When My Race Is Dead

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Today is exactly a month I married mas Aldo, all still feels beautiful like a newlywed.

Mas Aldo treats me very sweetly, every day there is aja brought home as by-by after work, well ..mas Aldo works as a public transport driver but I always appreciate whatever results he brings home.

"Dear Assalamualaikum. mas go home", I jerked from my daydreams hearing greetings from mas Aldo.

"waalaikumsallam mas" I grabbed Aldo's hand and kissed the back of his hand.

" mas bring your favorite duku yank", while thrusting a black pouch at me.

"thank you", I greeted the bag with the sweetest smile I had.

"mas want to take a shower first what to eat first?", I asked while preparing coffee and food that I cooked earlier this afternoon, "dash first yes let us immediately eat, we eat, cook what today yank?, ehmmm I cooked balado tempe ma vegetable spinach mas ".

After Aldo took a shower we ate without a sound,

"how today mas rame nariknya?, Alhamdulillah yank not good" said mas Aldo while handing over 30 thousand of his work today.

"Thank you" I took the money with a smile.

As usual, we entered the room and took a break after a long day of activities.

Mas Aldo hugged me softly always like that we always slept cuddling and almost every sports day the night before closing our eyes.

The money given by Mas Aldo is not much and not infrequently come home not bring money because it is quiet but we always thank him.

Well I have to be smart to manage the money that Aldo loves to eat, pay rent and as much as possible set aside for our future.

The day we changed through happily maybe because we are still counted newlyweds so it all feels beautiful even though life is simple.

Today somehow my body lemes, my head is dizzy and a little nauseous when I smell the new rice Mateng, I remember my menstrual schedule was already late a week like it.

Out of curiosity I finally bought a bag pack and right the result is positive, I can't wait for Aldo mas to come home to say this good news.

"Assalamualaikum" before long the voice that I had taken outside my head was heard, "waalaikumsallam mas, um mass I had a surprise" I said as I hugged my son's body tightly, "what tuu bikin curious aja " say mas Aldo .

I showed the small flat object in front of my husband, "Alhamdulillah, it turns out I'm a tokcer ya yank", said mas Aldo while hugging me tightly.

We are very happy even though we did not expect that soon I would get pregnant but we did not refuse if God had believed in us.

Tonight we went through happily, Aldo slept while continuing to stroke my stomach elus.

"I just met my mother, why does mom seem to hate me so much ma mas, I'm wrong what?, I'm sad mas rich this is how I feel I'm a very evil daughter-in-law."

"Just be patient just do not have to be too thoughtful which is important we just let the mother g more angry, you focus aja ma our son yank do not be too stressed I do not want you sick." said mas Aldo.

"Yes mas "my great-grandson slowly.

Well .. My in-laws don't like me for whatever reason he likes me maybe because of the tribe or I'm poor, but my in-laws don't come from rich families either, sometimes I mess around thinking about this.

Maybe because this was my first pregnancy so I had a rather heavy cravings period, I could not get sunlight so my activities were only at home.

Fortunately my husband is very understanding every day to bring me food, because I can't smell food.

In-laws don't expect to see me, even though I really want to be considered a son-in-law but yes all just in my wish

Well, Aldo's on my side for this so I'm still a little calm.

"Why come home late, where was it?" ask me that afternoon.

"Sorry who was hanging out in the laundry first" he said while offering 10,000.

"Today is quiet pray tomorrow crowded yes" said mas Aldo while stroking my hair.

"Yes mas smoga is crowded every day" I said slowly.

Not ungrateful now I have to start thinking about the baby in my womb.

The cost of labor later should also be prepared.

This continues to repeat the income mas Aldo the longer it feels like the less I love.

At this time my womb has stepped on 4 months my body has also begun to adapt to the small creatures in my body.

This afternoon I intended to take the streets to get rid of the saturation, I unknowingly passed the car wash where mas Aldo always gathered, I saw a lot of friends - the driver was gathered around the table, my eyes were not wrong, right..? I saw Aldo there holding a card.

I take a rough breath, O Allah, so this is why the money given to me is always reduced, "Your mother is playing fate", my mind is sad.

I continued my steps no longer ignoring my husband and his friends, I did not approach him I was not so stupid as to humiliate him however he was my husband who I love, "ahh why you did it", I groaned in my heart while walking

As I always prepare food and coffee for my husband to come home, let me ask him slowly why he gambles there.

Not long ago I heard the rigid steps I knew so well, "Assalamualaikum" I looked at the open door, "waalaikumsallam, dah dah home" I answered while kissing his hand.

"Sorry grandfather, today it is quiet again" said mas Aldo while taking a plate and starting to eat rice that I have provided.

"Yes mas, as long as it's really quiet I don't matter" my great-grandson softly.

Then our silence was equally immersed in each other's thoughts.

After eating and taking a bath Aldo sat beside me while watching a small tv in the corner of our room, I looked at his face deeply I can not wait to express it to my heart.

"I was in the afternoon walking through front of the laundry, I saw a mas there again playing cards".

Mas Aldo saw me a bit surprised but I put my face as much as possible to avoid a fight for sure.

"Emmm anu the deck was just playing prank while waiting for time" he said with a smile as if it was an unimportant thing to discuss.

"Use the money, right..? I saw earlier on putting money on the "quote as smooth as possible.

"Not really just a change of money from where to play a lot?, mending for you" replied mas Aldo.

"Remember mas we not only need to eat at this time there are children that we have to prepare funds for the birth later, I hope mas understand we are struggling" I said slowly

"Yes the deck understand, I will try harder" replied mas Aldo

I took a slow breath I finally just let it go first at least he knew I had seen his behavior, I hope he understood, if I had to him as a husband and father would be bigger in the future .