Untouchable

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The Sacha POV

I couldn't hold back anymore, until when I had to keep myself locked up. This is not something good. I couldn't get out quietly, it felt much more horrible than being chased by a debt collector or a loan shark. I'm not the type of person who has debts. But well you know for yourself I live in the same apartment building as her and why it really haunts me. I could not see his face even for a moment, I was afraid that my mouth could be slurred and would say something no-no when I met him. God, why doesn't this end so easily.

“Until when?” it was a question that had been running through my mind for days. If only falling in love was easy. Now I understand why many relationships are sometimes like swimming in a stream. Some people will probably make it to the end. But if they are, the couple can reach it. Because in fact on the other hand not a few also the relationship is even stuck drifting without ever seeing an end.

Easy to say but hard to express. In some people this is the case that is happening. But for me it is the opposite. I can see and feel the turmoil of the feeling but it is difficult for me to express the feeling. “I Also Love You” are three pseudo-words in short sentences that are very commonly used in everyday life. Then why does this tongue complain and is unable to throw it. Is it necessary to say those three words, is there a suggestion or is it an obligation ? Damn it’s killing me.

This simple thing has been a burden on my shoulders ever since that night, the night where he said everything. I feel like I have no power over myself. Dissipate all these thoughts in the busy daily routine such as school, modeling and other things. So you stop feeling jealous of people who easily get love, because in fact not all of them are able to hold or hold the love they can.

10 Days may sound short, but for me to carry all this like a burden it must have caused a lot of fuss in me. He may feel my absence in his life. I mean, since that incident why I even pulled away and created a wide distance every day. I was always wondering, could she think of me. What do you think about our current situation. But it is precisely these branches of mind that make me feel that everything is getting heavier. Since that night he sent flowers in the morning with a small note that read “Thanks for the night”. And this may sound harsh, but I'm not answering or saying anything to her, not even a thank you. That's the one that makes me feel bad even more so he never discussed it and I also did not dare to take steps to start the discussion topic. Not only did I get there, I almost ran into him several times. And it's ridiculous that I'm acting stupid like I'm gagging or pretending like I don't see him. All the good intentions and plans for myself have also been rejected raw. Meal offers, sightseeing, shuttle and others. Not to mention how many calls from him that I deliberately did not lift. The intensity of our chat dropped drastically. I never started a chat with him like before, even I also reply to chat from him very rarely.

Look how love has been slowly undermining me. All those stupid and silly things I did were just because I couldn't give a definite answer, and I didn't want anything uncertain that would hurt her. But good intentions don't always go well either. I must have failed to meet all the standards to become a dream lover. (At least for now. So don’t judge me. I’m suffer enough)

One good thing that has happened to me lately is that my relationship with the judges mark is getting better. I mean well the friendly relationship between us. He's a really good mind-shifter. That's why I spend more time with him. Finding other sides of him seems impressive. He always managed to amaze me. Plus he is also delicious. Don't jump in first. The energy delivered by Mark's body was truly an incredible savory energy. The intensity of the turmoil I felt was almost unstoppable. He is like a special menu variant available at top-class restaurants that are so uploading tastes. I was close to him not to make himself an object of food, but because of pure sincere intentions. But well that sometimes this self is a khilaf aja play nyerobot to touch and feel it.

But I'm determined to end this cat-and-mouse chase. I can't keep running from the trouble I've been in at least I'll apologize for everything I've done. I am tired of playing this game. If not for David at least for myself.

“I don't think I can wait long. Because the more time I spend, the harder it is to make a choice. If so, so what is it. I guess this is it” (My greeting on my reflection in this mirror glass)

Because the factor of inner encouragement, therefore took the initiative to invite David to happy land. A fun place to let go of grief or slang terms feelings of unease.

David POVs

I cannot mourn everything, hope is broken. At first I thought it was something new. But my prediction seems totally wrong. I lost absolutely. Because now part of me is actually cursing me because of what I did. They shouted that I shouldn't have to state everything and made the sacha startle. But whatever my day, I also can't resist the overflow of feelings that I have myself.

It feels torturous, I don't know until this kappa thing has to go on. Until when should I wait for the truth amid a sense of uncertainty. He added his movements as if giving me a bad signal. I sent her a bouquet of flowers with the intention of showing her heart. But what I got. Nothing, even if it's just a thank you.

I'm not trying to count everything but I feel like I'm in camp, feeling like I'm being thrown out. Although obviously I can not accept or justify the feeling that I have at the bottom of this heart.

But I also cannot close my eyes easily to ignore that the things around me are undergoing a drastic change. I tried to get close to him but he subtly refused all the help I offered. Several times I also found us who almost had time to cross paths but he actually acted as if he did not see my existence. Not to mention he had also ignored every phone call from me, even himself so rarely to chat with me. Not a few messages I left without reply.

I really wanted to see him in person and wanted to get out all these grunts that were on my shoulders. But I realized that it was me who gave him time to think. I don't want to be a man who imposes my feelings. It was that which always made me retreat every time I tried to interrupt him directly.

And also what I should ask for. He has no obligation to comply with my request. Who am I in this mortal world. “Begging love” is not my nature. Such times have passed when I used to be in junior school or high school. A man with dignity who gripped his words. At least that's what I learned.

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“I'm standing here apologizing for all my behavior that you might think looks ridiculous and like a child. I may not be able to meet all your expectations and be your heart's calling. Maybe I'm not worthy, never deserved.”

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