what is it ?" chirps that afternoon.

"Bingung yank narik deserted, Aksa need what is it ?".

"Don't ask what you need, everyone also needs to know for themselves we almost never buy goods for most of the needs of the older brother who love me not good as big brother mas ." I murmured slowly.

Mas Aldo threw a rough breath implied sadness there .

"Please, dear God, raise the degree of our lives."

"Originally not much behavior let God also easily change our destiny!" my murmur recalls my pain.

"Inshaallah is not the deck !".

"May mas!" , "I know your nature is difficult to change mas ", my heart goes by leaving Aldo mas who is carrying Aksa in front of the house.

"Let's look for it in the housing complex for older sisters, there will be a contrakin," said Aldo after a moment of silence.

"Mom's mom, how's it going ?" well I haven't heard from my in-laws in a long time, and they haven't even looked at their grandchildren at all.

"Sehat Alhamdulillah ".

"Thank God, "my answer was barely audible.

Still want when I gave birth to Aksa yesterday, my good neighbor came to my in-laws' house to tell her that her granddaughter was born.

"Assalamualaikum Bu is this really old man bang Aldo? "

"Waalaikumsallam, is it true why ma'am? whose mom? "

"I Ratih Bu would like to ngabarin if mbak Larasati bang Aldo's wife had given birth this morning in the midwife."

" Oh that ., but sorry before, Mom, I don't have a granddaughter, I don't have a daughter-in-law no matter how rich they want to be !".

"Yes Allah ma'am is not good so at least pray a good course for his grandson!, yes already then I say I just give you news aja Assalamualaikum !".

"Goddessallam!!".

"Neng forgive me that your mother-in-law was angry when I told you that you were born..."

I just smiled as my chest tightened and held back so many tears that my in-laws hated me.

All just because my tribe and husband have been chosen one tribe mate by his parents and of course according to him their best mate choice is not like me .

"Neng later if it is rich do not need to be helped by his mother's clamor !" gerutu Bu Ratih while bathing Aksa.

" Have a handsome grandson like this who's being rejected by a madman !" the song doesn't stop nagging.

"Patience Mom has let my in-laws be amazing !" I said while smiling.

"You who are patient, just assume your parents' mother does not be sad "said while continuing to dress for her new grandchild.

Not that I did not try to get closer, but my in-laws fortified themselves against me and my son, except for Aldo, who for them is a single child who does not have a sad family...

I just think that my son will grow up and they will be hostile to him must be very sad, just as time goes by my in-laws can finally accept you as a grandson and daughter-in-law.

Amelvinnn ...