When My Race Is Dead

6

Tonight I can't sleep my stomach starts to feel heartburn like I want to poop.

Since it's still midnight I haven't built Aldo's mas, let it be maybe the morning of the new baby launching.

Because it often starts to hurt, I have to knock on the door of Ratih's mother however as Mak Paraji he must understand.

"Assalamualaikum ma'am, have you slept yet ?" I knock at the door of my good neighbor who I consider rich my own parents.

"Waalaikumsallam, ehh why did neng already feel the heartburn of his stomach ?" he asked, holding my big stomach.

"Yes ma'am, it hurts so bad." I groaned slowly.

Madam Ratih also gently massaged my stomach to ensure the position of my baby .

" Neng is the morning, it's up to the midwife now or tomorrow morning" said Mrs Ratih to me and Mrs Aldo.

"Where do you think? " tanyaku .

" Yes already a lot of roads first deck tomorrow after dawn we go midwives still hold right ? " answer my husband.

"Yes, pray that everything will be easy , "

" Must be this prospective child we will all be good just do not be afraid" said mas Aldo soothe me while rubbing the shoots of my head gently.

After dawn I could not stand us going to the midwife's house where I checked the contents all this time.

With ushering in the mother Ratih and her husband I have been in a special bad for giving birth.

I struggled alone in the maternity room while Aldo was waiting in front of the delivery room, so why he did not accompany me might not have the heart to see me in my inner pain to comfort myself.

After struggling with pain for about 2 hours we finally born our first child, a very handsome baby boy.

"His father may enter his son has been born" said the midwife in front of my maternity room.

Mas Aldo and Bu Ratih entered to see our son, "Subhanallah is a very handsome darling", muttered my husband with glassy eyes.

"Mas adzanin " .

Mas Aldo recited the Adhan with a brick in the ear of our son.

"Did you have a name for your child ?" many .

"As far as you are, the deck of the mas has no shadow of a good name."

My husband always relied on me to make decisions.

"Aksara devano, good no mas?" ,manyu asked my husband's opinion however he should consider the name for his son.

"Yes that's good." said my husband resigned as usual.

Hearing that I had given birth that afternoon my brother came to see me.

"Assalamualaikum, was born Ra? , you're not saying big brother !" my brother's grumbling is angry.

"Waalaikumsallam, sorry brother I can't think only rasain is sick" said I while holding my brother's hand .

"Great-looking", muttered my brother.

"Call Aksa budhe .." I replied mimicking the voice of a child.

"Hai Aksa welcome to the world." Brother did not stop talking while holding our little baby.

After a long time the parting sister came home, "Ra big sister went home first. ", hug big brother while clenching the money in my hand.

"Sister., I don't feel good about continuing to take nicotine." My great-granddaughter along with the melted tears on my cheeks.

"Do you have money to pay for everything?" he rubbed my tears.

I just shook my head slowly the more tears that flowed on my cheeks.

"Yes already brother came home yes do not think like rilex aja so that the milk is smooth if the money is less you call brother yes do not be on it !".

I hugged my brother tightly while having a little bit of a whim, "aghh it's lucky that I have you my inner nelangsa foot ".

"Aldo brother came home nitip Larasati, if there's anything to say with sister !".

"Sir, thank you." replied my husband .

The next day I was also allowed to go home, we went home on my husband's transport.

Now that I'm a mother, my responsibilities have increased starting today.

Because I just gave birth to my husband before leaving for work already prepared food and washed Aksa's diapers first .

Very good right? , my dream husband is also very grateful.

While I haven't been able to move much my cousin who accompanied me during Aldo's work.

Niar his name is he who helped me keep Aksa, I was not too brave because it was the first time I held a baby this small.

Mrs Ratih every day bathe Aksa even make me herbal medicine she said let my uterus heal and return to normal.

I am very grateful and very lucky to have Mrs Ratih contracted here, maybe this is the path that God has prepared for me.

After a few days I also started to get used to my current status and what I should do as a mother .

Tonight the 25th day has been almost a month yes it turns out Aksa was born, somehow I fell asleep from the afternoon maybe because I was difficult to adjust my sleep hours with Aksa , ' said Aksa , because if my son's night often invites his mother to stay up late.

At midnight I woke up from my sleep, ahh I forgot tonight I haven't drunk my watch .

I also woke up slowly from my sleep, I went ahead to take the herbs that I put in this guest room.

When I turned on the light I was surprised to see that Aldo was hugging Niar their lips were interlocked.

I was stunned to see it was never imagined, but Aldo immediately woke up like he was just as surprised as me.

Am I angry at them ? answer's no.

I was shocked I went back to my bed I cried in a mouthful beside my son.

"O Allah, my womb has not dried up, but I have received a very beautiful surprise from my husband who seems to love me so much, what is my fault, O God", I sighed in my heart.

Mas Aldo approached me, he was also lost words may not know what sentence should come out of the sweet mouth at this time.

Finally he kissed my feet and apologized.

"Dek sorry mas unintentionally, happened so aja oath dek mas do not mean to do this mas not.., agrrhhhhh" cried mas Aldo while grabbing his own hair

I just kept quiet with a blank look, it felt like so many swear words I wanted to say to them but my mouth felt locked tightly.

I finally chose to silence them too much heartache I have no strength to fight right now.

Fajr Niar came home without saying any goodbye and without saying anything to me .

Arghghh, it hurts my heart to think about what I saw last night, I am disgusted to see his innocent face.

Mas Aldo kept trying to apologize and tried to melt my silence with a lot of questions that none of me answered.

After cooking a clear vegetable mas Aldo entrust me to Madam Ratih, and he went to work before leaving he kissed my forehead while still saying an apology that I did not respond at all.

When I saw Bu Ratih enter my tears immediately broke I hugged the old man who I had considered as my mother.

I cried so much in his arms, 'Bu Ratih was confused to see me like that.

"neng why? ? , he asked while looking fixedly at my face .

"Mom.I hurt my heart, Mom. "I told you about last night.

Madam Ratih was stunned to look at me in disbelief, I was getting sicker and more sick to see him looking at me with a look of pity," O Allah. "my groan was interrupted by my sobs.

"So you don't rebuke them .?", I shook my head slowly, and he hugged me tighter.

"Patience, Istighfar remembers Aksa not to be too sad, " comfort Bu Ratih even though he knows it will not reduce everything I feel .