Three Years Different
42 (1): Without Nasab
"Lho's? Umma? Mardiyah ... why?"
Lutfan saw Mardiyah being led in slowly by Umma Sarah. Then he sat Mardiyah right on the edge of the bed, Lutfan who was still in a wheelchair approached the Wife and Ummanya.
"No pa-pa. Please don't tell Mardiyah just yet, son?" Umm Sarah gently rubs the head of the child. "So if you need anything say Umma aja, yes?"
Lutfan nodded. Umma Sarah was out, while Mardiyah was still sitting hanging not moving at all, her net was looking straight. Lutfan just realized, the eye was not like it was when he was staying, slightly changed, and swollen. Mardiyah's nose and face were slightly flushed.
He's crying? inner Lutfan.
"Mar ..."
Mardiyah's gaze moved, looking at him. "Yes? You need anything?"
"No. L'm ... E-elo isn't pa-pa?"
Mardiyah hush. Then rise towards the first drawer and then open and take something there. "Lutfan, tomorrow this love to Abian, huh? Tell him, sorry. I'm not making a promise."
"Chocolate?" lutfan asked as Mardiyah handed him the chocolate and sat back down. This time face to face with him. "Make Abian?"
"Yes. I promise you she's a gift."
Lutfan looked at his wife, put the chocolate on the table right next to him.
"Mar, are you crying?"
Mardiyah lowered her head, avoiding Lutfan's gaze. "Lutfan .. I .. want to cry again. No pa-pa, right? To-please, you .. pretend you don't know and don't see me."
Lutfan. With everything he could, he fulfilled Mardiyah's request, looking at and hearing her as if she did not exist, even though it was clearly displayed in front of her.
"Sister Mar was in the same place as those kids? Being teased again? Or throw sand?"
Mardiyah.
Lutfan approached, raising Mardiyah's face with both hands on her left and right cheeks. "Snake up, huh?"
Mardiyah forced Lutfan's hand off. Then looked down deeply and said, "Lu-lutfan .. I want to cry again. But you can't see."
"Why, Brother? I-i-"
Mardiyah's cry sounded clear and from then on Lutfan promised. If Mardiyah asked him not to look, then he would not see.
I promise you, Mar. But ... I can not see lo nangis kayak gini, inner Lutfan still silently looking at Mardiyah. His hand was involuntarily raised, touching Mardiyah's head which was covered by a veil.
Mardiyah nodded slowly, rubbing both her left and right cheeks. Then looked to the side, avoiding Lutfan's gaze. "You say, all the children born in this world are clean, and do not bear the sins of their parents."
"I agree. But why ... should I wear something this painful, Lutfan?" mardiyah.
Netra Lutfan widened, lest the luxury car he saw in front of the musholla belonged to Mr Gautama and Doctor Gumira?
"Sir Gautama and Doctor Gumira came here, right? Do you cry about having something to do with them?"
Mardiyah replied, "You believe that they are my family?"
Family-to-family? Not impossible. The adiwangsa? Mardiyah Family? Not his mother ... Adiwangsa bastard! lutfan who thrashed wants to curse as much as the family.
"No" replied Lutfan.
Mardiyah nodded as well. "But ... Mr. Gautama said, he was the .. who did it the-"
Really-it's asshole! Lutfan quickly refuted, "Oh so the powerful Adiwangsa ngaku himself?"
Mardiyah. "Lutfan .. Why do you talk like that?"
"Why is my talk? Really, really. And with Denger Mar, I don't believe you're part of that family" Lutfan said. Actually he seems to lie to himself, because part of his heart says that Mardiyah seems to be part of Adiwangsa. "They made you cry. So don't defend them in front of me, Mar."
"And if it turns out .. I am indeed the son of Mr. Gauta--"
Lutfan said quickly, "A biological father is not entitled to his biological child. Either the right of income, the right of inheritance and even the right to be your guardian, Mar. Do I need to be clear because of what?"
Mardiyah silently looked at Lutfan who was starting to ignite.
"All because of Adiwangsa's fault, Mar! He dared to do something that religion forbids." Lutfan's neckline visible. Even instantly throwing away the face avoiding Mardiyah's gaze. "I became a man. No matter how angry I am, as unaware of myself I am, and as much as I want to do it. What should maksa? Does it have to be merkosa, Mar?"
"Even worse, the Adiwangsa is a rape of the blood of the flesh from the results of his actions, and surely Mother lo hates the Adiwangsa herself, Mar!"
Mardiyah. I don't know why the words of Lutfan are some truths that he wants to eliminate.
"And the fallout all falls to the innocent child ... I don't have to be a person to know all the suffering that you are going through. Because I knew .. I knew the pain of being born into this world without a nasab. And I know the expectations of all women at marriage .. surely you also wish that Adiwangsa be your guardian right?"
Please stop by my story. There is still a WIYATI novel on hiatus forced to hiatus:')
