When Love Fades

farewell moments

Mas Alan was still busy talking over the phone with Aunt Anita's confidant. I saw the happy face of Mas Alan as if he was ready to part with us.

I walked away from Mas Alan with tears in my eyes. My heart always says

"O Allah, strengthen the servant, this is too painful to be felt".

"Dec". Alan called me. I quickly wiped my tears. Don't let Alan know I'm fragile at this time.

"yes Mas. What's up ?". I approached her with my most beautiful smile.

"Mas wants to ask". Alan began to ask

"She asked what ?". Answer me briefly.

"Later for example in Bali later Mas meet people who love the same mas keep asking in marriage how ? Can you not ?".

"o Allah, what kind of question is this. Not yet anything Mas Alan's been asking questions that make my heart hurt." I murmured in my heart.

I just fell silent. I didn't answer a word. Suddenly Mas Alan's phone rang, like it was a phone from Umi.

"Umi's Asalamualaikum".

"Waalaikum salam Al".

"What's up Mi ?".

"Lookin Al. This is advice from Abi and Umi. How about you fit in Bali later your wife and children stay here only. ".

"If the problem later let Alan negotiate first with Rena Mi. Alan can't make a decision now".

"Yes it's okay. That's just Abi's advice. Later Alfan let the school here with Aluna. Well your wife let me learn selling in the market. Abi is going to teach".

"Yes Mi. Alan will call back if there is an answer".

"Yes already. Assalamualaikum ".

"Greetings waalaikum".

"How about Deck, did you hear that ?".

I just fell silent. Still thinking about that question I haven't answered.

"I don't think I can live in Umi Mas's house. I'm not strong enough with Abi".

"Yes it's okay. You're here just like the kids. Don't forget to teach najarin. My son needs to be smart. Okay ".

For the umpteenth time Mas Alan never asked me to do anything that I could not.

Seeing the smile on my husband's face scared me to lose him.

"ngeng. ngeng.. ngeng...". It was Sahil's whining asking for a walk. Sahil has not been taken for a long time to walk with his father.

"Dek, Sahil asked not to say it".

"Come". Answer me quickly. Because maybe this is our last walk.

I immediately got ready and found thick clothes for my children. Because it is certain that the air outside is very cold.

It took me an hour to get to Aziz's house. Aziz is a friend of Mas Alan. The cold of the night wind that pierced to the bone but I really enjoy it. I don't want to get to the destination quickly. But finally arrived.

"Yes ... ..Yeah ...., I want a cheese banana". Alfan loves Aziz's cheese banana.

"Hay bro's.. Tumben played here ?". Say hello to Aziz to Alan.

"iya Ziz, this is all I want to say goodbye to".

"Where's the camel ?". Aziz.

"I'm going to Bali. Search experience.

I want to see a beautiful tourist. You want to come along ?".

Aziz was still busy with his toast and just smiled at Mas Alan's invitation.

"Keep the wife will be in humanity bro ?". Aziz's gaze led to Alfan and Sahil eating a cheese banana and having her lips brushed with chocolate.

"Gini loh Ziz, I work two years. Every month I send money to my wife. He's pretty quiet at the house taking care of the kids".

"But not that easy. That practice is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand".

"Fasting was two years Ziz".

"As far as you are, bro. I just want to be here. My wife is now pregnant. Don't dare to lie".

"Yes Ziz, I'm first. You just call me if you want to sign".

"Most looks are bro. Just be careful".

It doesn't feel like it's night. Alan told Aziz to go home.

"OKAY. We go home first. See you in two years...".

"Da .. Da.. About Aziz". Alfan waved his hand at Aziz.

"Da .. Da.. Also Alfan.."