When Love Fades

loss of confidence in alan

I see Alan hasn't opened my message. If I call him. I won't be given a chance to talk.

(mas. I once said that even if I was left dead, I would never marry again. With a video that does not see his face even Alan believes. Sorry !! I'm not that low. I won't admit to a mistake I didn't make).

I don't know what time Alan opened my message. It feels like this heart is really disappointed to be accused of a no-no by our loved ones. So hurtful.

It is afternoon. The sun seems to be leaning more towards the west. Orange colored sky. Marking today's journey is over. I closed the shop and prepared to go home. Playing with those kids will make my mood better.

It didn't take me long to get to the front of the house. It looks like Beautiful Bu is sitting on the green leaf house which is none other than my house.

"just got home, Rena ?". Beautiful Mom greeted me. She was a neighbor and nanny for my children. He has no children, so he doesn't mind taking care of the kids.

"yes ma'am. Where are the kids ?". I turned off my Vario motorbike and approached Ms. Indah.

"it's inside. Just finished the shower. Looks like Rena's having a problem. I don't mind if I want to tell a story". Bu Indah can read the look on my face which is indeed a problem.

"yes ma'am". I was sitting on the yellow chair right next to the lovely ma'am. He's very good with me.

"tell me son. Rena's son is already considered like a mother's own child". Beautiful Mom stroked my shoulder.

"mas Alan ma'am". I'm silent for a moment. I took a deep breath.

"what's wrong with your husband, son ?".

"the baby Iren sent a video of a hijab-wearing woman with a man. And the clothes that the woman wore were the same as mine". I told her in a stammering voice.

"astaghfirriulah.... How can I kid ?". Beautiful mom was so shocked.

"i don't know either, Mom. It was a coincidence or a setting. And Alan was so angry".I hugged the lovely ma'am while crying in her arms.

"the patient ones. It's ordeal. You don't suudzon just yet. Leave it to the almighty. Prove it to your husband that you're not wrong". Beautiful ma'am advised me as her hand stroked my head.

"yes ma'am". I broke my arms and wiped my tears.

"thank you ma'am. Now my heart is a little more relieved. Thanks to mother's advice".

"iya nduk. tomorrow-tomorrow if there is anything do not hesitate to share the story of the same mother. Mom came home. The kids ate too".

"yes. Previously, Rena said thank you very much. So far, I've helped Rena a lot".

"sama-sama nduk. Assalamualaikum".

"greetings waalaikum".

The beautiful house is not far away. About ten feet from the house. Sometimes the kids are brought home when I'm busy at the store.

After the beautiful ma'am is not seen anymore. I stood up and walked into the house. I saw the kids playing with their own robots. After Alan worked in Bali, I bought toys for my children, so the kids never scrambled for toys again. They each have toys.

Having two little princes makes my heart smile even though it hurts.

"huffm.... So sultry. I better take a shower soon". I said in my heart while taking off my favorite pink hijab with a flower decoration on the end.

***

At the house of mbak Iren. Riyan was busy serving the buyers. Well, indeed their store is quite large so that every day is never empty of buyers. Initially, Iren was given capital by Abi. Gradually Iren borrowed capital at the bank. Be as it is now. Have two employees. But it was not uncommon for the two of them to argue. It is Riyan who often makes a tantrum. Despite having three children and a beautiful wife is also smart, Riyan is still taking illegal drugs.

"bugh... You bastard !!! How could you betray me, Iren !!". Mas Alan caught Riyan being alone with a woman in a drunken state.

The woman immediately ran away when Alan beat Riyan and finally they were fighting.

"what is your business !. You're a little boy. Don't know shit. Just take care of your lecture". Reply mas Riyan while holding onto his bruised cheek.

Yeah... Alan was in college. He returned briefly to Palembang at Abi's request. After the incident, Alan and Riyan had their own problems. And Alan also chose silence and went to Jakarta.

Staying with a family that has too much theatrics is sickening for him. Meeting new people is more fun.