When Love Fades

acquiesce

Meeting his ex and asking him out on a date is something Alan Abisali never thought of.

The corner of the city park. Alan was sitting quietly with Maya. Just to just unwind, while watching the birds fly back towards the nest. The sound of splashing water that falls into the pool makes fresh ears and the afternoon scenery more beautiful with a sunset that spoils the eyes.

"May, don't you get angry with your husband if you see me often ?". Alan started a conversation breaking the silence between the two.

"Suami ?? I'm not married Al. I still want to enjoy my free time".

Alan took a deep breath that was visible from both of his raised shoulders.

"What are you looking for ?".

"My love that shipwrecked Al ".

"Who is it "

"You".

Degs... Alan was silent again.

"Al, does that taste still exist ?. Just a little for me. To make my life more precious. Maybe the birds there are right now talking to me, laughing at me. A woman who has no shame. Abandoned her lover marries another woman, but still begging for love for her. I should be ashamed".

"I'm sorry May, I left you for no reason. I don't know why God brought me to Renata. I just knew him and now he's the one I love so much and my kids".

"I'm waiting for you until this second Al. Still expecting you. I still love you Alan. My love from the past until now is still intact, even increasing.

My days have turned more colorful here after meeting you.

Al, can't you just give me a little love. No need to much - just five percent is more than enough, the rest give to your wife and children.

Right now I am a woman with no self-respect. Begging for love in a married man. Am I the same as the actor ?. Who exactly is the actor ?. Me or Renata ?

Answer Al. Don't mute. You know I don't like it".

"I don't know what May has to say.

God tests us with something we love, so do not love him too much, so that when you lose you do not feel excessive sadness.

Time is maghrib. We'd better go home.

Assalamualaikum".

Alan got up from his seat and passed by from beside Maya.

"Greetings walaikum".

*Yes Allah.. Thank you for giving me a beautiful face. My smart brain is my other ability. But one thing, why is my love's fate not as pretty as mine.

O Allah.. You know, I loved Alan before Renata, you brought me to Alan first. But why did you match Alan with Renata* ? Why not with me. Am I not worthy of him ?. If yes, then I'll keep my foot up for him.

Oh Allah... If Alan is not my soul mate, why did You bring us back together ?. Who is my soul mate ?

Where is he now ?

I'll look for him..

* * * * * *

At the end of the night. I was constantly praying for the good of my husband. Suddenly I remembered the past, where every Alan mas would sleep always tell about his love journey to me. From Maya, Lila, Savia, and Nana the girl who memorized the Qur'an.So that I memorized any name that ever stopped in the heart of my husband. At first I was ordinary, because I was also not a person who easily fell in love. I was just a loyal listener to my husband. Without protest or questions.

Flash . . . .

At that time I thought that my husband had not been able to move on from his ex-girls. Especially Maya.

It was still Alan did until our second son was born. At that time our marriage was three years old.

"Mas.. Tonight let me tell you about your courtship. Alan wants to request which version ?. Maya, Nana, Lila, or Savia".

"Kok you suddenly talk rich' is that ?. Do you know ?".

"Not only know, I even really understand. For three years my husband told his wife about his past. And that's me".

Mas Alan only gawked after listening to an explanation from me.

"Why mas.. Kok diem's".

Mom, I'm the toughest wife in the world. Because for three years faithfully listening to the journey of my husband's love story with his ex.

At first I was not sick. But I've been feeling some pain here recently". I pointed at my chest.

Alan said nothing.

"I admit it. I used to have no taste at all for you. But now the taste comes into its own. And that feeling now makes me sick and weak.

If Alan wants to go back to your past. Go ahead. Search them. Find them. But one thing Alan should know. I'm going to back off. I won't fight over my husband. For it is better for me to be sick once than to be sick many times.

I'm not selfish. It's just that I can't afford to share a husband".